blue skies, grey clouds
31.8.08 @ 12:40 AM
Today. Today, feels lonely. Like no matter how sunny the skies are, you just don't feel very happy as you should be, you feel lonely even if the streets are jammed with people. Well, today is one of those days. During those days, the smilies you put seem so distant and the expertly painted on facade seems to show cracks. During those days, even the most talkative won't feel like conversing, the longest train rides passes in a flash, music is the best shelter and everything seems so slow. The days when skies are blue but grey clouds still hang about. When those days arrive, I start writing like this. Everything painful will seem to hurt even more, good things will be perceived as bad. Bugger mood, I reckon it is ok to have these moods once in awhile. But, on those days, I am always hanging precariously on the cliff of being kind on the surface or just being downright mean in your face. Even more so than usual. Either that, or a period of moping about. Suck. I want to just curl up and hide until this passes. I really hate it when it hits you without warning, being fine the day before and waking up to a cloud hanging over your head. The road that has been always straight and full of light is suddenly filled with trees, sinister and black. I am not really emo-ing right now. But maybe it annoys you to see me wallowing in self-pity. It is only on these days I admit how weak I really am. How words, no matter if they are phrased jokingly or worse, serious tone, the words that I usually dismiss with a couple of laughs, they really affect me. A lot more than I let on. All the cracks start showing. Writing, I guess this is my method of release. Of plastering the holes and cracks back to perfection. So, please, don't ask too much when I become unusually quiet, I just need some time alone to wallow, to recharge. I really hope all will be peaceful until I recover because whatever backlash there will be, it will be double. Consequences won't be pretty and I don't want to regret. The time for ballads. There was a sentence from my book which I read on the train today. "Alcohol or life. Well, whichever it was, he definitely looks like he has more than enough for both." Do you ever stop and think, are you leading your own life or are you letting life lead you along? Stringing along, passing everyday not knowing what tomorrow will bring, do you live like that? Like alot of people out there, the unknown scares me. I loathe the feeling of not knowing what might happen tomorrow or even the next minute, hate not knowing what I am really like, scared that I may accidently step out of line and pass the point of no return. Yet, some will say, it is the unknown that is where the beauty of life lies. I guess one can say that too. There is never ever only one side to everything. Like today, I saw a girl with a guy that, lets put it this way, is rather plus size. The girl has your typical girl next door sweet looks and a body that is slim no matter which angle you view it from. They were with a group of friends. At first glance, I thought it was a class outing but at the same time it was uncomfortably obvious that the guy is a sorethumb, he didn't fit in, he lagged behind the gang, he wasn't excluded, but then, he wasn't truly accepted. That much was obvious to me, a stranger, I can't imagine how it felt for that guy. So, I started to notice that something seemed out of place when the girl stood and waited patiently for him while the rest moved on. I dismissed it at first as she being a really kind girl that refused to neglect her fellow classmate. Good upbring I thought. Then I started to realise that all the friends are couples, it may be a coincidence that one pair is together but it can't be the case for three pairs. Further confirming my suspicion was the girl and guy I mentioned. The guy chose to sit down while the others stood about. The girl who was initally with the rest, chatting and laughing, noticed this and immediately walked to him. It seemed that she was pacifying him and they were too intimate to be just casual friends. After awhile more, I was quite sure they are a pair. To be honest, I was quite surprised. Not that I am prejudiced against plus sized people because I am one. Just that it is really rare for one to see such a couple and one where the girl is so nice to the guy. I don't know how others would see it or the situation regarding how they got together, but just for that few minutes, I can't help but believe that the world isn't so bleak afterall. For some people at least, looks can be secondary. I choose to believe that the girl really loves the guy and the guy despite of how insecure he looked, he was still brave enough to face her friends who most probably from their performance didn't deem him worthy of their friend. Both parties deserve applause. She is willing to stand by her boyfriend's side and him too. They may have gone through alot together, the girl mocked for her choice, the guy boo-ed for going out of his league, but whatever it is, I think I will salute them. They are worthy of it. Maybe, I mean maybe, the corny true love that the romance novels describe exists afterall. This couple today, just by seeing them together, they may not know it, but thank you, thank you for bringing hope. I hope they last. Ok, I am going to sleep now. On my shuffle plays "Wonderful Days". How ironic. But, I feel better now. I hope my story touched at least one person out there because they certainly touched my heart. Even if everything else may be my wishful thinking, she caring and looking out for him, at the very least, that was real. Maybe the sun will peep out from behind the clouds tomorrow. Kame's voice is oddly soothing.
EXAMS OVERRRRRRRRRRRR!
29.8.08 @ 11:52 PM
the title speaks for itself..
ok, i am damn bloody tired, but heck, finish posting first..
XD
GD was ok, wrote till hand muscles cramped.. >.<
hahaha and then i kinda realised, i like writing..
as in using pens to write and then when your brain and hand starts to protest..
the end feeling of satisfaction is whoopeedoo!
for the next 6weeks till october12th, NO NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY AND MUG!
i can watch my dramas in peace..
i can shop till i drop and no one will care..
i can read all my mystery novels..
XD
i feel happy right now..
like, after a long day at work or a productive day and the sense of satisfaction?
yeapps, that's how i feel now..
except results ahh.. >.<
party-ed the day away with sunny..
IKEA's meatballs are the shikoest man, seriously..
and i got my jersey!!!!!!!!!!!!!
except the number behind like abit crumpled, which is not supposed to be the case..
-frowns-
i hope it turns out right.. >.<
my precious jersey.. D:
okay, anyway after that we went to catch deathrace at cine..
i think i saw someone that i dont really wanna see..
=.=
like triple eww..
anyway sunny, told ya deathrace will be good.. -smirks-
DEATHRACE IS AWESOME I TELL U!
XD
wahh, the part where the guy slam the door into the face..
whoopeedoo man.. >.<
storyline is not the best but the effects and the cars, woah..
i was really really really impressed..
really worth watching.. XD
impressed impressed and impressed..
and oh, even though i am not the muscles kinda girl, the muscles shown were breathtaking..
and the show showed one thing..
blondes are not neccessarily dumb people..
but they can be mean evil bitches who deserves to get their heads blown off..
-sniggers-
ok, oh ya..
kurosagi is showing in cinemas in 18 september..
i haven't decided if i want to watch yet..
>.<
cause i already have the show in my CDrive..
should i go just to catch a few minutes of horikitty on big screen?
:D
she is so cute!
ok, maybe i will drag hiroki along since i lent him my kurosagi drama.. XD
but i think it clashes with his promos.. ok..
mental note to self: ask if hiroki wants to watch kurosagi
missed teachers' day today..
=/
exams should not fall on teachers' day celebration!
D:
ok, due to over exertion of mental energy, i think i am not very sound..
talking gibberish.. XD
ok.. people, i am off to enjoy my holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!
except that my gums kinda hurt.. D:
ouch.
"what will i do if i meet him on the streets?"i want to.
but i shouldn't.
quitting him, the invisible no.23 on my to-do list for this holidays.
never ever fall for someone you have zero chance with.
save yourself all the heartbreak.family dinner
28.8.08 @ 9:13 PM
i realised today, when i was eating dinner alone..
it has been a really long time since our dining table was filled with all four people..
my gran, dad, mum and me..
been a really really really long time since we all sat down and ate together..
even for that short 15 minutes, i really kind of miss that..
sentimental..
>.<
when will we all put down our busy schedules and eat together again?
dinner feels lonely..
=/
fetish for old actors?
@ 12:24 AM
i realised, i should have since a long time ago, that i have a thing for older men..
D:
that came out wrongly..
ok, what i meant was older actors..
like those in their 30s..
>.<
so, today i decided to do a compilation of my all time favorite actors..
and i mean really actors ok, not idol boys..
blahhs, i realised junno is seriously the sore thumb sticking out when i compare the genres i like..
XD
my ultimate fave actor..
tadaaaaa~
no.1KUBOZUKA YOUSUKEyes yes yes.. save all the *gaspsnotkimura?!gasps*
he is damn friggin' talented ok.. >.<
if he didn't attempt suicide, i really love his acting..
fits every single role perfectly as though its made for him..
best thing? every role is different.. XD
no.2KIMURA TAKUYAokok, before all your eyeballs drop out or something..
he is still in the top3, number two..
i think there is no need for extra explanation ehh.. XD
if u still don't get it, drop me a tag/call/email..
i will make sure u understand.. -grins manically-
no.3ABE HIROSHIhe totally won me over with his acting in HERO and CHANGE..
ok, no coincidence that both shows, the main lead is kimurasama..
but whatever, he was damn awesome in dragon zakura too!
XD
no.4TAKENOUCHI YUTAKAok, andy, u win..
i have to agree that zhu ye nei feng is a damn awesome actor..
>.<
and bloody charismatic/hot/goodlooking too..
but i can't help but wonder why is he not in AnAn's yearly poll..
D: i think he is made of so much more win than
fukuyama masaharu.
no.5HIGASHIYAMA NORIYUKIJE fangirls, his name ring a bell?
uhmm, it it rings a bell, don't worry, its supposed to..
he is from uhmm, shounentai..
>.<
aka SMAP's senpais for those not familiar..
i think SMAP backdanced for them or something.. =X
thus, the last on my list of fave actors and also the oldest.. =/
he is damn charismatic ok.. >.<
go watch kuitan if u don't agree with me.. -dies-
hot ojisan! XD
now u see the pattern?
D:
i sorta realised young actors can't sustain my interest for very long..
excluding junno..
i mean like yusuke? >.< and a couple of others..
for that age range, i prefer female actress.. -coughshorikittycoughs- XD
next time i do a post for my fave female actresses!
damn pretty one ok!
grahhs.. my fave actors are damn gorgeous!
:does victory cheer:
red bean not choco!
27.8.08 @ 1:44 PM
i feel so dumb..
i have been eating the mr bean pancake for like half of it thinking it was red bean..
then until the last two mouths, i realised, HEY! IT'S CHOCOLATE!
D:
oh dear..
so stupid..
reminds me of all the times i keep mistaking duck meat and chicken meat..
D:
i will always go, mum, this duck meat very nice..
then she will turn and go =.= this is chicken meat, where got duck meat..
don't tell me u mistake the two again..
like that also cannot differentiate..
stupid right!
i cannot wait for friday, because i wanna eat IKEA's meatballs..
XD
social psych was pretty ok.. lols..
i didn't o the prejudice question i had studied for, but did altruism instead..
cause i was so stuck for that question..
didn't know how to do at all..
so shitted through altruism which at least i got something to say..
>.<
but overall was ok la.. lols..
now, GDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
toughie..
last paper on friday.. gonna pia man!!! (as if -.-)
ok la people.. wish me luck ok!
-inserts million of hearts-
oh yea, i tell u, i dont like the bush family.. at all..
one of the reasons why i like cameron diaz so much..
the the the babara bush, just cause she is bush's daughter, his father went to matchmake her and phelps..
cause she is phelps' fan..
phelps, anyone but her, prz, anyone but her..
T^T
life is so unfair!! grahhhs..
EDIT!: MOVIES I WANNA WATCH!
-deathrace, morbidness + tanks = perfect combi
-love guru
-mad about english, trailer was damn funny
-my girlfriend is a cyborg (jap version)
-hanadan final
-fogetting sarah marshall
-the shinjuku incident
-the oxford murders
-harry potter and the half blood prince
-the soloist
-twilight
who wanna watch wimme? XD
i kind of miss seeing his face.
but
it's for my own good right?kimura12
26.8.08 @ 9:45 AM
hello, good morning..
i suspect this post will be really random so don't read and say i didn't warn u..
oh dear..
i don't know why i am acting as if my exams are over..
like lost steam like that already..
D:
how? even if i dont write my notes for GD i must at the very least read through thoroughly..
shitballs ahh..
i don't wanna die a horrible death..
but can't seem to unglue my butt off the chair and go study..
D:
bloody bollocks..
have i ever mentioned?
i love eric cantona and roy keane?
they are such awesome soccer players..
i gave my best friend an introductory lesson on the two geniuses the other day..
and i realised, they are such violent people..
-sighs-
but still, i think they are the classics..
man utd won 1-0 last night..
wohkays.. >.< i feel more relieved..
even if its a hard fought victory, it is still a victory..
ok, i better go do my work before i start to regret..
D:
anyone of my friends who dont recognise him ought to shot..
2008 super.modern.artistic.performance tour
@ 12:32 AM
SMAP never disappoints..
they are going to have a concert tour this year..
AFGHSHFRIFCNVINRTVPTKKNTH$EFKNCROROMVKGHTIHGFMDSMGOFJRNFCVOFKTGNYAVNVTMVOK!
why am i still screaming incoherently?
cause obviously i can't go..
even if its during my holidays..
even if its my favourite SMAP..
even if its my favouritest man apart from my dad..
why?! wHY?! WHY!?!!!!!!
WHY ANNOUNCE THIS ONE MONTH PRIOR TO THE TOUR?!
if its any earlier, i may have a small possibility of convincing my mum to let me go!!
but one month............
T^T
i am beating up myself blue and black over this already..........
-officially depressed-
i am saving up for their 20 years debut anniversary..
but that's three friggin' years later!
and 2008 is also an important year..
their 20th year of formation..
-bawls loudly-
and and and.. I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I CAN CONCERT GOODS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really feel like crying already..
smapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmapsmap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-going mad-
celestine, now, i totally understand how u felt..
they are my favouritest ojisans on earth ok!
T^T
even nakai sounds fantastic to me..
if i live in japan, i would definitely have joined the FC and gotten the tickets already..
they better release concert disc!
D:
tokyo dome for 6 days.. >.<
24,25,26,28,29,30..
would they still be touring other places? if so, where?
no mention on johnnnys net anywhere!
arghhhhhhh!
i dont care already la!!!
2011!!!!!!
T.T
ok whatever, i just wanna wallow in self-pity now..
MY KIMURA TAKUYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-cries-
closing ceremony
25.8.08 @ 11:07 PM
Despite having exams tomorrow, I was still watching the closing ceremony of the Beijing Olympics 2008. However, I decided to post this on Monday to make myself seem less like some dumbass who posts three friggin' times a day. Okays, I missed out on the opening day and after watching the closing ceremony, I say this, I sincerely regret on missing it, because it must have been awesome. The closing ceremony totally took my breath away. You know, I used to think that our National Day's fireworks were gorgeous, I don't even like the Disneyland ones as much as ours. But the closing ceremony's one. OH. MY. GOD. They are the prettiest fireworks I have ever seen! It was really quite an overwhelming experience. Watching the Olympic flames die out. The irony of it all was that with the end of Beijing Olympics, it marks the start of the preparation of London 2012. Especially the part when three international students acting as athletes started to bring the audience back on the journey of the past 16 days. The solemnity that contrasted greatly with the enthusiasm and happiness of the winning scenes being flashed out in the Birdnest. It was quite a touching scene. The perfection of everything. Haha. Can't seem to be able to describe it with words properly. But anyway, London has got herself a huge mountain to reach to be able to match Beijing's standards. The sheer number of performers was already an eye-opener not to say they were all excellent. Sadly though, I didn't see Phelps. Saw a couple of athletes that I recognised, but couldn't find my favourite. But then again, I think I read somewhere that he is already in London doing preparations for I-can't-remember-what. I mentioned in passing to my mum that I wonder how would SG conduct our Youth Olympics, like would it be as grand as this? Apparently China will be helping us. But still, I can't help but wonder where the hell will they get the performers from? Primary schools? Secondary schools? And to be honest, it would be helluva embarrassment if we host the Youth Olympics and not get a single medal. It would still be an eye-opener though and if possible, I would like tickets to watch the swim meet and the opening/closing ceremonies. OHHHHHH! I just remembered! Youth Olympics clashes with World Cup! South Africa? I wouldn't mind partying with the lions and all. As long as I can get to watch the finals. And so, today marks the end of Beijing Olympics 2008. An awesome and breathtaking event that broke many hearts and at the same time fulfilled many dreams, opened China to the world and opened the world to China. A once in four years event that all athletes work towards. An Olympic gold medal stays with you throughout, even if it rusts. The highest honour one can get. The grandest sporting event of humankind. Till 2012 London!
oh and thank you blogsurfer for the links and all! got me back a couple of important links that i couldn't find. thanks a billion! ^^ haha, hopefully one day u will tell me your name ehh. XD
okays.. i am lazy to type a new post with the title and all..
FBS was, lets just say, anything to do with numbers, i am happy to get rid of them asap..
even money, yes.. =.=
earn and spend.. unless i am saving up for something..
which is then again to spend..
i am really really really relieved FBS is finally over..
i hope i will never have to deal with numbers in an exam context..
ever again.. cause i will be so lousy at it, i will just flunk..
so pretty pretty please, i hope i can pass this..
and not forward the damned module..
D:
urgh.. sleepy like hell now.. >.<
nap and GD? since i have already done 4 chapters and read through 1 for social psych..
GD, another headache module..
-yawns-
DUMBASS!
24.8.08 @ 12:45 PM
i am so so so so so extremely irritated with myself..
D:
i was changing templates AND I WENT TO DELETE THE OLD ONE!
without saving the links and my shopping list!
=.=
the two main things that are making me supremely annoyed with myself..
ok people, if you are reading my blog and u realise your link is not there..
leave a tag or something..
with your web url so i can relink u back..
thanks a gazillion!
>.<
and during my next break, i will try to recall my shopping list..
or at least try to retrieve it from idk where..
urgh!
how dumb can i get!!!
DDDD:
extremely pissed off with myself..
=.=
SFU5680Y
@ 10:30 AM
i got kissed last night.
D:
all over..
by some damned mozzies..
=.=
so annoying ok!
and i didn't even realise it until awhile later..
i think my reflexes are turning rusty..
D:
but anyway.. female mozzies are the ones that kiss people right..
and apparently they seem to prefer female blood too..
cause the whole friggin' table, only i got kissed..
bloody bollocks..
=.=
-drowns all mozzie in estrogen-
maybe they will start growing boobs..
tsk..
today is the FBS day.. D:
ultimate siansation..
and today is also the closing ceremony of the olympics..
4 more years.. the grandest sporting event ever!
World Cup > Olympics > Euro Cup
2 more years to the world cup i think..
gonna be held in south africa? XD
ok, after retard-ing abit here, i think i will go back to studying my FBS..
woke up to a nightmare today..
must be the mozzie's fault.. D:
WOHKAYS!!!!!! i feel more like studying for social psych though..
no actually, i feel like holiday-ing..
ok, whatever, study..
and pray that my nightmare will remain a just a nightmare..
>.<
jin's ranking took a huge leap..
but KAT-TUN love is still so stagnant..
and i miss japan.. 3 more years..
what a long long wait..
blue tuesday &crazy love
on repeat since last night.
i think,
those are his songs.IP over!
22.8.08 @ 8:26 PM
am dead beat.. seriously..
today was a bag of laughs, looks are deceiving and venezia's lemon/biscotti is damn bloody nice..
XD
schweet!
just felt like saying that, no meaning at all.. XD
ate my favorite food after like nearly 1 month of not touching it..
do u have any idea how touched i was?!
and today i finally made up my mind on a couple of items that i really want..
1) Crumpler (no sunny, i am not turning into the crumpler gang, i just think it will go really well with my man utd jersey which we are getting on the 29th)
which reminds me, SUNNY GET MAN UTD JERSEY WIMME!!!
lols!
2) LV duffel (impossible, but read, whatever.)
3) Guess tote
4) Fendi Baguette
5) Coach sneakers
6) Nine West orange gladiators
currently, thats about it..
XD
ok, whatever, shoot me for being a brand whore..
but i am really in love with all those items currently..
D:
i am quite the bitch i realised..
but read again, whatever.
lolololol! exhaustion if getting to me.. >.<
i am mugging so hard, i think by the end of the next week, i will prefer CUPS..
hahhhhs!
GReeeeN's discography
@ 1:03 AM
Singles道
Released: January 24, 2007
High G.K Low ～ハジケロ～
Released: March 28, 2007
愛唄
Released: May 16, 2007
人
Released: November 14, 2007
Be Free
Released: January 16, 2008
旅立ち
Released: March 5, 2008
キセキ
Released: May 28, 2008
扉
Released: December 3, 2008
歩み
Release Date: January 28, 2009
刹那
Release Date: March 11, 2009
遥か
Release Date: May 27, 2009
足跡
BAReeeeeeeeeeN (GReeeeN & BACK-ON)
Released: October 1, 2008
彼方
BAReeeeeeeeeeN (GReeeeN & BACK-ON)
Released: September 23, 2009
Albumsあっ、ども。はじめまして。
Released: June 28, 2007
あっ、ども。おひさしぶりです。
Released: June 25, 2008
塩、コショウ
Released: June 10, 2009
intro to psych
21.8.08 @ 5:19 PM
last few hours of cramming before i say goodbye to intro to psych..
ok, to be brutally honest..
i have no friggin' idea what to study when i first opened the text..
with my foolscap paper and my pens..
i decided to start with the brain, cause felix kept saying that it is important..
and yes, that was the first time i actually sat down and start memorising where the hell is the frontal lobe, the parietal lobe, the occipital lobe and the temporal lobe..
hell, that was when i started to memorise their names..
i am screwed for sure..
blahhs, so whatever..
i just started to note down whatever i could fish from my memory that was labelled important..
i am still not fully done with the brain actually..
the one that i am least confident about for the essay questions..
D:
motivation, stress and conditioning..
most likely i will do these 3 questions if all goes well..
but for the MCQ, have to get to know the brain better..
D:
zgrahhhs..
honestly?
i have never studied so hard.. ever..
maybe apart from when i was primary 1 to 5..
i mugged television programs when i was p6, wheedled and doodled away my o'levels..
D:
so now, back to the skill of mugging hard and trying to retain the knowledge..
XD
i am not complaining by the way.. or emo-ing..
but, (don't label me as insane) i secretly feel a sense of achievement after completing all those chapters..
obviously, i hope those feelings will last even when i receive my results..
but, its actually quite satisfying to study..
and to be able to do the paper..
sure, i will be even more disappointed if i don't do well..
but at the very least, i can tell myself, i tried, i studied, i could have done better for sure, but at least i didn't give up at the starting point..
XD
oh dear, i better keep this self-motivation post and come back to read it regularly, especially when next semester comes and i start to slack again..
=X
i like the sun..
i like light..
and so, i am actually quite afraid of being sucked into darkness..
studying psychology scares me sometimes..
more than once, i felt like i was being sucked into a world of uncertainties, a hell-hole and more than a couple of times, i really needed a break to pull myself back..
granted, i know that the world isnt all sunshine and flowers, but as much as my life unrolls, i would prefer my life to be brighter and happier..
darkness and gloom is inevitable, but i would not make that choice willingly..
and even then, i would try my utmost to get it back to the track i want..
naive? escaping from reality?
probably, but for me, white will always be the choice over black..
and who dictated that reality can't be happy and colourful?
who says it must be dull, dark and depressing?
because, if that is your take on reality, too bad for you, cause mine isn't..
this isn't unrealistic optimisim, i know of the perils but if its within my abilities, why should i let them ruin my life?
XD
true?
lols..
wohkays.. bath time! and then back to studying for my psych..
GOGOGO!!
-prays damn hard that i can do well for tomorrow's paper-
edwin says the reason why he likes me so much is cause i am manly..
=.=
eediot! the first and only person to ever question my sexual preference..
i like males, ok! i swear..
kukuhead.. -.-
studying really hard; takes my mind away from thinking about you.
even if its just for a few miserable hours.
but a few hours plus a few hours, makes up a day.
and a day plus a day plus a day makes up alot of days.
hopefully many days later, i will stop thinking about you.
bright prospects!
the folly of falling for a nipple flasher.
^^last olympic post
18.8.08 @ 9:32 AM
my posts have all been pretty much sports/books centered recently ehh..
but ok, i will probably go back to fandom soon..
olympic is more or less over, for me..
sg clinched her silver medal after 48 years of waiting..
phantastic phelps clinched his 8th gold medal..
broke 7 world records and 1 olympic record along the way..
i am happy that they have done so superbly well..
XD
even though i am not the most patriotic person in sg..
even though right from the start, there isn't much chance of us winning..
i mean, the champions of the world vs the not really ranked..
i thought the coach's comparison of brazil vs china in soccer was really quite adequate..
but still, as a sg-ean, it was quite sad to see them lose..
at least they didn't lose every single one of their games..
>.<
phelps' last swim had me wringing my hands so nervously!
i swear, my heart was at my throat alr..
D:
figure of speech..
the breaststroke was really really exciting..
cause from japan they sent out kousuke kitajima, the best breaststroke swimmer..
i mean c'mon for the last olympic games, incluing this one, he managed to clinch the gold medals for both breaststroke segments..
wah, its natural to think that he is really good..
and true to his gold medals, he managed to cover alot of distance between himself and the USA swimmer..
in fact, he even overtook him by a little..
but on comes phelps.. XD
the rest is history..
he really swam fast, faster than any split in history for that particular event..
gave his teammate a lead that he maintained throughout the end..
and he got his 8th gold medal, his 16th olympic medal..
of which 14 are gold medals..
XD
awesome..
united started their season last night too..
played better than in community shield..
but it was still only a draw..
D:
campbell the new kid on the block, performed..
but, lets just hope he can keep up the good work ehh..
since its just the start of the season, find your comfortable positions united..
all the way team!!!!!
lastly, i am so fucking screwed..
i mean it..
i have been studying FBS and social psych last few days..
i thought this fri would be FBS..
and no, its intro to psych..
fuck.
i am not too familiar with my brain either..
DDD:
-goes off to do intensive mugging-
*may take a hiatus, or not, depends on situation..
scewed upside down
16.8.08 @ 4:12 PM
i am so screwed..
looked through stats slides from felix..
u know what?
i understand nothing..
not a single thing..
i might as well not have taken a whole semester of FBS..
am so damned screwed..
DD:
alien language..
and its coming this friday..
intensive stats revision needed..
grahhs..
i think i better stick with social psych today..
T.T
bloody hell la..
feeling really stressed now..
DDD:
not helping that stats isn't the only thing weighing me down..
ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
crap.
i hate shopping under stressful conditions..
esp when its totally outside my normal clothes range..
wrong social circle and class totally..
D:
clothes, shoes, makeup and presents..
-heaves major sigh-
!#(*Y$(#*&$!_E*#+$*#&_$!(*#
c'mon, faster faster..
let's just get these over and done with ASAP..
i hate being stressed and really, it takes alot to stress me..
blahhhs, and shut up if u don't know my position..
i turn nasty and bitchy when stressed..
D:
7th gold!
@ 11:14 AM
7th gold in the bag! XD
and just by 0.01 second.. that close..
it was that close a race..
XD
u go phelps!!!
-inserts million of hearts-
XD
50.58 vs 50.59
and that is a gold medal..
^~^
7 gold medals, 6 world records, 1 olympic record
start of breaks :D
15.8.08 @ 9:45 PM
hiyaaaaaaaa!
today, is the start of study breaks and after that, official school holidays..
so, today marks the official end of this semester..
slightly nostalgic and extremely exhausted..
>.<
went to harris @suntec and ended buying a couple of books..
aka the sherlock holmes series..
i have 7 more to collect..
don't care, i will probably collect them in these few weeks..
SHERLOCK LOVE! XD
wohkays, i really spent quite a bit on books today..
abit guilty and i didn't even buy my perfume as per planned..
was thinking if i should buy deods instead but decided against it..
lols..
ok, from tomorrow on its heavy mugging time!
i don't know what i will start with, but it is still mugging time..
T.T
did i ever mention, i am not really fond of the word mugging..
T^T
here is a new joke that i attempted to kill lis with..
it is slightly chinese though..
XD
no racism intended..
A: What toothpaste do the blacks use?
B: ?
A: Darlie.
B: Why?
A: Because, Hei Ren Ya Gao!
literal translation means (Black People's Toothpaste)
XD
okie doks people..
i am off to enjoy my last few hours of non-mugging..
and MY phelps won his 6th gold medal and broke his 6th world record..
u just have to love him, seriously..
i can watch him tomorrow!
and, track starts today!!
coolbeannnnnnnnns!
trivia:
i can't believe, my parents know kouhaku..
=.=
like seriously, they so in one meh..
D: to them kouhaku is one of the highest honours show artistes can get..
and u know what?
SMAP/Nakai hosts the show..
-sniggers-
so they are SUPERSTARS!!
why must be be married?! urgh!
7weeks.
i hope this hiatus would be long enough.
for me to end these feelings.
that will never bloom anyway.
i want to forget you.happy 19 celestine!
14.8.08 @ 2:05 PM
:WOOTS:
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CELESTINE!!XD
nice nineteen!
wohkays, stayed home to complete my pamphlet..
which looks like da bian no matter how i look at it..
D:
ok whatever.. i knew long ago i suck at anything related to design..
T^T
and i really got this sudden urge to go out and buy some burberry stuff..
don't even ask me why..
i don't know why.. DD:
like rush down to takashimaya and do some shopping..
argh, i think i am going berserk..
ok, nvm, whatever..
i will get them tomorrow when i am at suntec..
like probably before harrys' or something..
D:
ya know, i am going to try to make my dad buy me a man utd jersey..
i think, i will put giggs behind..
the amazing welsh wizard!
yeahhhhhh! do u think he will buy it for my birthday?
which is looooooooooong time away..
december, december, december!!
>.<
i will try.. lols.. he will probably just go yah yah.. ok.. ok..
and forget all about it..
i really want this jersey, cause i think it looks really damn good..
and they usually change jerseys' design like once every two seasons..
so, this is the second season, next season will be different..
die die must get by this season.. D:
but anyway, my dad chanced upon me practicing my monologue early wednesday morning..
he thought i was talking to myself..
DDDDDDD:
and he went..
"U SIAO AH!?! why u talking to yourself?!"
he totally didn't believe me when i said i was practicing my monologue..
T^T
and the best thing?
that episode wasn't the first..
my mum happened to walk in on me reciting my monologue the previous night..
and didn't believe me either..
=.=
talk about why they are married..
and i know for a fact that when they have their morning breakfast..
they gossip about me..
bloody hell..
which pair of parents will gossip about their own child u tell me?!
and whenever i tell one of them a piece of news, be it good or bad..
by the time i am home and if they are home..
like if i told my mum, my dad that i was planning to tell, its already stale news to him..
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! exasperating!
=.=
the only people that wouldn't know would be my gran and my maid..
.............
shitballs, the urge still hasn't disappeared!
now, which one should i get?
>.<
even though they are utterly corny..
i still kinda admire them for being able to be with each other for so long..
one is a total slob sports addict, one is neat freak with zero sports genes..
how the hell can two so different people stay together for so long?!Audi V12 TDI quattro
13.8.08 @ 6:27 PM
ohmygod.
i fail.. totally. utterly.
i came/reached home super early today, like 1plus, i haven't reached home so early since forever..
and i fell asleep..
T^T
someone, slap me in my face please..
how the hell can i spend like 4 hours sleeping away the precious i should be using to do my creative communications..
even though i will still screw up my pamphlet..
i know when i lack the creative braincells..
-kicks the damned bed-
i was only planning to sleep till 3..
then finish up my sales letter, study a bit of psychology and watch swimming while waiting for my mum to bring home the A3 sized paper..
and now, its gonna be 6 soon..
so i have to skip the study psychology part and finish up my sales letter while watching swimming..
D:
and awesome i tell u all! its just awesome..
aced our social psych project, 84marks baby, WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!
but chuckles' group was waaaaaay more psychotic than us..
they bloody scored 96 marks..
bian tai man! T.T
its like they just have to put in abit more effort and study abit more for their social psych paper and they will still ace it..
cause this presentation is worth 50%
HOLY CRAP RIGHT!
tsk, which also explains why i am quite miffed..
shall not go into details, just two words, groupmarks & erica..
=.=
ok whatever, she can kiss all our asses and thank her lucky stars..
but anyways, THANKS MITCHELL! THANKS JANEL! THANKS LIZZY LIZ LIS!
had voice monologue and presentation today..
ok, i totally bombed the whole class with my new joke..
thought up in the spur of the moment..
utterly lame as usual.. =X
but i still found it funny, isn't it funny people?
D:
ok, i think i did sorta ok, but don't know.. >.<
i hope there is at least a B for my voice..
don't pull down the grades so much..
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
yahh, its the daily phelps update time..
XDDDD
he bagged his fifth gold and broke his fifth world record..
that means, for every single gold so far, he broke all the records for them..
ain't he brilliant?!
plus he had water in his googles for his individual swim..
and yet he still managed to do this well..
this guy leaves me speechless..
as much as i think ian thorpe is awesome, phelps is alot better for me..
cause, i mean just look at how he swims..
there is so much resistance in the water!
no, i am talking as if i know it, i am speaking cause i used to swim alot..
oye, goldstar ok!
swimming is not an easy sport..
but phelps make it seem so easy.. the ease at which he moves in and out of the water..
how the water seems to be just caressing him instead of blocking him..
he is just well, good..
seriously.. XD
this baby is so pretty..
look at the fucking interior!
it reminds me of an aeroplane.. ISN'T IT?!
ohh gee.. if i wasn't so obsessed with my BMW, this, would be my dream car..
XD
EDITTTTTTTTTTTTTT:
i didn't tell u my joke!
XD
A: Have u watch Money not Enough 2?
B: No?
A: Well, duh, of course!
B: ?
A: Because u money not enough, how to watch money not enough 2!
XDDD FUNNY SHIT RIGHT!!!!!!!
yesterday wasn't a bonus after all.
its because i won't get to see u today.
hah.
a little empty.bian bian bian!
12.8.08 @ 8:52 PM
i love presents.. so do everyone else on this face of earth probably..
but i especially love receiving presents after a tiring day in school..
so thank you a thousand time GG& rin!
for the zomgly pretty bead bracelet..
the beads are gorgeous!
are they hand drawn? the pictures in it..
the beads are so so so pretty!
thank you so much!
i especially love the blue bead on the side.. SO PRETTY CANS?!
g, relax, your taste isn't crap.. XD
i really like the bracelet.. not trying to make u happy or anything..
XD pretty little thing..
will wear to camwhore with it sometime..
hehhs!
ohhhh, i received a super weird phonecall today.. >.<
ermm, not sure of its authenticity..
ok, remember that time when i went to eunos and this random survey person said me and lis looked like twins?
well, she called and said i was shortlisted to be her company's marketing position..
=.=
it was just out of the blue kinda thing..
SO RANDOM CAN!
i don't even remember what i wrote for that survey..
should i go? or should i just tell the person i am not interested?
D:
ok, i think its super weird uhh, i just fill in survey form and i am shortlisted for marketing position..
i doubt i wrote anything different from lis anyway..
=.=
-looks in mirror-
i honestly still don't see any budding sign of me being in marketing position.. lols..
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
did i tell u, my phelps won another gold medal at the same time breaking world record..
again..
-giggles-
SO AMAZING RIGHT! MY PHELPS IS AMAZINGLY AMAZING!
2 matches tomorrow.. >.<
hope he can do equally well..
200m butterfly and 4x200m freestyle relay
GOGOGO PHELPS! u are the amazing!
i am getting phobia of strangers coming too close to me or random males walking behind me..
esp that episode with the creepy smiling stalker china man.. >.<
-shudders-
i nearly jumped out of my own skin today..
>.< creepy i tell u creepy..
wohkays.. need to go prepare for my monologue and 6min speech for tmr alr..
tmr after school will be time to do pamphlet and sales letter..
>.< and that's it right?
ohh yea, have to hand in applied drama essay and PCM journals by friday..
then from this sat onwards, mug super duper hard for my psychology..
last we see felix this thursday..
-bawls- FEEEEEEEEEEEELIIIIIIIX!!!!!!!!!!!!! T^T
ok, ciao..
today isn't wednesday, is it a special bonus that i saw u?
but it set my mind running again. crap.
now, fiveplus at FC6 takes on a whole new meaning.
stop stalking girl. stop. he is way too cute for u.korea? not?
11.8.08 @ 10:59 PM
damned poly!
D:
why can't we have longer breaks for chinese new year!!?!
i think my korea during chinese new year may not be possible after all..
cause the holidays aren't long enough..
now, i only hope that it may be possible during the 7weeks holidays from end of feb to mid april..
going overseas with family and friends is a total different feel..
and i miss going overseas with my family..
urgh! i hate school!
what a disappointment!
PHELPS!
@ 1:29 PM
michael phelps has the cutest smile ever. period.
damn friggin' cute can!
>.<
2 golds down, 6 more to go!
GOGOGO!
there is just no one, and i mean no one, cuter/hotter than phelps..
-inserts million hearts-
stayed up to watch USA vs China last night..
basketball, it was too interesting to miss..
but after awhile, the vast difference in skills and all was so obvious even to a basketball newbie like me..
in soccer terms, it would be like putting the cream of the crop from EPL to play against the First Division..
a pretty damn tough fight..
and talking about soccer, man utd bagged the community shield..
XD
first of the seven as soccernet reported?
lols..
i definitely hope so..
and happy 20th birthday you..
-heaves major sigh-
i think its pretty much confirmed that we will be going to korea for chinese new year..
dbsk/suju anyone?
olympics 08
9.8.08 @ 11:32 PM
what are u guys watching out for for Olympics 08?
i definitely will watch..
athletics
swimming
gymnastics
volleyball
beach volleyball!
and maybe some of the water sports..
zomgly amazing sports!
PHELPE!!!!! zomg zomg zomg.. did u see his muscles?!
T.T
the muscles of the swimmers are amazing ok..
so well defined!
and the legs of the volleyballers!
woah woah woah!
u gotta love the athletes! >.<
olympics is making me all excited and hyped up.. D:
my poor neglected notes.. =/
no soccer cause, the best soccer is just not found in olympics.. sadly..
world cup and the different major leagues..
which reminds me, EPL is starting soon!
tomorrow will be charity shield, man utd vs portsmouth..
>.<
i hope they are fully prepared, but don't over-exert to injury..
cause honestly.. EPL/Champs League/FA Cup > Charity Shield
TREBLE UNITED!!!!!!
XD every season, i pray for a double trebel feat for united..
there was this gymnast from romania i think, he looks like ronaldo..
but much cuter of course.. rather small sized for a gymnast..
gymnasts have SCARY muscles..
i can't wait to see the russian gymnasts..
they are supposed to be awesomely amazing or something..
at least their ballet is.. >.<
good, japan currently leading states 17-12 in volleyball..
GOGOGO!!
XD i only remembered about JE when i saw the japan team's coach.. oOps..
but volleyball is pretty damn exciting..
watch the olympics.. so awesome..
LONDON 2012!
happy birthday SG!
@ 3:40 PM
total book post ahead, so skip it if u aren't interested..
XD
but first things first, HAPPY BIRTHAY SG! ^^
went shopping at kino yesterday..
i always feel excellent after buying books..
shopping for clothes and all is fun, but buying books always have that extra edge..
but of course i will always feel more guilty after buying books..
cause i tend to not stick to plan..
D:
ohhh, i wanna get the whole collection of R.K. Narayan books..
after lit, i think this author is pretty cool..
he is rather boring for the first read..
but he is long lasting, the second and third time u read his book, u kinda start to discover new things from his books, which i think is pretty damn cool..
the latest book i read was from the Cullen series..
meyer is an awesome author, but to be honest, cause its more of a fictional kinda thing, i would probably read three times max and then wait for a long time before i pick it up again..
on the other hand, Narayan is more lasting precisely because his has a tinge of reality in it..
his are literary novels, if i can call them that, so there are tons to discover..
i love Austen too..
she is so amazing.. the way she writes about love during the old England times is so heart-breaking..
my all-time favourite would still be Pride and Prejudice..
favourite couple is definitely Mr Darcy and Elizabeth Bennet..
i really wanted to stay in PJC because their literature class is doing Pride and Prejudice..
XD
some say Austen is a really boring author, but i think she is really amazing..
XD
however, for the life of me, i cannot and i mean really unable to stand the Bronte sisters..
they bore me to tears.. D:
especially especially, the famous Jane Eyre..
woah.......... bad memories of that one.. >.<
c'mon, love or hate, DECIDE!
=.=
there is this japanese author whose books were translated into english..
they say his books are really good, but i haven't got round to reading them..
Haruki Murakami.. like abstract?
but nice.. XD
pretty nice to discover that my reading diet don't only consist of gory murders..
OHHHHH! i haven't read Nicholas Sparks yet..
heard that he is pretty awesome in his love novels too..
although i am not a fan of romance..
lols!
i think good books are those that last long long long long time into history..
books that our past generation will still be talking about..
XD the classics..
i read chinese too! but i think its pretty hard to type out here..
and i am damn lazy too.. =X
so yea, if i get another 500bucks to spend..
first, i will sweep all of Narayan's works off the shelves and pick a few Murakami, a couple of Sparks and blast whatever i have left on my mysteries..
Dean Koontz? Jeff Abbott? definitely Stephen King..
AND PEOPLE!
u must must must must must read Anne Frank's diary..
even if its just for the sake of knowing some history..
its so sad, i remember reading all of it in one sitting.. >.<
good recommended book that one..
and it really leaves u shocked at how brutal humans can be..
reading is mahhh hobby! XD
A: Who is the happiest person on earth?
B: A nurse. (HAPPINESS! = happy nurse)
A: Where did happy go?
B: Lucky Plaza (Happy-go-lucky)
this is courtesy of lis.. the funny chick.. lols!
A: Why do chicken have wings even though they can't fly?
B: .......I don't know?
A: I don't know either! ^~^
-whacks her-
korea? new zealand?
@ 12:59 AM
i guess we won't be going to aussie for chinese new year afterall..
D:
my dad says that other people says that aussie not fun anymore..
so they are deciding between korea and new zealand..
dang.
i was so looking forward to seeing the place where my parents had their honeymoon!
and the made it sound so fun and all..
slightly disappointed..
i can't decide between the two cause i am not that interested in either..
lets see, if they can like include a choice of england/manchester..
my choice would be pretty obvious ehh..
XD
ahhhh, whatever..
they are paying, so they decide..
but i do wanna go to m'sia during the sept hols..
to like maybe do some shopping/fooding/sight-seeing..
and relaxing.. getting away from my stacks and stacks of worksheets..
-shudders-
yeahhhhhhh, i am going to work my ass off..
and play my ass off..
and sleep till the cows come home..
shop till i drop..
read till i puke at the sight of books..
and try to not touch the computer so much..
in 3 friggin' weeks..
thats all..
21 days! and freedom!!!!!!
and 6 weeks of sweet sweet freedom..
if possible, i WISH to spend 1 week in m'sia..
IF possible, if not its ok..
i am sure the sweet sweet time will fly like a housefly escaping from its death..
HOWWWWWWWWWW?!
i want the hols to come yet i am so scared it will pass so fast..
must recharge for another 8 weeks to come..
>.<
PICCHHHHHHHHHARS TIME!
dajares!
7.8.08 @ 11:38 PM
i think i am damn funny..
i created some jokes today with editing from lis and jas..
they are like my biggest fans ever..
and i really think i am quite funny!
XD
A: I lost my appetite.
B: Go to the Lost&Found.
A: My heart got stolen by that guy.
B: WHAT?! Ok, we must go report to the police.
A: What do you call a person with curly hair?
B: Maggi Mee
A: What do you call a person with straight hair?
B: Spaghetti
A: If an orange is a human what would it be?
B: A person with alot of pimples.
A: If a raisin is a human what would it be?
B: A wrinkly, stunted old woman.
A: What is the lightest bus?
B: Airbus
A: Which bus do you have to wait the longest for?
B: 99 (read in chinese and relate to long)
A: Why is pink dolphin pink?
B: Because it is not blue. (Or any other colour also accepted.)
i am going to create a book of jokes..
when i die, nobody is allowed to read any eulogy or anything of that kind..
if u want to, read from my book of jokes..
XD
it would be all colourful and happy..
cause i kinda like to laugh more than frowning or crying..
but anyway, i think the moment people read my book of jokes..
they will immediately remember me as the idiot..
-.-
BUT! i still want that! XD
don't u think i am funny too? D:
angry
@ 1:55 PM
i am angry.
i really am.
this close, this freaking close to screaming.
fuck.
poly 50
6.8.08 @ 8:50 PM
poly 50 today..
i think i have havania tan line on my feet..
=.=
freaking hot today.. D:
and SP people can really run.. like really..
scary how MOST of them can maintain the speed from the start till the end..
ohhhhhhh!
revelation of the day..
i think the majority of SP hotties belong to the canoe team..
woah seriously ah..
but right, i feel SLIGHTLY spurred on to join next year..
for people who don't know this activity..
its like running 50 rounds around SP..
but of course not alone..
in a group of about 10 people?
but impressive still, considering that SP has the largest campus.. lols..
1 person approximately 3 to 5 rounds..
-kowtow-
WOHKAYS! i need to complete my intro to psych essay to hand in tomorrow..
in deep shit la.. D:
but mitchell is worse..
he hasn't even started.. -grins-
but then, unlike some people who do their work last min and still top the class, i am SLIGHTLY dumber..
so yea.. XD
I WANT TANNING SESSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D:
sentosasentosasentosasentosasentosasentosa
-chants-
i am dead beat uhhhh!
BY THE WAY, well done TC! XD you guys were damn freaking good..
was utterly impressed!
motivation to watch more TC productions in the future.. ^~^
am i annoying you?fucking lying bitch
5.8.08 @ 10:00 PM
It took me three hours to calm myself down considerably before I was able to type out this post. Do you know how to spell stupid? Don't look further, I think its plastered on my forehead. Do you know cold fury? Don't look anymore. I am the perfect epitome of it. Right now. This friggin' moment I am blogging. If there is one thing I really loathe, its being lied to. I haven't lied in quite a few years but for the past few months, if I am slapped everytime I was lied to, I would look like a fatty with a bloated face. And yes, I feel that way right now. Now, I can't help but doubt that every single time you said you were sick, were you just lying to get out of school/not come to school or were you sincerely sick? Every single time you said you and your parents quarreled, was that for real or were you just trying to gain sympathy? But honestly, you know what? I don't give a shit anymore. I don't care if there was truth in your words because I don't know what to believe anymore. Even if now you tell me you are sorry for lying to us, I doubt I have enough in me to forgive you, much less believe your words. I am sorry things had to come to this stage, but seriously, don't you think you were too much? Come project time, what have you done? Every bloody time you didn't come to school, I immediately added you into the group. And every bloody time I feel like I should not have done so. But loyalty towards you as a friend. This time, you have gone too far. I admit, this isn't a one-shot thing. It is a whole series of incidents, you have tried my patience, tested my limits, betrayed my trust, so many times girl, so many freaking times. Maybe I am not angry with you, maybe I am just angry at my own stupidity, failure to see how things really were. It would have saved us both alot of heartache, ok no, maybe just me. You honestly think that by handing out survey forms your work is done? You honestly think that going to yahoo and type whatever research you wanted, copied and paste the first ten results, some not even relevant is considered handing in research? C'mon babe, if I wanted to, I can do the exact same thing. You handing in 30 odd pages and expecting me to go through every single thing, what makes you think I can't do the same? I let that pass for CRS, I did my own research. I can't believe you did the exact same for Social Psych. Mitch was doing so much and I really can't believe you did the same to him and expect to get away with it. Do you know how much it pissed all of us of? The same for FBS. To be honest, apart from handing out survey forms, you didn't do a single shit. We did everything for you. We fucking cleaned up after you. You don't bother to come to class, you don't bother to take your notes. So tell me, you said you have been studying. You can't use the internet apparently, your mum doesn't allow you to study, you don't have your notes, so tell me, what the hell have you been studying? I don't even want to go into how selfish I think you are. You think you are so accused, so innocent because your parents are out to make youf life hell? Which parent doesn't? And seriously and honestly, if you didn't do that, didn't make that decision to allow him to continue, would there have even been a situation like that to start with. To you it may be old news, but to your parents, it is their daughter who has been violated. How do you think they felt? You think that it can be over just cause he said sorry? Honestly, I would think he is lucky he wasn't sued or even murdered. You know how many people you have broken with your lies. Janel trusted you so much, do you have even any inkling how much you have hurt her? I suspected you weren't all truthful and that your mum didn't really know you have been skipping school, but she believed you all the way to the end. And you just have to prove her wrong. What a great way to repay your friend. Don't bullshit anymore, please. No one will believe you anymore. I used to feel sorry for you, being sick all the time, parents being harsh on you, boyfriend not treating you right. I wanted so badly to help you, to try and be a good friend in your shithole of a life. Now, there is nothing I want more than puking at all that cause you made me see how stupid I was. The sympathy and pity has died, I can't even look at you now without feeling like screaming at you to wake up, stop pretending. You can actually make change to it, everyone got their own truckload of problems, so why must you the one whining all the time? I ran away from home twice, my relationship with my mum was all but good. We would tear each other's throats out the moment we opened our mouths no matter who, but we compromised and it became better. Of course it is not as simple as that, there was so much hysterics, so much screaming, you would think we wanted nothing but to kill each other. Have your mum ever called you a slut? A prostitute? A good for nothing except work in Geylang? Thrown every single vulgarity there is in the book at you? Hit you so hard it left a scar albeit a temporary one? And that is not even once, but thrice? Got so bad that the tuition teacher had to threaten to call the cops? No? Mine had, and look where we are now. You think your family life sucks, your parents are unreasonable, always making it difficult for you and your boyf, no one understands you. Get a grip, at least you have siblings, I had no one. Not even my friends cause they were all in the rat race, no one cared about anyone. You have friends and siblings. And you just twisted all of us around your little pinky, treating us all like the monkey you can fool with. You made your own bed, now you have to lie in it. This time round, you can complain till the cows come home, lie to every single soul out there, gain pity from the lecturers to pass your modules, slink through your whole life doing nothing. I sound like a bitch? Terrible things to say? I haven't said half of what I wanted to say. I would think you know who you are. You can hate me from today on if you ever get to read this. But you know what? I don't care. I don't give a shit anymore. You can drop out of school, you can go forward all your modules, I don't care, not anymore. I am washing my hands out of this whole matter. Irresponsibility, hypocrisy, lying, you know what? That is the worst combination I can ever think up of, and you have all of those. Reality is a harsh slap in the face bitch. Thank you so much for telling us that. That trust is as easily broken as a porcelain glass. We really appreciate the lesson taught. Fucking liar.
mediacorp
4.8.08 @ 9:43 PM
ok, utt is UTTerly hot and he is so stiff he can be the next steve irwin..
XD
i thought of that.. pure originality..
but i am not kidding, utt on the chicken tonic poster is hot?
wait till u see the real thing..
wah pianggggg eh! nosebleed worthy material..
except a bit short and mitch totally acts better than him..
lols..
lis's mum is the funniest thang ever..
wah lao ehh, damn funny lor she..
this is no insult but she is like a little kid..
super cute..
cannot relate to lis at all sia.. XDDD
oOps.. =X
ok and annoying fat people who likes to show off just cause u have been on the screen a couple of times annoy the hell outta me..
the best thing is, i have never even seen u before..
fail.
let me tell u a story about peko-chan, the cute little japanese girl who sticks out her tongue on the side..
she used to be very poor..
so her mum told her to eat her..
peko-chan was very reluctuant, but one winter night she was so very hungry and couldn't take it anymore..
so she bit off her mum's arm..
it was delicious!
so she started eating her mum, her mum did ask her to didn't she?
when she was finished with her mum, she started to lick her lips..
and then her tongue got stuck there..
thus, her tongue is perpetually stuck there the whole time..
XD
joke of the day:
"Are you two twins?" ---> some random survey giver on the streets
refering to me and lis..
powarrrrrrrrrr!
united my team
@ 1:05 AM
aye people.
i really need to warn u guys..
really random but, watch out..
08/09 season is starting soon..
man utd is so going to ream your asses..
liverpool, just, shut up aye..
how many seasons of empty promises?
why don't u guys get pass the barrier of arsenal and chelsea first?
cocky? arrogant bitch?
deal with it..
we are title protectors, u are chasing after us..
after two months..
i am all set and ready to our third in the row EPL medal..
of course the coveted Champions League title too!
10 upcoming months of battle and slamming liverpool..
i can't wait..
XD
get ready to kiss our asses liverpool!
why liverpool out of all teams?
cause, i can't freaking tolerate them uhh..
even arsenal and chelsea don't get as much hate..
but liverpool, u are so whatever..
-roll eyes-
UNITEDDDDDDDDDDDD!
i felt like being an asshole for once.. lols!
BMWs
3.8.08 @ 9:26 PM
the red leather seats look absolutely gorgeous..
but i will take the cream colour any day..
the interior of the car is damn freaking cool..
BMW is such an orgasmic ride, such an orgasmic ride..
-shakes head-
and the car himself looks so sexy!
ayyyyyyyyyyyyyye, who will be an angel and contribute to my BMW fund?
XD
its hard to give up.
@ 1:01 AM
work today was kinda cool/good/slack..
not too bad..
but i felt really really really miserable at one point in time..
currently, i prefer to keep my mind occupied so it won't stray..
u know the feeling of wanting to cry so badly but the tears just won't flow?
but at the same time, there is no way i will ever cry in front of people..
ahh, complicated ehh..
at certain intervals, it kinda hits me so bad it hurts..
feel so dumb and retarded..
whatever whatever whatever!
drama, just stay in the classroom and out of my life..
i will just pretend i have never met him..
that he was never my eyecandy..
okokok! that sounds like a perfect plan to me..
ohhhhhhh and i think the trio don't really like naima..
lols..
kikuchi-san sent me to get beer twice for him..
and naima was like "he is still drinking?!" for the second time..
i mentioned that naima was like abit upset..
and then the trio started to bitch about her..
lmao, damn funny to watch guys bitch about people..
i swear man, they are waaaaaaaaaaaaay more evil than girls could ever be..
and alot meaner..
esp when critisizing looks of girls..
wah piang ehh, if the girls ever get to hear it, their self-esteem will be taking a bashing..
seriously..
but the trio is really funny ahh..
and they are win for giving me maccha icecream!
on this gloomy day and so many more to come, icecream is a welcome distraction..
talked with sunny today..
funny how good friends tend to go through the same situations at the same time..
thanks alot peeeeee, it helped alot..
even though i don't know how long will i take..
but to be able to get it off my chest, i feel so much better..
i think, maybe it would have been better if i didn't know so much about him..
it would have been less personal and less painful now..
oh dear, i sound stupid..
OK PEOPLE!
if u guys got like super cute guys u know, show me ok..
XD
on second thoughts, maybe not..
lols..
aish whatever.. i feel rather drained now..
ohhhhhhhhh, i hope rin enjoys hk.. XD and the supposed hunkies there..
if u guys have no friggin' idea what the hell i am going on about, its ok..
but i won't bother to explain anyway..
just, stop mentioning my ex-eyecandy to me ok..
i MUST get him out of my system..
i don't wanna be such a loser again..
he is whatever.. cannot screw up my own life.. D:
group photo :D
2.8.08 @ 11:30 AM
when you've reached a certain point, it just doesn't matter anymore.
because there is no point in caring.
the more you think about it, the worse the situation seems.
just let it resolve by itself.
time is the answer to everything, isn't it?
time will dilute.
and meanwhile, i better search for a new eyecandy.
new one to replace the one that is getting to close to heart for comfort.
bye looboy, the guy who has the same name with BATMAN. naitsirhc. bye.
no, i am not being depressed, but being realistic.
i mean c'mon, i am not a stupid 15 year old, i can think on my own.
of course i wish for whatever i want can come true.
but there are a trillion people out there with wishes.
i won't be that dumb to think that my wish will come true.
and talk about wishes is just dumb.
i would rather go read up on the latest transfer news.
or cook up some plan to buy my car when i turn 18.
at least these have a lower possibility of disappointing me.
i depend on myself, not others.
rin and G is going back today.
yesterday with rin was damn friggin' fun.
she is honestly and seriously, not that fierce or intimidating.
quite funny actually :D
and G is the mean one, but she is really damn funny with her words.
at least when u are not on the receiving end of it.
and no i don't hate u G. D:
why would u even think that, seriously. tsk.
i think lis is in m'sia.
but i wonder why she called me at 4 yesterday.
a tad worried, don't know if its anything important.
that girl is really nice, i feel like punching myself alot of times when i open my mouth.
but somehow she always end up laughing at whatever i say.
aye babe, when the holidays come.
like maybe after my m'sia trip (if that is possible), let's go shopping, sentosa, food search.
it will be a barrel of laughs.
haven't gone out with sunny for ages.
kinda miss her and her low IQ-ness.
D:
esp since now ms nanny has decided that i shall work in kitchen for saturdays, i can't even talk to her.
peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelates. D:
and beerbelly is really really really getting on my nerves.
its none of your fucking business if i am still working there or not.
and no, i didn't fucking kiss u, neither will i sleep with u.
continue dreaming.
egoistical asshole. so pissed.
he is unattainable.
@ 12:17 AM
i am so tired i just want to sleep..
but i guess not..
one more thing to be done first..
so freaking tired..
and i don't even know why..
i just wish the customers will stop comparing me to whatever i am not..
D:
why are people so interested in people that are merely serving them..
argh.
seriously, to be brutally honest..
i don't think my age, what i am studying and where i study is any of your concern..
and i don't look like a freaking doll..
i am a living, breathing human who is serving u for god sake..
urgh!
so annoyed.. customers should just eat their food, talk to their friends and ignore me..
D:
so so so so so so so tired..
i wish my wishes will come true.. like really..
just three.. pretty please with a cherry on the top?
even if i really wanted, its out of my reach..
suck.
he viewed her. crap.
1.8.08 @ 11:13 AM
shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
i am meeting rin at 11, i haven't even bathed yet and its 10.15
so screwed.
D:
but anyway i am in a horrendous mood now..
for reasons that i will never reveal, even if u pull out all my toenails..
ouch.
D:
crap, ciao, bathe!
ry is flying off!
@ 12:16 AM
i haven't been home early this week..
and as the days pass, i seem to see my dad getting more and more amused..
D:
my mum on the other hand, seems to be really pissed with me..
but whatever..
its only once in awhile that your friends from m'sia comes over to play..
i bought a really really pretty bag today..
and i saw this totally cute boyfriend tee on the streets today..
powarrrrrrrr!
its like striped candy..
so cute!
but was in a rush so didn't get it.. D:
sian x100000000
maybe i will get it tmr.. lols..
ok whatever, i sound so bimbotic i wanna cry.. lols..
dinner was super super super good..
cause i ended up damn full..
but the dessert of strawberry shortcake was so dry it made the desert look wet..
and my computarr doesn't hate me today, so i can ul pictures..
can show u all my carpet burn i made lis take pic of..
wahhhhhh, mrs mok was so sarcastically funny about it..
XD
me and lis were like super embarrased but at the same time laughing..
okays, lets see..
DID I MENTION I BOUGHT A PRETTY BAG?!
ohhhh, i did..
whatever, i think i am getting stupider by the minute..
last time i am seeing G.. until idek when..
D:
but maybe me and ry will make a trip to KL during our hols..
wahhhhhhhhhhh, shopping, eating, slacking..
sums up my life.. XD
and to think my parents will sponser me fully..
even more shiok..
ohh people, just now during my 45 min long wait for the cab, i saw this ultimate sleek and the sexiest BMW ever..
have i ever mentioned before?
BMW is my favourite wheels..
the phrase of the day would be..
BMW, the most orgasmic drive, ever.
bite the dust and kiss his ass..
i decided that BMW should be male.. so sexy..
so actually i am in a fix.. cause my favourite F1 driver is under mercs..
which i absolutely have no love for..
except for their two-door and i don't like the BMW driver..
so should i continue supporting alonso?
and ry tells me, i could actually have had a chance to be one of the drivers' personal assistant if i told her sooner..
i nearly roadsurfed by jumping out of the taxi..
so damn depressing!
imagine close contact with alonso's car.. omg..
the the the ultimate dream man..
don't ujust love to hear the cars roar away?
i personally can't stand bikes cause they look dangerous..
but i really really like sports car or two door drive or just any car actually..
damn friggin' cool..
i know for sure, if i drive..
i would definitely speed, cause the thrill of going so fast albeit so dangerous, its addictive..
the sensation, it comes as close as when u score a goal..
ooh la la!
for BMW i really like their Z4 Roadster and 6 series convertible..
convertibles are the sexiest cars.. like seriously..
on the roads, i see alot of audi(s) recently..
but my favourite has to be their SUV..
i think its called V12 TDI quattro or something.. it reeks of confidence and power..
if i am up there one day, i think i will definitely want a BMW..
been my favourite since idk when..
BMW = mine in the future
XD
a girl can dream..
and no, i don't want people to drive me..
i want to drive myself, that's why its called the most orgasmic drive..
bloody hell..
ask u all something..
if u have 10 million (hold all your thoughts about shopping yourself to mental hosp) and u can have a choice of a small apartment in like town area or a huge house with your own deco and all, but very ulu place, which will u all choose?
i chose the big ass house..
its only logical.. XD
but then today on, i got one more reason..
i want a library of my own..
friggin' cool to have a whole library to myself..
even if i can't and prolly won't own a huge ass house in the future, i still want a room just specially for my babies aka my books..
it will be the most beautiful place, seriously..
JE, man utd.. MOVE ASIDE!
books pawn ass.. i cannot wait for stephenie meyer's last installment!
sexciting! my carlisle! u all, BACK OFF..
but whatever, i think everyone is infatuated with the edward cullen..
he is so O******ED.. -ducks-
i don't think anyone wants carlisle though.. but his name so nice uhh..
although a tad old..
i didn't know this, but apparently BATMAN's called christian bales..
nice name.. tsk, the fate uhh..
fave superhero and eyecandy share the same name..
is this pure coincidence or what? lmao..
ohhhhhhhh and have fun in japan ry& drea!
while i mug over my pysch here..
D:
