I WANTS!
31.5.09 @ 10:02 PM
I know I am such a spoiled materialistic brat.
But it is ok.
I make myself happy by doing these and that is all that matter.
:D
I don't actually care what others think about my purchases, they make me feel good and that is all that matter.
There are like a few things I want badly.
Like B A D L Y.
1. Rosebullet overalls, the sex seriously. SO FRIGGIN' NICE. Worth the 200 pricetag. But not now, next month. I MUST have it. MUST. Please still be there next month. I will krai if is it gone.
2. Converse sneakers. It is a need not a want. :D
3. Coach clutch. Very very very cute. But I won't die without it so it can wait. Overalls first.
4. Straw tote. My current one is dying and I really want a new big one. Not the mini and extremely expensive one from Kate Spade.
5. DKNY wallet. If it is still there when I have the cash to spare then I will get it. Since my red pretty one is still very much pretty.
All in all, I really want the overalls.
SO PRETTY OK.
Don't curse me for being such a materialistic girl.
Because I will curse you back.
:D
-prays for overalls to still be there-
遅いです、
@ 5:01 AM
でも、
お帰りつよぽん！！
つよぽんの戻りを待ってました。
この３５日ほんとにほんとに長かったです。
４人のSMAPはだめ
５人のSMAPは最高です！
ずっとずっと、君たちの笑顔が見たいです。
やっぱり、SMAPが一番だいすきね～
i think i need to see a doctor
30.5.09 @ 3:24 PM
Breathing has become such a chore recently.
I am not suicidal thank you very much.
I mean it literally.
So friggin annoying.
Urgh.
And I always feel sleepy at around 2 on Saturdays.
When I just woke up at 10.
Such a pig.
Ok, for the sake of not dying because I forgot to breathe when I am sleeping, I should avoid cold food/drinks.
Please slap me people if you see me eating icecream/anything cold.
Omg.
No icecream.
Shit.
New euro champions
28.5.09 @ 7:29 AM
Not us.
:/
Idk. I don't feel massive emotional turmoils but it will probably come later.
Barca was definitely the better side.
So I am glad.
If we lost, we lost well. Even though it is still a loss.
Do you get what I mean?
Edit:
I think it is damn sad that my MALE idol has longer hair than me.
And looks prettier than me when he dresses up as a woman.
Plus my attempt to skip class fails once again.
Having a conscience suck.
AnAn speshul is worth every single cent.
yankee doodle
25.5.09 @ 3:49 PM
I am such a willpower-less ass.
Seriously.
Sometimes I come home early with the intention to study.
I end up sleeping.
Sometimes I end work and promise myself no supper.
I end up eating kinder bueno.
Wah.
-.-
Zero determination really.
BUT.
I thought of an awesome way that I will not eat.
I will instead spend my money on shopping.
:D
Not the best way, but it MAY work.
MAY.
And I am going to make my Dad buy maccha ice for the match this Wed.
I haven't been watching any matches lately so I will stay up to watch this one.
And also the fact that school is for 2 hours only on Thursday.
Awesome.
I rike.
Yesterday at work, me, Drea and Cindy(new parttimer who is rather pretty imo) were chatting about our parents.
If I have the courage, I will ask my parents one question.
"Are you disappointed with who I turned out to be?"
They probably won't have a direct yes or a direct no.
But I will be happy to know if I have done at least one thing that made them proud of me.
It is always the small things in life that matter the most.
At least to me.
I am damn damn damn proud that they are my parents.
Not perfect, but close.
:D
So sometimes I feel quite guilty that as their daughter, I almost always fall short of their expectations.
Even though I am 18, I think I am too old to be the angsty, whiny, rebelling teenager anymore.
What they said is true.
"What we tell you, if you want to listen, good, if not you may just have to discover the hard way out yourself."
But as parents even when I am facing the hard way out, they will still be there to cushion the fall.
Ok, I don't know how complaining about how un-determined I am turned out to be a "I Love My Mum and Dad" fest, but it is ok.
Cause I do love them.
And this hair as well. Although he looks old. D:
But he is a 37 year OLD MAN already though.
:D
Anti-blonde.
Edit:
DID I MENTION?!!!!!!!
SATO TAKERU IS APPEARING IN EPISODE 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And my grandma's dumplings are awesome.
:inserts hearts:
Episode 2 : Gackt (YES! It is confirmed. I can't wait. So random srsly.)
Episode 3 : Kame, Aibu Saki (Yuck.)
Episode 4 : Sato Takeru (MATA!! Second time)
mr brain
@ 2:19 AM
I highly anticipated Mr Brain.
Anticipated his long curly hair.
Anticipated his KY-ness.
Anticipated his acting.
Anticipated the whole plot.
What I didn't see coming was this.
I swear, it is almost like a atomic bomb to my brain.
Sunny says it is ok.
I think he looks fugly.
D:
No blonde prz Captain.
Stay brown. And brown eyes. No blue for you.
Lucky it is only temporary.
If it is permanent.
I krai.
la la la love song~
22.5.09 @ 8:49 PM
End of another week.
Hmm.
Feel floaty today so no work was achieved.
But, contrary to the past, I don't really feel guilt.
It will probably sink in like tonight or something so I better go do something later.
:D
Walked home from Chinese Garden.
Usually I get off at Lakeside and walk for 7mins and then I reach home.
Decided to get off a stop earlier and get some exercise.
Walking can be quite tiring!
Did some walking recently.
Bugis to Somerset.
City Hall to Somerset.
^^
Feels good, but definitely HOT.
I sweat so easily it is not even funny! D:
Am starting a book.
Not writing.
Not lame jokes.
But I will start collecting places of good food and then paste them in my red book.
So I can easily refer to where is good.
It's fun!! ^^v
I think come next term I will cut down my schedule in Tamaya.
Term 2 will be much more packed with assignments and more taxing I think.
Plus, NEED TO START ON ESSAY.
-panics for a bit-
Maybe I will watch Atashinchi Danshi first?
Or should I do my work and then watch it over dinner?
Hmm~
So floaty today!
I still prefer him with dogs.
But this is extremely adorable as well.
:D
KY people, stay away.
Captain > Cat
no cookies!
19.5.09 @ 10:59 AM
I wanted to go to school early so that I can buy my Subway cookies.
But you know what?
I decided I shall not.
Must not.
Cannot.
Definitely not.
Slightly depressed now that I made my decision.
But if I don't start putting limits on what I do to myself, sooner or later I will not be able to walk through my front door with ease.
D:
Food, is my weakest link. OTL
I think I will be tormented by the thought of cookies.
T.T
Pilates or kickboxing?
:D
after two weeks of decisions
18.5.09 @ 12:09 AM
My most expensive purchase thus far.
595 for a mini bag.
Not that mini, but not that big either.
I am really happy my first is given to Burberry though.
:D
Bought tickets to both shows I wanted to go for.
Now, I am pretty broke.
So, I need money from Jo and Nao.
TOMORROW IS HORSEMEN DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am really quite excited.
But I am screwed for work wise.
D:
A L O T of reading/catching up to do.
Shit shit shit.
This week.
Ok I am going to bed first.
Toodles~
(why am i turning into Jas?!)
TAKEN
15.5.09 @ 12:26 AM
Ok, I have decided to not watch Much Ado About Nothing because reviews are HORRIBLE
and I am not going to 1. waste my money and 2. spoil my image of the book.
I have also decided that so as to not let myself die of radiation, I will off my laptop every night.
:D
Currently, I am going to the Da Vinci exhibit with Drea, Nacchan and Sunny.
Crab Flower Club with Jo.
Only left with Sin Sangre, which I find really really interesting!
Maybe will watch it with Nao if she can apply for leave.
I never knew she used to take theatre studies.
Interesting.
Hopefully we can go.
>.<
Yay! Buying tickets for CFC tomorrow.
AND!
Kame is damn lucky!
He gets to have Captain putting his face damn close to him!!!!!!
WTH!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn, bloody, lucky ok.
D:
And he has Captain's phone number/mail add.
One of the two lucky ones in JE (excluding SMAP), the other one being Domoto Tsuyoshi.
Cannot wait for May 23rd and 28th.
Start of Mr. Brain and Tsuyopon's return respectively.
^^v
I deserve death.
No revision was done today.
At all.
T.T
-buries myself in cement-
Of the airy fairy flotsum
13.5.09 @ 8:56 PM
Ok. Yes.
I had A L O T to say, but I forgot them all.
D:
This sounds like a corny pickup line.
Except I am not picking anyone up.
Sunny asked if I am coming online tonight and she doesn't even appear for 1 second.
I do not want a mohawk.
Bald I can accept, not a mohawk.
My mum will mow me straight into the dry earth, which will not be a pretty sight.
I want to watch Horsemen.
According to everyone I know who watched it,
only 2 but you don't have to know that it is the kind of show I will enjoy.
Wanted to drag Jas to watch with me today,
skipping GEMs in the process but it didn't work.
So, will watch next week.
You better watch with me. >:(
I think it is a good show to watch with popcorn.
Currently, I have managed to keep my track record clean, been to all lessons, resisted temptations to miss class and caught up with my revision.
D:
I am getting too mugger-ish, but it is probably to compensate the lack of studying the past few years.
Honestly, I don't know what I am studying for and if this is what I really want to do for life.
But until I find out what I really want, I will continue to do this because at least I am happy doing this.
Despite complaining about studying, I actually like it because it provides a shelter where I can escape from life for awhile.
Even though there is no straightforward answers in this course but at least I can still be a student where I don't have to fend for myself yet.
And somehow, I find comfort in that.
Ya know, I chanced upon the blog of a friend, a friend I grew up with, but drifted apart from.
Hmm, I realised there were a lot a lot that I didn't know.
I don't know.
I used to be really jealous of her life, from her parents to her results.
Everything seemed to be going her way.
That, was what I thought.
She is probably a really really lucky girl in her own way, with awesome friends to support her, results that I am probably too stupid for, but at the same time, now, I am happy about my own life as well.
I stopped wishing that I have her life.
She is happy with hers (or so I hope) and I am happy with mine.
I am glad I have a say in my life, that at least I get to study what I am happy with.
Perceptions matter, a lot.
I am probably this satisfied with my life because my perception about my life has changed, what I used to deemed unworthy and unimportant and what I placed on top priorities have changed and I am much happier this way.
There is always a silver lining in every cloud, if you can't see it, it is probably because you are standing at the wrong place.
Maybe if you moved and see it from another angle, you will see the silver lining that has always been there, just hidden from view.
Am I getting too preachy?
I am just glad that I have stopped thinking of myself as a loser.
^^v
I will send Sunny a letter in reply to her post.
My best friend is damn awesome.
But I am craving Subway. D:
Not like there is any link, but ya.
OH ANDREA, THE LEONARDO DA VINCI EXHIBITION IS ON MAY 16TH AT SCIENCE CENTRE!!!
It will run for 3 months, so no hurry. :D
Shall we go on a date for the exhibition and then desserts?
One good thing that came out of Michelle's lessons.
I am more motivated to go for arts related events.
:/
There are a few that I want to go for so please to tell me if you all want to go for it too!
:D
- Leonardo Da Vinci exhibition
- The Crab Flower Club [3rd to 5th June]
http://www.singaporeartsfest.com/event/view/name/the_crab_flower_club/
- Sin Sangre (Without Blood) [26 & 27 May]
http://www.singaporeartsfest.com/event/view/name/sin_sangre/
- Much Ado About Nothing [7th to 31st May]
http://www.srt.com.sg/
:D
9.5.09 @ 11:20 AM
It is hard to feel any guilt or anything at all when I don't even care.
Just. あ、そう。
And that's that.
Maybe I am being infected by drea's "Don't think/care so much" attitude.
:D
And I like it.
CORO-CHAN NISSIN NOODLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D:
大好きな友達へ
7.5.09 @ 9:25 PM
いつもありがとう。
It is worrying to know that something is wrong, but I can't do anything but watch helplessly by the side.
It is horrible because whenever I have a problem and I go to you, you never fail to make me feel better but now, I can't seem to do anything.
Sorry for being such a bad friend.
ごめんね。
Sometimes I wish we are in the same school, then we can hang out and talk to each other more frequently than we do now.
Maybe it is just a phase that you are going through now, but more than one secret post appearing more frequently than normal.
I don't like.
Even though you are supposed to be older than me, sometimes though, it feels like you are this little girl that needs to be protected.
It is always very happy to be with you.
Even if I have to wait for you 99% of the time and I do get annoyed but it is good to talk over our meal.
There are probably a million things that I have yet to find out about you and I am kind of dense so unless you tell me directly, I will take very long to know.
Best friends are special.
I think.
They come once in a long long time and sometimes in your whole lifespan only one or two will appear.
Close friends aplenty, but something is just different with the friend you can talk about anything with.
Maybe not everything but many many many many many many things.
ね、Sunny.
I am really really really glad I met you.
Really really really glad that we are friends.
Really really really glad that you decided to place me under the "like" column instead of the "hate forever".
Really really really glad that you are always there when I need you.
But really really really upset that I can't be there when you need me.
Let's try to change this from now.
^^v
Please take care until the day I am solid enough to be your shield.
Go us!
がんばりましょう！
P.S. I can share Captain with you.
Only you. Honoured?
:D
買い物の日
5.5.09 @ 12:50 AM
was yesterday! :D
Bought quite a lot of stuff.
Am happy/satisfied for now at least.
Made a pact with Mum though, we won't wear our new clothes for a while and then wait and change all the clothes in our wardrobe at once!
I like!
School is picking up pace, getting busy.
I am feeling lazy recently.
Which is NOT GOOD.
>:(
Cannot slack ah.
Hmm~
I feel better recently, happier, but something is lacking.
Somewhere.
We are rarely satisfied but recently, I don't seem to quite know what I want.
Ranging from food to life.
I want to write here, but I don't know what to write about.
I have an abundance of words all jumbled up up there but the moment this page opens, it all mysteriously disappears.
Horrid.
I need to read soon.
Feel so lacking.
Comfort zone comfort zone.
Maybe I am too comfortable recently that's why everything seems so mundane and B O R I N G.
Ahhh ah.
Let it be this way then.
I don't feel a pressing need to make any changes to my life.
Except maybe lose some weight.
If I have the willpower to continue for more than 3 days that is.
My house does not have a hairdryer.
Thus, I can't sleep because my hair is wet.
These are the times where I wish my hair is short.
-heaves sigh-
OH YA.
Have to bring laptop to school on Wednesday.
SIAN MAN!
-.-
大好きなあなたへ
today seems a happier day
2.5.09 @ 11:09 AM
Tsu is not going to be charged and rumours has it that he will definitely return.
Maybe by July.
:D
I love life.
I just hope it is true.
Wanted to ask Ry to help me buy the discs from Japan.
But I popped down to HMV to ask the people to help me get.
:x
IDK why.
Maybe it is cheaper to get direct instead of from HMV, but then since I was getting something else from them as well.
Might as well do it at the same time I thought.
So RY! If you read this before I tell you, tag?
And thus I will be tranferring you 5000yen+5bucks for the fee only ok?
The exchange rate dropped, but I can't buy my DSi this month.
I won't have enough to survive the month.
Gyukaku coming up.
Then I have to go down to buy this month's Seventeen and I will be done with Kino.
That is the major outing this month and then I will scrimp again.
LOL.
But it is ok, I saved this month as well.
My plan for now is to hit my target for my study fund before saving more in my 2011 fund.
It will be faster that way I think, instead of trying to split the two and seeing little progress in either.
:/
Today will be revision/homework day.
Cannot be lazy.
D:
Yay people!
Enjoy your weekends ok! ^^v
I AM OLD!
1.5.09 @ 1:38 AM
I think, I am aging.
Ok wait, not I think, I know.
:D
I am quite happy actually. LOLs.
My back ached from working today.
Hurt like mad, but it is a sign that I am aging.
Awesome.
I am not being sarcastic by the way.
BUT!
I have an almost miracle bath item at home.
It is the towel where you can scrub your back with.
When I use it, I feel refreshed immediately.
Damn good.
I love the fact that tomorrow is a holiday.
Not that I will sleep in.
My body is my own alarm.
Unless I sleep really really late, I will usually wake up from between 7+ to 9+
-.-
Isn't it just sad?!
Oh shit, I just realised, my phone still off.
D:
Ok, nothing important.
TODAY IS PAYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As you can see, I am extremely happy/excited.
Spoke with a few lecturers today.
They probably think I am not too sane.
:/
BUT! I may get to work with Felix.
Which is awesome. He is so nice to bully.
Best thing, I don't even have to do much.
:D
I am joking of course, don't freak.
Not in the right state of mind now, too tired.
And right, I think, maybe, I like
him.
Don't guess.
