xiahhhhping
30.11.08 @ 1:41 AM
Went shopping today with Yui.
Bought:
1. Denim short skirt from Pull & Bear
2. New bangles from Pull & Bear
3. ALOT of stickers from Kino
4. Pinky from Kino
5. Bleach 35 from Kino
6.
Fly Daddy Fly from Kino
7. Christmas exchange gift
Spotted:
1. Really awesome Guess bag
2. ALOT of books that I want
3. Price of SMAP single from HMV
4. The Levi's watch that I am going to get
Feeling:
Really satisfied :D
And I really don't quite like the feeling of having makeup on my skin.
I have 47 sets of stickers now, which I am never gonna use, cause they are reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally cute.
Even if I seem to be the only one thinking so.
I really HATE it when people stare at me on the streets or on public transport.
Because I have no friggin' idea why they do so.
And I am really pretty damn sure they do stare because it is BLATANTLY staring.
Annoys the hell outta me.
Especially this creepy uncle on the train, he was smiling like how a pedophile would.
-.-
YUCKS.
One more week of school before the term break starts.
Sexciting times are coming!
And I can't wait to see Celestine! :D
buy list :)
29.11.08 @ 12:02 PM
I haven't decided what to do on bimbo day, but I have decided what I want to buy.
1. Guess Straw tote ($79.90)
2. 1 SMAP release ($27)
3. 1 piercing ($6)
4. Levi's watch ($98)
And if I have spare, I will get the DKNY gold tote!
& tons of books and clothes.
:D
happy 23 junno!
@ 1:59 AM
happy 23rd birthday junno!
:D
have a good one with komine reina!
EDIT:
So that it will appear less sad (the banner for maiforum didn't even get changed!),
Fancy a 23 year old man losing to a 36 year old man.
I really need to pay you more attention.
-looks guiltily at Captain-
meeeeeeeeeeeeeme
28.11.08 @ 11:07 AM
Was tagged by Lis a few days back.
Rule #1
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Rule #2
Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.
1.Do you have secrets?
Asking the obvious.
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
No freaking way. Ever.
3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Sometimes, yes.
4. What if your ex-crush got jealous over you all of a sudden ? How will you react?
Ask him to go get a life.
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Sunny? Or Binx2? The former, yes.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both. It's sad if you can't love.
7. Will you forgive the person who played around with your feelings?
No. No matter who.
8. If the person you like knows you like him/her, what would be your reaction if he/she said yes?
Uhmm. Idk? I usually imagine rejection scenes.
9. Is there anything that made you extremly happy?
Travelling around the world with a lot of money, a backpack and alone.
10. Number one weakness?
People who can argue.
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Ask me again in 5 years.
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
My family& friends. Those that I care for.
13. What is/are the most important thing(s) in life?
Family, friends, books, ice cream.
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and rich. My favorite combination.
15. What your favourite colour?
White/black/red/purple.
16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
Maybe?
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one who likes me more. Sorry, I decided to make myself more important.
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I would need time.
19. Will you confess to the person you like/love?
No.
20. 5 people i'm gonna sabo:
1. Sunny! (You still haven't done the last one!)
2. Andrea!
3. GG!
4. Natsuki!
5. Celestine!
zero
27.11.08 @ 12:48 AM
If my inner emotions were to be displayed on the heart rate monitor, I would probably be admitted into the high-emergency ward or maybe even the mortuary.
I don't really care for a lot of people except a few.
I am re-thinking.
What is happiness to me?
How will I feel happy?
And really,have I ever felt true happiness?
I am not being emo because it is just dumb.
It is just self-reflection, life-reflection.
I think I need some time alone.
Because, I am tired.
Would starting from zero be better?
我累了, 想休息一下, 可以吗?
why states?
24.11.08 @ 12:06 PM
I have been thinking about this since Monday, but I don't really know how to explain myself.
Last Monday when we were talking to Wendy about her studies in England, like what was it like, how did she feel, what did she have to go through etc.
Wendy is my drama lecturer by the way.
England, I have always felt that it is a very vibrant society with all the arts.
Comparatively, the States for me have always been, quite bland?
If I was to use colors to describe the two, England would be red and States will be more blue.
It has nothing to do with their flag colors mind you.
The states have always felt more mild to me.
Maybe it is because I have always been exposed to England that's why.
Somehow though, even though England seem to be so much more exciting than the States, I have never really wanted to study there.
The States is huge, I don't know where is good for now but what I do know is, I don't want to study in New York.
It just looks and feel like a whole melting pot of people, buildings and a million other jaded workers.
I like the sunny states and island, like California, Florida, Hawaii.
Even those where there are more farmlands is fine.
I never exactly figured out why I want to study in the States.
Or why not England.
Apart from one glaring obvious reason, Forensic Psych is a lot more advanced in the States.
When I think about studying overseas, I realise I never do have the "glam" dreams about what it would be like.
I don't dream about getting all my freedom there, hanging out with all the hotties, doing things I can't do here, getting wild.
Maybe it is just me.
-shrugs-
I don't know.
I don't have to have to find a reason like that, but it just kinda struck me as weird.
Sometimes it feels like I don't have a life like the other kids because I don't watch cartoons, that I don't fit in with the others because I really can't be bothered with who snogged who, that I don't have like a million other friends outside of school, that I just like booze but not the other labels that will come with it.
I always thought I was a weird kid because I hated cartoons.
I didn't understand why they existed and when I saw the throngs of people queuing up for Hello Kitty, I just felt like laughing at them.
I didn't see the point, people were going to throw them away in the future anyway.
So why do something that won't last?
Why don't they do something that will last?
I enjoy what I am learning, what I am doing now.
But sometimes, just occasionally, I feel lost, as though I can't really find my direction.
I mentioned this before, I want to be a forensic psych not because I want to rid the world of baddies, but because I believe that what you do, there is a price tag attached to it, you pay for what you do.
I merely want to ensure that they pay what they do and because unless there is delibrate modification, hard, cold evidence never lies.
I think I am quite a cold person, in the sense that I don't really care what happens to the vic, I am always more interested in the perp.
But back to the question.
I think, I will start the search for the answer.
death and dancing
23.11.08 @ 12:05 PM
The play last night at Play Club was really awesome.
Not a full 100 out of 100, but it makes you think.
I think good plays make you think.
Anyway, the whole play reeked of Claire.
Seriously, the whole script, the whole feeling, even the way the actors spoke, I was highly reminded of Claire.
But well, she is the director afterall.
:D
Although it was written by Claire Dowie and Mark Pinkosh.
Claire Dowie's name keeps popping up.
Seen her name twice in three weeks!
But a play well done on the whole!
A dialogue in the play that stuck with me throughout because I can't answer the questions either.
Why are you studying?So that I can graduate.
Why do you want to graduate?
So that I can get my degree.
Why do you want to get your degree?So that I can get a good job.
Why do you want to get a good job?So that I can earn lots of money.
Why do you want to earn lots of money?So that I can do what I want to do.
Why can't you do what you want to do now?
Will you still remember what you want to do when you have earned lots of money?That is about the gist of it. Not exactly the same for the last part cause my memory got fuzzy, but that is about it.
Think about it.
I have almost the same answers to it.
This play, after watching it, doesn't necessarily means I will try to modify my answers to find a suitable and perfect one because there isn't, but it makes you think about what exactly do you want to do in life.
Prompts self-reflection, society-reflection and parents-reflection.
It may be talking about gays and lesbian on the surface, but I think beneath it, there is so much more that they are exploring.
The main thing is You.
I don't agree with every single thing the female lead said, but some of the things she pointed out makes sense.
Why would you need so much money in life when you can't even be yourself and be happy.
I like plays or in general, things that make me think.
My 20bucks was pretty worth it. Or at least I felt so.
Yups, musicals are there to entertain your asses off, concerts are there to train you to have the sense for good music and personally I think, plays should make one think.
It should be entertaining, but there must be an underlying factor, like why would you want to do this play?
What are you trying to get across to your audience?
What is the message you are telling us?
I highly doubt I will end up in the arts field when I graduate, but I think DADP gave me this opportunity to be exposed to the arts field.
Something I really appreciate.
Even without fanciful props or a million other co-actors, with just, two actors, the script (and lights and music), I think
Death and Dancing did a pretty good job.
:D
Enjoyed myself thoroughly last night.
The thing that I like about the Westerners?
They don't balk at every mention of a taboo subject.
And I honestly never ever knew there were that many gays in SG.
Some are even pretty cute.
-.-
-laments the loss of cute straight guys-
I still feel pretty sour that I didn't catch Avenue Q though.
Dang.
I think that too will be pretty good.
Idiot-proof as Wendy says.
scarlett o hara
22.11.08 @ 3:52 PM
It is no secret that I love mystery/thrillers and I absolutely cannot stand reading brainless bimbo books.
Really, I would just flip to the back to see if the lead managed to clear her debts, bought that new dress or snagged that hot guy.
Once a upon a time, a long time ago I was hooked onto romance novels, but never chick lit.
With my nature, I guess it is only a matter of time before I am addicted to the genre that hogs 3/4 of my shelves now.
But occasionally, I realise that I really like reading classics and works of literature.
It takes more brain power to understand the underlying meaning and classics are really just sappy novels that have passed the test of time.
Don't kill me the lovers of classics because I enjoy my classics too.
One reason why I really can't wait for the holidays to come, I want to sit down
with a tub of icecream and read
Gone With The Wind.
I am kind of horrified that I have yet to read this rumoured to be amazing book.
So yes, I went out to get it and am planning to finish it before the holidays end.
It is superbly thick even by my standards and the books I read are really quite thick if I say so. >.<
I really really really really miss reading literary works.
But I don't know where to start from.
So people, this is a plea.
Tell me which books are good? Like which books are worth the time, money, brainpower and passion.
No chick read, I whack you.
Oh yes, I need to continue buying the chinese translation of Ikebukuro West Gate Park.
Japanese works translated to Chinese, they are actually quite good.
Not as awesome as the original will be, but since I am waaaaaaaaaaaaay more proficient in chinese, I can only read those.
December = Month of Reading
I can't wait to start on one of the most famous couples that the English language owns.
i need entertainment!
20.11.08 @ 10:15 AM
Haven't updated for the past couple of days.
Nothing much to add, my life is mundane you see.
Tons of assignments piling up, but not like I am doing them when i am not blogging.
Not much time, ok, I really don't know where I spend my time, but at least I got my CommServices essay completed.
Just need some editing.
I think I will start of my notes and journals when I come home today.
WIll measure body proportions come weekend so I can start on my essay.
Oh and the IDEAS project.
Yakun!
Bloody hell, so many things!
Ok, whatever. I will do them one by one, slowly.
I believe I will still finish them on time eventually.
Seeing that I will be handicapped from Monday to Thursday, this week is work week!
I think Week8 will be less workload, left with just IDEAS, Research Methods ppt and essay submission.
All of which should have been done in these two weeks.
Ok, should be fine, I think I will survive.
:D
Time to go school!
i want my holidays prz!
17.11.08 @ 10:51 AM
You know things are getting bad when I am already planning to skip school on Sunday.
Obviously I didn't because the only day I will consider skipping is Monday and since I am like totally awake now, I will go to school.
But I realise, this week, I will have to get my Community Services essay done, the IDEAS thingy planned out, get started on my GEMs essay and revise my RWP.
Fantastic.
Luckily I already cut my schedule down to 1 day.
Now, work is like a breather for my school.
How amazing.
-note the sarcasm-
But it is not like I am unhappy with life.
Just that like a million other students out there, I WANT MY HOLIDAYS!
And I still can't make peace with the dumb timetable that SP has.
I am definitely skipping school on the 31st.
No way am I going to school on that day.
=.=
Today marks the start of Week6.
6,7,8.
3 more friggin' weeks of working hard!
I am quite happy with the way things are going now.
Maybe I cna achieve even more if I spend less time here, but at least for now, I am still quite happy.
I was watching Tiger&Dragon and one guy said this, which I think it is pretty true.
People who are working hard won't be saying "I will work hard" because they already are. All that said, I WANT MY DECEMBER HOLIDAYS!
And if I need to do homework on my birthday, screw you.
It will be a bimbo day out and it must be a bimbo day out.
I already decided what I want to buy that day.
:D
In case you are sick of Kimura Takuya's face. Here is Junno for a change. Don't you dare say he looks like Changmin from DBSK or Jerry Yan from F4, else I stab you.
Captain, お誕生日おめでとう
13.11.08 @ 12:00 AM
Happy Birthday Captain!
Happy 36th birthday.
This was typed a couple of days in advance, because I probably won't have enough time to finish everytime by 12.
I apologise if your computer hung trying to load the page.
It is really image heavy.
I did warn you with plurk though. :D
Captain.
How are you going to celebrate your birthday this year?
This year, I learnt a lot about you.
That you are really the most sukebe in SMAP.
Nakai is the same age as you are and he is so shy to even let other members see his kiss scene and you openly talk about sex on radio.
Requesting fans to wear bikinis to the concert, looking out for babes with Goro, telling everyone who is listening on the radio to search their parents wardrobes, sharing what he saw his parents doing at night when he was young, telling dirty jokes.
I saw a new side to him.
I wonder what will I have missed out on if I hadn't watched Hero 7 years back.
Through the Korean fandom, through the KAT-TUN fandom, so many years have passed.
However when I think back about your 21 years in the industry, 7 years don't seem that much either.
This month, 21 years ago, you joined JE.
I am really really really thankful that you did.
Thankful to your Dad and your Mum who brought you up well, thankful to your aunt who sent your in application.
Throught these 7 years as your fan, I had many ups and downs, personal and those related to how I felt about you.
Like many other people, I can't but wonder would it be any different if you and Kaorin didn't break up, if Shizuka Kudo didn't get pregnant, if you two didn't get married.
What would have changed?
These answers I will never know.
I do know though, the basis of all these is because I hope you are happy now.
Genuinely happy. It doesn't matter if one day you decide to stop being in this industry because as long as you are happy I believe fans will respect your decision.
I don't see him as an idol because he is long past the stage of being one.
It seems wrong to call him an idol when he is more of an artiste.
It took me really long to come to this stage where I finally admit I am a SMAP fan instead of just a Kimura Takuya fan.
It was more politically correct because then, I couldn't care less if Shingo got married unless of course Captain was involved.
I openly claimed that buying SMAP's musical releases is a waste of money.
Ok, to be totally unbiased, it is.
Even till today, I can't really go through Nakai's singing without wincing.
Their singing is painful to say the least.
However, just like how Ry says Jin won't be Jin if he isn't lazy, SMAP won't be SMAP if they are able to sing.
I guess when you finally enter their fandom, the music calibre just doesn't matter, as long as they can memorise their lyrics, it is a blessing.
In the KAT-TUN fandom, music quality is always emphasized, but here, no one really bothers.
SMAP had to work their way up. I believe, maybe even harder than K8 had to.
The staff members had to hold up "Ganbatte!" signs to keep them singing to an almost empty concert hall.
Nakai had to go to Johnny to appeal that they have a comedy show to attract more fans.
Now, their concerts are usually or maybe always packed.
Artistes from all over come to watch them perform.
Not sing, because they obviously can't, but perform and maybe, out of the sheer respect for them.
SMAP's performance is always worth watching, just for the very fact that they are SMAP.
They created a legend all by themselves.
A legend that I think future generations are finding it hard to break.
Nakai promised that all 6 members will be there for the fans till they were all old.
But when they finally garnered some form of support, one member left.
The other 5 continued.
They continued to work hard, now it is not only working hard for themselves, but also for Mori who left.
Even till today, Captain stands firmly behind him, supporting his decision.
But not long later, Goro was suspended because of a hit and run accident.
Best Friend became a really special song.
The song they sang when Mori left and the song they sang when Goro returned.
The 4 repeatedly, continuously apologised for Goro.
They never lost faith or belief that he won't return.
They wore a shirt with his face to show that he is always with them.
Through the years, through so many incidents, the hard times they had to go through.
If we apply the popular "member-ai" phrase to the SMAP today, I think, they far surpass many many groups.
It is not very obvious, but it is always there. Their bond.
Nakai is so dumb when he is on Utaban with Arashi, refusing to heed the producer's advice, delbrately singing extra loud, when asked to lower his volume.
Goro is so obsessed with his hair, so KY.
Tsuyoshi is just, Tsuyoshi, who can't draw to save his life.
Shingo notices everyone in the group because he is the youngest.
Kimura, you may want to just slap him because of how he acts like a brat when he is unhappy on shows.
But, those are also the exact things that make them SMAP.
Today is Captain's 36th birthday, but why so much on SMAP?
Because Captain is part of SMAP.
Without SMAP, I believe he won't be who is today. Standing at the position where he is. Up on top.
His solo works, they are truly awesome.
But for now and from now on, I will always appreciate SMAP more.
Because to have come this long long way, it wasn't easy, but not once have they given up.
To gain fans is easy, but to keep them, it isn't.
SMAP has done it for 2 decades.
Captain has done it for 2 decades.
There is so much more to him than just his looks, looks can only last for this long, but he has so much depth, so much strength in him.
For him I think, this industry is a job, but SMAP is more than a job.
However as he showed us 7 years back, he will proceed to do something if he thinks it is right.
His sense of responsibility, his politeness to the backstage staff, his sincerity to his fans, the respect he gets from his fellow artistes.
He tries hard to show people, to let people view him not as a bigshot idol, but an idol who is also an ordinary man.
His breakup had hurt him badly and he wasn't afraid to show it.
He probably didn't believe in keeping his relationship with Kaorin a secret because she was a part of his life, the fans were also a part of his life and he didn't want to pretend that because of his job he doesn't have a girlfriend.
He took risks, probably like everyone else of us, hope that it will turn out fine and really, I am glad it did.
Because although by getting married, he broke a lot of hearts, I think many others respected him too.
For the decision that he took. Even though it was the decision that will make or break him, he chose to face it.
Even though, SMAP and Captain have many many many countless of flaws, I still think that the young idols have much to learn from them.
Then again, it may just be that the circumstances that led to their rise in fame was different. SMAP came the hard way.
I feel sorry for him that because of the rigid and ridiculous rules of JE, he had to give up on two international film award nominations.
All he wanted was to be a good actor and get recognised for his hard work.
To memorise a 5 mins speech and take it in 1 cut, I don't know what to call apart from just plain brilliance.
Oh yes, I remember now, hard work.
To me, he is so much more than an idol because I respect him as an artiste and as a person, a role model.
For the past 7 years, with him I went through my primary and secondary school life, I believe and I hope, for the next 7 + 7 + 7 ... years, Captain will still be there.
Lastly Captain, Happy 36th Birthday.
You have come a long way, you have gotten the rewards that you work hard for thus, I hope you will have an extremely awesome year ahead.
Till the 37th.
[Extremely image heavy.]This is collection of some of my favorite pictures. Enjoy.
His smile, the one thing I wouldn't mind being flashed at me on repeat mode.
Bless his aunt who sent in the application.
Not even once have I regretted being his fan.
He can be amazingly hot, cute, lovable, cheeky, handsome all rolled into one, all at once.
Did I forget to add pretty to the list? My mistake.
Un-delibrately sexy.
Do you know? He is rather good in kendo.
Captain can catch a fish and also prepare it. Did you think BistroSMAP was just for show?
I am sure I mentioned pretty.
Nissin instantly became my favorite and only consumed brand of instant noodles.
I can't help but marvel at his beauty.
His melancholy.
He rips his shirts. If they can't be ripped, he doesn't remove them.
It is wrong. But for him, I want to age.
SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! >.<
He delights in finding cheap/on bargain clothes.
Jyanni Deppu.
I love this picture. If I can, I will stare at it for days on.
Pretty as an elf.
Vanness from F4 decided to copy his hair for Taiwanese Meteor Garden.
D A M N S E X A Y.
Orange makes him look like a bad boy.
His hair is longer than mine ever was.
I have zero anti-bodies when he tucks his hair behind his ear.
No doubt ever that he will be and is a good dad.
It all snowballed from these two.
Maybe he started the headband trend.
He definitely changed my life.
He makes me laugh.
I am probably only halfway through. Are you tired already?
He's the reason why I never found anyone else with ciggies smoking hot.
His side profile is awesome.
Then again, so is the rest of his face.
I am so glad he didn't do anything to his teeth, because they are perfect the way they are.
One of his most classic pictures. Strangely attractive.
DAMMIT! Somehow, only now do I realise what a gay shirt he is wearing.
I never ever want to engage in a staring match with him.
I can never decide if he is trying to be intense or sexy. Ok, maybe, intensely sexy.
I feel dumb, but I still laugh every single time I see this gif.
Teddybear Man. Hot.
F1 and Captain. One of the best combination ever.
Does this even need a caption?
I.L.O.V.E.H.I.M tanned.
This one is on my wall.
Scrawny Captain. Now, so much buffer.
Captain Takuya. Literally.
Dang. Stop lusting woman. He's taken. :D
Told ya I love this series.
Don't you think this looks like Aiba?
I really HATE this. Damn ugly can. -.-
It must have been the beard.
This is why I love Nissin.
-sighs- I think, just concentrate on the toes? Don't be too mesmerized ok.
He left footsteps in my life.
A collage of him will be the best photo ever.
He should be PAP's spokesperson. I will be their no.1 supporter.
DANG. No one. No one should be allowed to be this good looking.
His real nature. I am damn sure it is a candid shot. Poor photographer.
He really is quite sharp-tongued.
There is something very alluring about this man.
I had calves that size when I was in primary school.
I can bet he was going to splash water.
Another classic.
HA . HA . HA! Him and Faye Wong. If you haven't realised.
I have the whole collection of gum. -beams-
PANDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS!
H.O.T -fans self-
I watched this, 17 times.
He looks sexily sleepy.
BULLY! He is a damn sadist.
-smirks-
I have tons of Junno official photos. But, not even one of Captain's.
Kwakwa. Don't be blown away.
Old school colorful yakuza.
The whole series of FMV ads were all very well shot. IMO.
My host mum uses this as her phone screensaver. No presents for guessing why we get along damn well.
-peeps out-
Spot Yuto and Daiki.
My father-in-law.
Him and his HUGE car.
His two darlings.
One honey, two darlings. -.-
Fetching his girls from school. coughsiwantcoughs
DANGGGGGGGGGGG! >.< I wanna be the woman behind.
His secret fetish to be ninja turtle.
Kaorin and Kimura
coughsHISBROTHERtherugbyplayercoughs. Not Captain suddenly turned muscular.
His boyish charm wow-ed too many women.
My favorite on screen couple.
ZEBRA PRINT!
The first man to advertise for cosmetics.
No resistance to him. At all. Me of course.
If he is pilot, I will definitely apply to be air stewardess.
I really really really really wanted this poster. Because of the pants.
His favorite sport. Love is an understatement.
-immediate fainting spell-
This made me very very happy. It should be obvious why.
Samurais are always kakkoii. Him especially so.
-puppy eyes- >.<
I had double copies of this. Nuff' said.
>.< one word. CUTE.
And I go, "that guy is smokin' hot!"
The father in him surfaces.
So very very beautiful.
He loves dogs.
Quite sure I mentioned he loves sports too.
Look at his defined muscles.
Pwetty pwetty.
Whoever decided his image deserves to be hung, shot, ripped, salted and fed to the sharks. Horribly ugly.
That is his real dog if I am not wrong. Bonita. Either his mum or his own Italian restaurant is named after it. La Bonita.
I really like this hairstyle. So cute.
He drew this in SxS. Like for real.
One of his shots from this year's AnAn. Hot.
Not porn. Just an "artistic shot". Something like MJ's and Pi's. I think Captain's was the first?
I suffered from nosebleed.
>.< >.< >.< ADORABLE OK!
Focus is on Nakai.
:D
Very Johnny-ish.
His girls must be damn cute. If they inherited his genes.
-smoochies-
He ignited a curls craze. For males.
The one flaw. Not muscular enough. D:
Red. His color.
I played drums. He played drums.
Simplicity.
From this year's concert. He really is a pretty boy.
Really. There is no question of him winning over the aunties year after year.
Same series! >.< The bluest skies and the prettiest man.
Muscles!
This year is the year of Curls.
Thank god for things like hats. Purple is his wife's favorite color.
His cuteness is amplified when his hair is untidy. :D
-shot by Cupid-
From the photobook which I don't have. D:
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Nyaa~~!
This eerily reminds me of Bae Yong Jun. But cuter xinfinite GEEK ALERT!
End off the solo photos with one of his most gorgeous shots ever.
They transferred into the same school on the same day, entered the same company and ended up in the same group. If this isn't fate, I don't know what is. P.S. Nakai copied Captain's answers in a test, possible because Captain was sitting directly in front of him. Naturally, Leader is my second favorite in SMAP.
6-nin period. Sukebe Captain already appearing. Flasher. -.- They looked so happy and innocent.
-headdesk- Garish costumes. They really are from JE.
Shingo really doesn't look like the youngest in SMAP right? On the other hand, Captain looks so........punkish I feel like punching him.
The last. End of with a group shot. I really like this. I can't explain. But this just feels awesome. Like even though other new bands are coming up, they have so much more to show to us. Proving to us, in the way they have done so for the past 20 years. The bond and the unity.
I hope Captain receives millions and millions of wishes this year. And even though I may just be one in the millions, but it is also because of one, one and one from every single one of his fans that makes up a million. I think if I have to choose one thing about Captain and SMAP that touches me greatly, it would have to be, they sincerely, really am grateful to the support of every single one of their fan. Maybe because of the tough route they had to take, but I think it is touching that even till today when they are superstars, they never never forget to thank their fans. They truly appreciate them. Not just saying it for fanservice, but deep down inside, I think they really are thankful for all these years of support. New idols pop up daily, they know that too, idols who dance and sing better than them. Idols who are younger and better looking (not applicable in case of Captain, because currently I don't see a single person better looking than him), but their fans still stick with them. The more you have to go through to get something, the more you treasure it. Captain is very vocal, he isn't afraid to say what he feels. He warms his fans with his intensity and his sincerity. Fans aren't blind or immune, if an idol truly treasures them, they can feel and see it. To give and still receive, from an idol, I think it is an amazing feeling. That, is also probably one of the reasons why I like Captain and SMAP so much.
Translation for his column in Myojo (if you are still with me, please read :D)
Vol.162 “LIVE!”
The Concert Tour “super.modern.artistic.performance” we waited for such a long time is finally starting on the 24th of September! Kimura's feelings facing a Live after two years...I realized that the feelings towards our Live kept getting stronger and stronger around me when I was asked “This year there won't be one, right? But if there was one, it would be nice...”.
It was like hearing from the partner's voice a request like that: “We haven't been seeing each other for two years but now we will meet, right?”
We can communicate with fans through their mails and phone calls, but there wasn't a chance for a proper encounter, so we decided to have a Concert Tour.
When we announced it, the reaction was more powerful than expected. I also kept receiving mails from my best friends, saying “I'll attend the concert for sure!”.
Probably, a lot of people thought that, this year, the period of time between the official announcement and the start of the Live was very short, but we had no choice. We wanted to do the Tour at all costs. It was our will.
Honestly, in the past two years we had not the time to face a Live. It could be just my belief, anyway I think that every Member gave more than 100% doing his work. For example Kusanagi, without taking a rest, had a dorama and a stage play at the same time, and when they ended he started playing in a movie. We really had no time, but recently we just decided “As we want to do it, let's do it!”
Actually, we started missing that atmosphere. In the past, the concerts turned into the routine, it was always the same, we were told “So, it's Summer time, we're going to announce the new album and start the Tour”. On the contrary, this year it was us who really wanted to do it. So, I focused my mind and felt to be very motivated.
I even went to the sea and told my friends that I wouldn't have been able to go to see them for a while. Normally, when we come back home from the sea, we separate just by a honk, but this time we had a high five and light slaps by knuckles. I always do the same thing when I have to concentrate on a new starting dorama. It helps me to settle and clear my mind, so I can handle the situation in a better way.
The first time I went to a Live, it was at Tokyo Dome to see Michael Jackson. I was a high school student. Then I went to the concerts of Aerosmith, Guns N' Roses, Madonna, Lenny Kravitz. If I think about that, it's obvious that I went there because I wanted to go at all costs. This is a great thing. We Smap mustn't forget that our fans attend our concerts because they really desire to be there. Moreover, indeed, it's because they want to “meet”us. It's this type of people who attends the concerts. Realizing that, I became really serious about the Tours.
I clearly remember my happiness when I can reply “Yai!” to fans who are shouting “Yai!”.
I think that Smap Live is not a big deal, but every time we are embraced by the strong feeling of the audience who really wanted to meet us, and it's powerful. It's not Smap who puts the audience on fire, it's exactly the opposite phenomenon. I can say it's our most special pride as Smap.
We decide the songs and the settlement by a democratic poll. It was great the five of us had the chance of talking together before arranging everything. Discussing together about how the things should be organized, we were able to understand each others' opinions.
It would be nice if fans could break out “eeeeeh!” entering the stadium, being amazed by its arrangement. The staff too is composed by amazing people.
As regards the choreography, for example, we had it made by SAM-san who showed us a type of dancing never seen before.
Speaking of my solo, in the past I didn't pay so much attention on how to stay on the stage, just moving spontaneously, but this year I tried to change and asked Kubota Toshinobu to help me, because I trust him a lot (my note: he's the author of LA LA LA LOVE SONG).
I really wanted to create an exuberant and exciting feeling during my solo. When I was explaining to Kubota my ideas, he kept replying “OK, I got it. Is there anything else you would like to express?” and the creation of the song went on this way, in a relaxing atmosphere. I think that it resulted as a performance similar to drama acting.
I'm really looking forward to seeing the entire creative process for the Live, till the moment the five of us will be circling offstage before starting the show. This is because in the past two years we hadn't the chance to feel the concert atmosphere, ne. We Smap too feel shocked and "WOW"about the Live, in a positive meaning, and look forward to knowing which type of emotions we'll have while staying in front of minna.
It seems to be something like a very important date during which we'll know how we get along with fans. That's because the stadium will turn into our date place for a very very precious date with fans.
Indeed, what I'd like to do the most is meeting you in person. I'm sorry for the long wait!
10/10
12.11.08 @ 10:07 PM
I went to watcht the 10/10 knockout round today.
Looking at the standards, I definitely will go and watch the Finals if I can make it.
But I doubt so because I think I will still be in Aussie.
D:
But still, GOOD LUCK TO ALL WHO GOT INTO THE FINALS!
Really enjoyed the performance today.
Not exactly 100% satisfied with the results, but I guess we can't have all that we want in life either.
:D
Work is piling up.
Next couple of weeks before the holidays will be extremely busy.
Maybe I will stop work for a couple of weeks.
>.<
1 month and 11 days more to my birthday!
2 months and 11 days more to trip to Aussie!
OH LIS!
Enjoy your trip to
Bali Batam!!
tess gerritsen
9.11.08 @ 11:59 PM
She, is my favorite author.
Because no matter how many thrillers I have read, how many CSI episodes I have watched.
Only her stories are the ones that chill me to the bone.
I always become a lot more subdued after reading her books.
She may have written 12 books but not a single one will i hesitate to read a second time.
Except I need time in between.
The stories themselves don't scare me, but the nature of the crimes committed, the details she writes.
I can't help but feel scared.
The only author I respect so much.
She is truly awesome in her own sense.
The painted horrors, even black seems too light a color.
At the end of the day, the case is still solved, the perp still apprended.
But the horror still lingers behind, like the scent of death.
It hangs in the air.
There is only one way we can enter the world, but so many ways to leave it.
She is my favorite author, but I hesitate to introduce her to other people.
Not because I think they can't handle it, but because I don't know if the others will appreciate for what she is best in.
The best crime author I have read in the recent years.
Stephen King bores me with unneccessary details.
Agatha Christie, I am long past that age.
Gerritsen provides you with the perp, but she doesn't reveal the truth till the end.
There are hints but really, until the end, you won't know what is going on for sure.
The Bone Garden, I thought it was the best of the best of her works already.
Keeping the Dead proved me wrong.
Every single of her Maura Isles/Jane Rizzoli is a masterpiece.
She doesn't overexaggerate and precisely because it is so real, I am scared.
Try her.
But not at night.
ahjiajia
8.11.08 @ 11:06 AM
I don't know if you will read this (I realise, I never seem to know if my friends read my blog or not. tag dammit. TAG!), if you do, excellent.
To wait for so long for someone.
To not receive reciprocation for what you gave.
Giving up is not easy.
Slowly, step by step.
Moving on with your life, getting over it.
I realise, it is so much easier to spout those words.
And as in the case usually, so much harder to do it.
Just do it at your own pace.
You have your friends around you.
Don't rush.
Even though they aren't all sugar, spice and everything nice, they are still part of your memories afterall.
Maybe it is hard to give up after believing for so long.
Take your time.
Protect yourself.
And I can always lend you my fists.
:D
Cheer up girl.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
pizza yaki. -dies-
7.11.08 @ 1:43 AM
Today.
I think Ryouko can hire me to entertain her already.
She kept cheating me today. D:
Should stop believing everything she says.
I seriously, never fail to embarrass myself.
Seriously.
I feel like digging a hole in the sand and just hide in there.
T^T
Dang.
Pfffft.
But at least my heart is at ease now. >.<
Even though, I will probably be the butt of jokes for the next couple of days.
-groans-
And for today's battle!
Tamaya lost to Waraku. Badly.
Ok, maybe not THAT badly, but I still think we didn't have as much customers as they did.
For today.
Maybe tomorrow will be better!
But right, OF COURSE tomorrow will be better.
I will be having Fish& Co. with my bestfriend.
:D
It means, GOSSIP TIME.
Even though even I myself think I look more and more like a dude nowadays.
I really love doing the bimbo stuff ok.
They are amazing stress-relievers.
And doing it with bestfriend makes it doubly better.
We don't see eye to eye sometimes, but we just, click.
We are awesome.
XD
She is less prone to embarrassing herself as compared to me though.
Ok, I don't know what prompted the sudden confession.
And STOP BEAMING if you do read this sunny.
I know you are.
Haven't been reading since god-knows-when.
I miss my mystery and thrillers.
Luckily, I still have a couple of unread ones left.
Will start on them soon hopefully. If time allows that is.
Tamaya is a good place to relieve the week's stress.
Sometimes, entertainment will be provided.
I should stop mocking people.
But I feel unbalanced since I always get mocked at myself.
Lastly, my savings grew to 4k today.
I am satisfied with life, I have a secret and I know my eyecandy's name!
Tamaya has a Yucci-lookalike.
:D
ideas?!?!
6.11.08 @ 10:22 AM
I am screwed upside down, inside out.
Tomorrow, my IDEAS is due.
And I haven't got a single freaking idea about IDEAS.
So yes, I haven't got A N Y T H I N G done at all.
D:
Crap.
Ms Chang, dang you for rejecting both my proposals!
But, I still love you.
T^T
I really can't think of anything la!
Damndamndamndamndamn!
it is already nov.!
5.11.08 @ 10:09 PM
I don't know how many times I have said it this year but really, TIME FLIES.
Next Thursday will be Captain's birthday.
And next month will be mine.
It feels like my 16th was just a couple of months back but now, I am already welcoming the 17th.
Not that it is a bad thing, but just scary considering how time passes by you so quickly!
I mean, it was just last year I had my o'levels.
Before then, time seemed to crawl, but after I entered Poly, it has literally been a race against time.
Every week there are datelines to meet.
And with every passing week, every passing dateline, there are even more datelines to meet.
Quite exciting actually.
Anticipating what will be coming up next.
It is tiring at times, but when time passes so fast, there is no time to sit down and think too much.
Good thing for me actually, I don't like to wallow over failures and all.
I rather get over it as fast as I can and move on with life.
HAVING FISH AND CO. THIS SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
zomg.
Having serious cravings for it.
>.<
And milktea at Mos.
Probably can get Yui out on Friday to have it.
^^
I am really happy today cause I saved additional 455bucks into my Uni fund.
If I can add in 45bucks, I will have saved 1000 this year.
Even though it is really a meagre sum for university, at least it will help, even if it is just a little.
XD
That aside, I can't give up shopping.
Like duh.
But just spend lesser la. Like shopping once in two months or something.
It won't do to spend every single month right.
Will die.
Will become super duper broke.
BUT BUT BUT!
I wanna watch Quantam of Solace! 007!
I love spies. :D
And Madagascarrrrrrrrrrrr! On 13th Nov. it is releasing.
I really want to watch on that day to commemorate Captain's birthday.
>.<
So yes, SUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNY! I have come up with what I want to do on my birthday already.
I am afraid, this november and december, you won't see me spending much unless necessary because I am going to save all up and spend on the 23rd.
XDD
BREAKFAST!
Holiday Inn Park View Singapore - Windows on the Park Restaurant (International Buffet)
Ever since I saw this on tele, I wanted to go there. >.<
But it ends at 1030, so we have to go down early?
Then after that, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Actually, currently, I have only thought of a couple of things.
The breakfast buffet.
And then I wanna do mani-pedi.
Probably late afternoon?
And definitely shopping.
That's it. I can't think of any further details. =X
Sit down and gossip.
Yes. I like.
I don't care if it sounds coughshallowcough, but I kind of want my birthday to be a brainless, bimbo day out.
XD
Off to do work!
3.0!!!!!!
tsk.
@ 12:12 AM
I am really annoyed now.
S E R I O U S L Y pissed.
I want to get things done.
But nothing seems to be getting done.
I want my sleep.
But obviously, if nothing is done, I am also not getting my sleep.
Screw it all.
And tomorrow, I am going on radio for an interview.
-looks skeptical-
Because it is in Chinese and because because because.
It should be an interesting experience and honestly, I am only doing it for the sake of my portfolio.
And fuck it.
WHY MUST IT BE ME?!
CAN'T YOU DO IT YOURSELF?!
GOOD FOR NOTHING.
happy birthday(s)!
2.11.08 @ 11:38 PM
To both Rin-chan and Ryo.
:D
Double R`s.
Just 1 day apart.
Too bad one got dumped by the other.
I hope your university application goes well.
Happy 19!
-pop crackers-
Now that Leah Dizon is married,
UCHI CAN U PLEASE RETURN TO RYO?!
poor ryo got dumped by rin too. tsk donghae. -__________-
Reality can be such a bitch.
And I really want the jeans short + totally transparent and not worth the price tag blouse from Rosebullet.
Dang it.
dang.
1.11.08 @ 1:53 AM
There is really a lot that I want to say, but so much that I don't know how to say.
To be politically correct has frozen half my vocabulary.
And I am trying to find my way back into the world where I can whatever I want to say with ease.
It is not even delibrate.
It feels really bad when words get constipated in the brain.
Like a swimmer who is drowning.
It gets so bad at times I feel like crying.
Crying out, screaming out my exact sentiments which I can't express properly.
So. Frustrated.
Even now, even when I am typing this now, it doesn't even come close to showing how frustrated and annoyed I am with myself.
To lose the power of speech, no please, no.
Why does it seem like the more I learn, the lesser I can express myself.
How.
