rushing to leave a post before the new year comes and 2007 ends.. ^^ but the long one after work.. XD will edit if i am in time.. as in i return before 12.. XDD this year has been fun.. so yepps.. today is the day reminisce.. since i can't watch johnny's countdown.. -narrows eyes- oh and i cutted my hair.. -beams- no longer mushroom! my 3 guys of 2007.. XD ranking.. 1>2>2
Smap- Sekai ni - live in Concert 2003
30.12.07 @ 12:38 PM
as much as i love them, they are pretty dead on stage.. =/ but at the same time it would be weird to see shingo/kimura/goro/tsuyoshi/nakai dancing hyper-ly ehh.. lols..
Yozora No Mukou [KAT-TUN version]
@ 12:31 PM
SMAP - Lion Heart
@ 12:28 PM
KAT-TUN - Lion heart
@ 12:28 PM
very random post.
@ 2:30 AM
i only just realised that my cousin is a bloody interesting blogger.. please refer.. was very rather tickled by how he wrote.. http://buttafucco.livejournal.com no way am i going to link him but yes, i will be a regular reader from now on.. cause in real life, i find him a bore, an irritating fella, nose stuck in the clouds fuckingly clever, act cool and sniggers at other on the sly.. plus all my girl cousins have been in love with him for a period of time.. well, obviously apart from me of course.. we hate each other.. serious.. the only time we can get along was when we watch kuroshin-chan and the basketball anime together.. years back.. >.< but apparently i was wrong about him being a bore.. his blog entries are pretty interesting.. so yea, do have a read if u have time.. XD oh and i got c.ronaldo's biography today.. -beams- he is the only soccer player that i admire on and off field.. went from top of my list to now a disappearing act.. but in soccer terms, he will always be the first.. come on la, with the likes of roon around, obviously he will win hands down.. no competition seriously.. but -shrugs- like i said months ago, the passion for ronaldo for the past 3 years have declined rapidly.. and now its stagnant.. but the back of my man utd jerseys will always belong to him as long as he is still in man utd.. just like how cantona was my uncle's era, ron's my era.. the player i will always recognise with when i talk about soccer in the future.. 8 years have passed since the ball fever got to me.. XD 3 years for ron.. and i know for many years to come, both will still go on.. just because he was the first soccer player i liked personally, i will always buy his biographies and imprint his name on the back of my jersies.. XD i am a loyal fan.. =x and he is a sweet guy.. albiet a little flashy and is in love with himself a little more than normal people.. but still, that ronaldo.. the flashiest player premiership has seen, the one that bloomed beautifully despite the shit thrown at him, one of the most heavily critisized player, the player touted to be the next big thing(kaka?whowhat?-sticks out tongue-),THE player for manutd.. and for now, the player that costed man utd their victory over west ham tonight.. T.T -dies- gee ron, u obviously don't like me huh.. i buy your book today and u miss a penalty.. >.< but your freekick midweek was one of the most gorgeous goals i have seen.. XD i shall avoid speaking to my dad tmr.. he will surely mock me to no end.. -dreads- and buying newspaper, since i will work myself into a bad mood.. i can't stand man utd losing.. >.< i realised i am a sore loser.. nobody likes losing, but i realise i take failure especially hard.. i joke about it, but really, i hate the feeling of being incompetent.. especially in things that i have ever been praised in.. so yea, it is not that i am especially good in my languages.. it is just that i can't bear it not being good.. >.< i will be doubly doubly sure that i do it well.. self-pressure? -glomps- i will be wondering why i never give myself pressure for maths.. the hopeless subject.. -sighs- this was a really really random post ehh.. >.< and i must add.. i am really not interested in ojisans.. or their sons.. especially one that likes experimenting with magic tricks.. zomg, i am really not interested in looking at magic tricks... T.T they are seriously seriously weird.. susan.. -snorts- apparently he is a reg? i do hope he ain't going to call me susan everytime he comes.. and i hope neither will his friends.. =/ i am starting to like work abit more recently.. since i realised life without work is a bore.. nothing to do one seriously.. slack and computer only.. although i do have 23 series to catch up with.. AND CAN COLLECT 150BUCKS ON MONDAY~~ finally my finances are starting to look up.. XD and natsuki is asking to me go japan during march with her.. since ryouko will be working her ass off and leaving natsuki alone.. DD: i am seriously tempted and deep down i wanna agree IMMEDIATELY.. zomg.. i feel so depressed thinking that it has been 2 years since i went japan!.. >.< but.. i think of my upcoming o'levels results and i have no choice but to tell her i have to wait and see.. obviously if i do well, and i go poly, there is no reason for my mum to reject.. since she was asking me if i wanted to go.. with lodgings and friends to acc.. she will agree.. well, if i can make her happy with my results.. and provided there is no school during that period of time.. i really wish that i will do well enough.. that is the main thing really.. >.< to be able to go is a bonus, but i will be bloody estatic if i do well for my o'levels.. >.< i wanna get the results like tomorrow.. just thinking about it makes my heart go as fast as when i am seeing yuto.. (ok, bad comparison, since i never saw yuto before.. >.<) but yea, well, i think it is good enough to describe how i feel.. one more month of waiting will really drive me crazy.. i think the night before the results are released i will prolly blog my ass out.. >.< since i will not be able to sleep.. that's for sure, definitely.. >.< OKOK!!!!! change topic.. time to sleep.. else i think i will drive myself crazy.. pray for me people? >.< i am playing praying really hard myself.. i swear i will be unable to speak if i don't do well.. -imagines the worst scenario- >.< >.< >.< >.< >.< GOD!!! RESULTS!!! T.T
ai = naima?
28.12.07 @ 1:38 AM
here is something very very random.. and please do not have murderous thoughts after u read this.. i think ai reminds me of nai ma.. >.< ai as in ai the singer not ai chan from MM.. so yahh, don't have heart attack okays.. but i love ai! >.< she has such powderful vocals and her backflip is amazing seriously.. lols.. oh yea.. if anyone has the mushi song.. PLEASE SEND ME!!!!!!!! zomg.. i am addicted to that song! XDDD so cute!!!
christmas&kubo2!
25.12.07 @ 1:20 AM
IT'S CHRISTMAS!!! spread the love~ ^^ lols.. this year's really fun.. cause of the presents! i bought presents for my friends out of my own pocket.. as in, i used the money i earned myself.. there is really satisfaction when u do that.. and all the sweet letters.. T.T two presents touched me especially so.. one from yuma which arrived this morning and one from bin.. it seems like a short time.. but when i think back, i have been friends with bin for longer than a decade.. a decade is 10 years.. but we have been friends for more than that.. we prolly knew each other since 3 or 4? maybe even younger.. yea, all my memories have her shadow.. when hui was born, i definitely have memories of being there way before that.. and she is 14 years old now.. XDD i love the girls.. hiding in blankets, playing with dolls, trying to convince our mums to let us play tgt longer after the bowling practices, going for ballet classes tgt.. hell, nearly all my childhood memories, she is there.. and i hope she will always be.. she is always the logical one, the hardworking one who never fails to live up to expectations.. and i am always the exact opposite.. but we are still friends.. not exactly the best of friends.. but at the very least.. we understand each other very well.. ^^ and that's what matters the most.. we never expect much from each other and as we grew up and during the times when the whole gang of us is tgt again.. we usually take a helluva time to warm up to each other.. but, she is always there.. and the only time i felt i left her down was when i flunked my PSLE.. the pact we made to go to the same secondary school outside the bowling centre was never fufilled.. and it is impossible for me to go the same jc as her cause she's in HCJC.. =/ bloody smart ehh.. XD but i am really proud of her.. she is the one friend i will always be proudly showing off to my other friends.. i love her.. XD my friend, my role model, my trusted ally, the one and only person i can totally trust apart from my parents and the one friend i rarely mention but when i do, i can never stop, the person that's always first on my list of people i am getting presents for on festive seasons.. she is all that to me and much more.. ^^ thank you for the letter, it means alot to me and that's really one of the best present i have received for this year.. people, treasure your friends.. u don't need to have alot of friends.. but keep all of them, keep them close to your heart, never forget them.. as for yuma, i haven't known her for all that long.. 2 years prolly? but i am really damn touched she actually remembered my birthday.. since we haven't been in contact for really quite sometime.. the occasional letter and that's about it.. she is the friend i made in japan.. ^^ her family's really nice and i miss them.. the warmth that's in their family is one i can't really find in my own family of 3.. XDDD their family ai is really pawnage.. i was being hosted by them and they even brought me to see their grandparents.. who treated me equally well! <333 because of them, i really think having siblings is a blessing.. to see and feel a little of the siblings ai i never experienced.. thankyou for that.. and thank you everybody out there.. every single one of my friends for making the past year so happy and fufilling for me.. thank you for blessing my life with your friendship and love.. ^^ chuu~ the spirit of christmas yo~!
natsuki made me remember about kubo again.. in my opinion one of the really talented that japan boasts.. and he is my fave actor.. even above kimura.. kimura can only be second when there is kubo.. i really love seeing him act.. he gives me the goosebumps.. he is so bloody good.. but with his jump from the 7th floor his popularity took a dive too.. and so he hasn't appeared in much shows ever since.. -sighs- it isn't too much to ask for to want to see kubo back in action right.. i swear i will definitely go to the cinemas to watch him.. and as many times as i watched the show for kimura, the same for kubo.. but for very different reasons.. king for his acting skills and kimura for the man.. kimura is a fantastic actor, but he really lacks the something that kubo possess.. the feel of the character prolly? both slip into their roles as though they are wearing clothes, but kubo really brings out the feel of the character.. the madness, the cold and calculating.. the deep and possessive love.. he makes the audience SEE the character in whole.. and he really deserves praise for that, for making acting seem like an art.. this is solely my opinion.. so yea.. XD to be able to win kimura in my rankings leh.. must at least have a bit of standard then possible.. XDDDD
quote of ryouko
24.12.07 @ 1:37 AM
THIS IS SOLELY FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSE. since i found it rather amusing. and happy birthday yo chehao! XD quoted from ryouko's blog. ^^
I always thought it was really sad how the 2ch-ers are a mirror of what Morning Musume is. And how AKB48 are being underrated just because of thei main wotabase. Its like how when we judge something, its the artistes who always gets the arrows first, instead of those who truly deserved to be gunned.
A stupid taiwan boyband, Chuppachup's (*note: this is not their real name, real name is replaced to protect them) company decides to be really brilliantand totally and completely ripped off both SweN and Sho Wah Dive in one song. (damn hua suan, two big JE group's idea rolled into one, super clever.)
Okay, lets be very fair. We know definitely that they are just a bunch of pretty face who sits in the studio and waits for people up there to tell them what to sing, what to do, what to dance. So generally speaking, they most probably weren't the ones who decided anything. But when the finished product is out, nobody is sane enough to go "NAH BEH LAH STUPID PRODUCER!" Its all, "CHUPPACHUPS, GO AND DIE." The only exception is brilliant H!P fans who just sends their death threats straight up to their managing company, UFA (more lovingly known as, UFAss.)
-inserts lollipop MV- for link reference, please refer to past few posts.. ^^
Oops. I just defeated my purpose of keeping their identity under wraps.
Whatever. They are just equally deserving of every death threat they get from every NewS and HSJ fans. Even if they didn't come up with the idea, they should have had some brains to figure out they were infringing copyrights of the great Jyannizu. They are too stupid. Verdict: Go and Die. The only idol on earth allowed to be stupid is Jin.
Well, the one good thing that came out of this is the birth of a new simile:
As er xin (gross/disgusting/revolting) as BANG BANG TANG :D
Ergh.
Oh and in reference to dear Mrs Iriguchideguchitaguchidesu's uber interesting tagboard, it always amuses me how similar the type of people who spam tagboards are.
1. The persistent abuse of the word "FUCK" in all forms (eg: u fucking, go fuck, fuck lah)
2. The pathetic command of english, resulting in most sentence structures being extremely grueling to comprehend.
3. The wretched last resort of making unrelated comment. (eg: you are sougly nehxzxzxz)
4. All have extremely admirably adorable amount of high self esteem to thing that they are so drop dead kawaii nehxz enough to be JE fans
5. (only applicable to Jin fans) They all make you feel thankful for their presence, cause thanks to people like them, you know that your dear boy is not the stupidest thing on earth. <3
And coming back to my first point, its so tragic that these fans are the mirror of their fandom. They had to be KEII-CHAN *inserts hearts* fans. Talk about right timing. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Retarded people. If you have time to to search "KOYAMA SUCKS" on google everyday and randomly spam people's tagboard, you should stand in orchard road everyday and ask for donations to the "help Koyama look better please" plastic surgery fund.
Okay. To be fair, I don't hate Koyama that much yet. And everything was just to annoy those keiichanLOVE people. If you are not those people, don't be like them.
If you have the time and energy, go to SPCA and save bunnies. 22 bunnies die a day, imagine the lives you can save. Life is precious. Save one today.
i really loved the part about the sho wah dive.. if u don't get it.. u are really slow.. sho wah dive. hey say jump. get the link? XD she is the win. serious.
thank yous
@ 12:21 AM
it is nearly over.. my birthday i mean.. and this is my very first post using the new laptop i just got today.. damn cool right! XD well, at least i think so.. the second laptop in my life.. first was fujitsu then now vaio~ ^^ and -beams- i got a really huge surprise present from my uncle today.. hmm and it really struck off an expensive item off my shopping list.. which leaves me with only PSP slim purple and Cybershot to get now.. i am a huge SONY fan.. ^^ anyway, my uncle got me my coveted iPod Nano 8GB! he was like "give u, but actually your auntie got the wrong product, so if u want change, tell me ok" i was totally wide-mouth.. its like, wtf?! u actually got me something so expensive.. i thought it would only be a t-shirt or something when he called and ask if i preferred black or white.. in the end its this.. zomg.. i got black in the end though, since my mum thought i liked black better than white.. which was wrong.. lols.. but i am still very very happy.. and today i had the most normal birthday since the past few years.. but it was still a happy one.. ^^ and here are my thank yous.. to all people who had actually remembered it and wished me be it in msn or msg or calls, took note and here are the thank yous.. XD dewei brother bee hui pi pris chehao bin hui yeesheng celestine ryouko natsuki rika eeling edwin sher beiling melt melly huishan hiroki chiankiap hq hock albin yui meii-chan tinwai bzw cc 3uncles 1auntie 2cousins and of course my mum and dad!! XDDD gawd. if i missed out anyone i am teeribly sorry ok! and this is not in order, it is just who i thought of.. so yupps.. and man utd won today.. so its a really nice end to the whole day.. ^^
slammers pt.2
23.12.07 @ 10:54 AM
zomg.. i thought that chapter was closed and chucked into the rubbish bin.. but guess not.. new round of attacks? lols.. refreshing! dumb little girl who isn't entitled to her own opinions.. LOL! so u aren't equally dumb by replying to my dumb posts? and if u haven't read what i wrote since its really boring crap.. then how would you know what i have written? so in the end u are just following the others and replying? that would really be the joke of the month.. but wait, you would be contradicting yourself if u have read.. since its all boring crap and no one will read it.. blah blah blah.. c'mon la.. just get over it.. i don't like koyama.. and this is my blog, so i can say whatever unfair bias thing i want about him.. u can't expect me to be fair to him when i don't like him.. ok fine, i shouldn't slam him for his fashion sense.. then what? the more serious ones like his looks and voice? hell, i was just venting my anger on my blog.. in return for having to read KAT-TUN get slammed on a public forum.. and this is getting ridiculous.. what a fantastic day this day will turn out to be.. -rolls eyes-
spammers!
@ 12:45 AM
LOL! i reaaally have to blog today.. lols.. uptight fans are seriously the jokes of my life.. quite a shock today.. to get home and activate my computer and see yui telling me ppl are spamming my box cause of previous post.. i guess they feel the exact same way i do when i see what helen writes on her blog.. the only difference? i abuse her on my blog while they do it on my tag.. but it did come as a surprise.. since i didn't know people actually do read.. i was pretty amused actually.. nahh no anger.. cause like the girl said, people are entitled to their own opinions like i am entitled to mine.. so yea.. whatever.. but i was quite sure i did give warning for people not to read if they happen to be fans.. cause its like, its my blog.. like i said i am so damn fucking sure i can post whatever i want.. i can say kimura is balding and all sorts of nonsense if i want to.. but i guess either one, they either love koyama so much or two they are new.. i would guess its the latter since apparently she put tego's name.. i used to get really really mad at what ppl say about KAT-TUN.. all sorts of nonsense.. but after long.. it doesn't matter anymore.. cause in the end what matters is not what other people think but what you think.. if u really like that particular person so much, no criticisms from other people should get you down.. like i don't have enough people mocking junno.. even the really bad ones like he is trying too hard and he should be out of KAT-TUN, no talent.. it is not as though i haven't been through all those.. no JE fan can survive without going through all of that.. but if u have enough faith in him, c'mon la, those comments won't even affect u a teeny weeny little.. ok, maybe a little, but fans i know of usually shrug it off.. so, seriously, i am totally unable to place myself in the shoes of those people and try to understand them.. the worst thing is, i am not even saying this on a public forum.. it is in my own blog for god's sake.. there is this comment which apparently, i think is meant to threaten me really cracked me up.. putting my blog in NewS thread for all of the people to see.. this really made my day.. it kinda shows how mature is that.. slamming other people's idols isn't exactly what i would call mature.. but resorting to threats to show your anger is really childish.. i can totally take u telling me what u think of what i have said.. it is a fair world, i say what i think and the same for you.. but don't threaten me.. it is really childish.. lols.. and i still don't get why they are so uptight.. i can understand they trying to protect koyama.. but then, it is not as though he will read, understand and cry over it what.. lols! everyone who has fans has anti-fans.. and i happen to be his anti-fan.. that's all to it.. by slamming me.. what is the purpose? vent your anger? standing up for koyama? -shrugs- well, do whatever u like.. hate me.. slam me.. curse.. whatever.. because at the end of day, it is still fandom.. it is not really real yo~ you most likely won't marry your idol.. and u know him on screen.. but off it? is he who u know him to be? can you be so sure of it? don't make fandom your life, it is just part of it.. let it affect u so badly.. bye bye.. off to the nut hospital.. seriously.. just rant on your own blog.. just like i did on mine.. i swear i will not go spamming against u.. or spew vulgarities or even hate you.. cause everyone is entitled to their own opinions.. have a nice day giving opinions.. ^^
KAT-TUN2
22.12.07 @ 12:21 AM
lols.. read here.. lollipop really has ZERO creativity.. from their song down to their pv.. they are all rip-offs of JE.. their pv at one look one will immediately think of "NewS, weeeek" don't believe its that bad? http://www.wretch.cc/album/show.php?i=st21236&b=23&f=1327404797&p=1 watch it.. i really feel like slamming them.. weeeek happens to be my fave NewS song since a long time.. and its also weeeek that made me like yamapi more.. added on the song.. gawd.. lollipop, be eaten! i really hoped the producer will be gobbled up by a lawsuit.. sue till you are left with not even the lollipop stick.. =.= and talking about zero orginality.. i must say that koyama is getting from bad to worse.. EDIT:(havetocapthis=.=)DO NOT READ ANYMORE FOR NEWSXKOYAMA LOVERS. MSSL is a great example.. koyama is just a mere follower of akame fashion.. akame set the trend and koyama follows.. look at him! kame dyes his hair black, koyama dyes his hair black.. akame wear scarves on their hips, koyama wears scarf on his hips.. jin wear black/white sweater, koyama wear black/grey sweater.. plain disgusting.. c'mon la, please have some originality! not everyone can wear what kame wears and pulls off the look well.. and even if there are people who can, its definitely not you koyama.. get a life.. and some ORIGINAL fashion sense at the same time.. u really looked like a kame clone tonight.. koyama is seriously grating my nerves.. and that someone too at JPM.. =.= don't comment about KAT-TUN when u know nuts about them.. KAT-TUN don't really love each other, but at least they don't fake member ai either.. they are as real as you get.. watching a few episodes of ckt doesn't give u the right to comment on the show.. know them well enough before making any conclusion.. don't even try to compare ckt to DK.. come on la, how long has KAT-TUN been hosting? how long has Kinki Kids been hosting? it is comparing your dear NewS fanbase to SMAP's fanbase.. there is no comparison at all.. pardon me all NewS fans who are reading this.. i am really really mad.. and i must rant.. it will be unfair.. so either skip it or just bear with me.. at the very least, KAT-TUN held their debut con in Tokyo Dome.. where did NewS hold theirs? and how long did they take to reach there? so much hype about NewS comeback single but in the end such sales figures.. and commenting that cKt ain't good? well, at least KAT-TUN have their own show to host.. and for your info, koyama's hosting will never save any show.. he can't even save his own underpants if the need arises.. i don't understand the hype about him.. he isn't funny, he isn't good looking, he can't sing and he doesn't have any originality.. i don't give shit about who likes him or what not.. but don't make it seem as though he is good when he can barely make the passing grade.. oOps wait.. he can't even pass.. at the end, i think i need to clarify this.. i don't hate NewS.. in fact i love ryo, like shige,massu,pi, is ok with tego recently.. i only hate koyama.. its just the fans that i can't stand.. i mean if u aren't happy with KAT-TUN.. then don't even bother to watch them la.. why watch and give bad comments later on.. -.- it isn't fair to anyone.. and the whole chunk of unfair comparison up there.. it is to let myself feel happier.. i have had enough of NewS and KAT-TUN comparison.. two totally different bands.. =.= their music are so different, their style too.. there is no way to compare.. -glomps- i just wish she will stop watching KAT-TUN and make everyone unhappy.. don't like, don't watch.. =.= don't be jealous that KAT-TUN is everywhere.. akira and weeeek makes me like pi again.. XDD jin's influence helped too..
copyrighted!
20.12.07 @ 12:29 PM
i really think HSJ is fantastic.. they just debutted for a little while.. and on comes the taiwanese band lollipop copying their UMP! -sniggers- and i thought that song was second to TooShy in the single.. and it grated on my nerves if i heard it too many times.. apparently i was wrong.. but well, lollipop was even worse.. i am so damn sure if they dance, it will never match up to HSJ.. they don't have a chinen.. and their chorus is a diluted version of UMP.. terrible.. if they admit to using HSJ's song then its better.. but, they haven't.. ^^ i hope the composer gets sued.. some korean band sang SMAP's Lion Heart.. but at least it is very very nice.. acapella version.. and they re-used the title.. kudos to them.. not like some sweet band.. =.= and seriously, i don't give two hoots about whether its the band's fault or the company's fault.. both are at fault.. company's fault for choosing the song.. band's fault for performing it so badly.. yahh, i am super bias.. -.- http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=jwG4pMBZn_g here is the link.. and i die also won't feel bad for them.. be original la..
christmas shopping!
18.12.07 @ 11:46 AM
christmas is going to be very very very soon.. and i just wrote up the list of people i am getting presents for.. and it is a long list of 28 people....... -faints- SO MANY PEOPLE!!! SO LITTLE MONEY!!!! T.T i guess i have to dig up my savings.. -glomps- people, be very grateful when you receive presents okay! i sacrificed my shopping trip money.. T.T T.T T.T it is still shopping, just that its for other people.. =/ and for those that never receive, i am really terribly sorry! no more budget.. >.< my my my PSP slim purple!!!!! T.T -sighs- christmas is a season of giving.. ahh, well.. money can be earned again.. but christmas is only once a year.. >.< now i sound like a saint.. lols.. never mind never mind.. i think i would like very very much to get my own stuff.. but then its much nicer to make people feel appreciated.. XD that's what christmas is for right.. and since i am working now, it makes no sense to get money from my parents.. plus they are getting VAIO.. what more can i ask for? -giggles- this year's christmas will be a good one! but time to go bathe and go out shopping for christmas presents! ^^
end of golden week!
17.12.07 @ 11:40 PM
i forgot something! and i believe this deserves a post by itself.. my golden week has officially ended! -died- she has returned.. and my gold has faded.. when the flower returns the gold will fade.. T.T now i sound deranged.. and to prove that i didn't always have my mushroom hair.. (i beg you guys not to laugh) >.< i think i look weird.. but be nice to me ok! >.< a longish one and a spunky one.. i think one was at the start of the year, the other around march..
junno8
@ 10:57 PM
it is less than a week! XD hehhs.. and i still have not decided if i should actually go attend PJC.. zomg.. i think i should.. but then again no energy to wear my sch uniform again.. -sighs- when the novelty of working wears off.. next comes laziness.. it is the same old pattern in no matter what i do.. it is always fun at first but then as time passes i get tired of it.. so there is never an absolute favourite food that i have.. no absolute person i will like forever.. it always changes.. it is quite pathetic actually.. to not have something that i can like and never change.. is everyone else changing so much too? or is it just me who is so fickle-minded? >.< i always think of this.. but i can never come to a conclusion.. never understand why i can get sick of things so easily.. the more i like that person or thing the faster i am sick of it.. it applies in all aspects.. a few days to a few years.. i can't remember a thing i have managed to like for very very long.. the same feeling can never be able to be sustained from the start to the end.. it will always wane off slowly.. is this bad? to always need fresh changes.. that's why i never want to get married.. i can't imagine facing the same person forever.. there is bound to be alot alot of trouble.. DD: i think i better go bathe.. getting late.. and i need sleep! this will be a nice week.. i hope.. and and and.. i have been testing what santa will give me this year.. and the vibes i have been getting.. i THINK it may just be a new lappie.. the VAIO i have been drooling over!!!! i think only la.. maybe not.. but my mum didn't directly say no and actually nodded.. there may be a high possibility! XDD but but but.. that means i will die if i go into mass comm.. i need apple for mass comm.. not vaio.. -died- if i go buy another one, i will most likely die without bones.. or even ashes! sheeeeeet! and man utd won last night! hahahahahaha.. 3 points grabbed from under your noses damn reds! HA-HA-HA! victory to the devils and defeat for the reds.. lets see how long your spaniard can last.. continue to lose my dear reds.. L-O-S-E-R.. life is never fair in the game of ball~ plus who told u guys to squander all the chances away.. man utd didn't play well but then we made full use of our one and only chance.. so too bad.. you lose.. hahaha, i wonder how many more games against man utd will you lose.. -sighs- i feel so sadist, rubbing in.. but whatever, i hate liverpool.. it runs in all the true devils' blood.. down with the scousers! glory to the devils! wooo~~~~!!!! ciao scousers, your era is over! ^^ you will ALWAYS walk alone.. (note: scousers' slogan goes: you will never walk alone. damn joke. xD)
one of my current loves.. at least this has managed to stay so for 1 year plus.. it will last for as long as it will last! XD get what i mean? no? -shrugs- is okay.. me neither.. oh and i think junno is influencing me too much.. >.< last night i was watching the awards ceremony, the artistes kept thanking a Mr LongJohn.. and after sometime i asked my mum does she know that guy's fave colour.. obviously she said no.. and i told her silver.. she asked me why.. and i went.. cause LongJohnSilver! =x i spied a murderous intent swimming in her eyes.. she totally didn't want to speak to me anymore.. oOps.. but it is funny what! =/ WAAAAAAAAAAAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i realised i do have one thing i liked since young! -looks at self in amazement- reading.. i always liked reading.. even though there may be a few years where i barely read more than a hundred books.. but i will never stop liking reading.. it seems like a dork to like reading ehh.. but at least i managed to find a passion that has lasted me from my childhood to my teenage years!
JCS
16.12.07 @ 4:29 PM
went to queue for the JCS jap course today.. zomg.. i need sleep.. desperately! T.T but my mum decides she needs to sleep too.. so i have to be awake to look after the maids.. T.T but anyway, i did get my class.. class will start on 12th!!! damn cool la! although is abit stupid, but i went on to join the membership thingy.. lols! oh and one more thing.. no, two more.. finally repaired and reformatt my computer.. which means i can go online and not be sending viruses like no one's business! but i lost all my files and folders.. DDD: luckily i got backup pictures and music folders in my phone and mp3.. pictures aren't the most updated.. but it will do.. lost all my newest kimura caps though.. grahhs.. have to re-dl the vid and recap him all over again.. and junno birthday pic spams from celestine.. =/ DDD: but my vids.. all gone! T.T damn damn damn! have to re-dl everything! but its still a small price to pay for the health of my computer! and u won't believe this cause neither did i.. i actually received a ltter from MOE telling me they are giving me an award.. and for what.. good progress award.. i think i nearly died laughing when i saw the letter last night.. so hilarious! i actually got that kind of award.. zomg.. i know it isn't nice to laugh at people, especially when the person is yourself.. but its so funny! i am in the last class for god's sake.. >.< i think they looked at the school rankings.. cause i really think that was the only one that i could actually see vast improvements.. from the last 20 in sec2 to the top 130 in sec4.. okays.. we have only like 202 or something pupils.. but then its really nice leap.. lols.. its nearly like from the last class to the third class.. but it still seems like a joke to me that they are actually awarding ME with good progress award.. lols.. but oh well.. at least this will be something for my mum to be proud of me.. after all the damn terrible results.. finally she can see something promising in the lazy bum of her daughter.. lols.. XD so i am actually happier for her than myself.. ^^ ehh.. okays.. that's about it! XD no pictures for now, cause i am still transferring.. oh and celestine if you are reading this.. DDD: i will need to transfer stuff too.. i lost every single thing.. T.T although i have no idea how.. and singaporeans truly live up to their name of kiasu-ism.. people queue up also need to know why.. lols.. i think if there are freebies to be given out they sure will go queue too! XD oh and aliens learn jap too.. i didn't know that.. xD
yuta2
13.12.07 @ 2:30 PM
i need to complain!!! >.< i think my mum doesn't love me anymore.. DDDD: i was pleading with her to let me have a 2week family holiday at Tokyo/Osaka next year after her personally requested trip to gold coast.. she actually told me.. "U want to go? Oh, then we buy the air ticket and pay for your shopping. You can fly alone right? Fly direct from Autralia la, or u want go back to Singapore to fly also can. I help u arrange boardings, but you go yourself. I go Taiwan." -stabs madly- HOW CAN TREAT ME LIKE THAT?!!!!! ZOMG.. like tt say still my mother??!!! -dies of neglect- damndamndamn!!! and i was ready to forgive her for leaving me to go shopping in Taiwan alone a couple of months back.. how can she be so mean!!! T.T but at least my dad's nicer.. he says he's deciding if we should go for cruise this new year! -beams- but i can't gamble which strips away half of the fun.. i think my mum lost her love for me.. T.T
i need more love.. >.< esp pretty boys.. oOps..
MEME!
12.12.07 @ 11:28 AM
Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die: 1. Travel the world 2. Meet Kimura Takuya 3. Shake hands with vampires
Three Names You Go By: 1. Siru 2. Joo~~ (=.=lll) 3. Ah Girl (the family name)
Three Screen Names You Have Had: 1. siru07 2. dana`(dog'snameandithinkthiswaswhyigottagged>.<) 3. somethingsomethingjunno (can't remember)
Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself: 1. Wrist bone 2. Eyes 3. Fingers
Three Parts Of Your Heritage: 1. Cheena-fied 2. Hakka-ed 3. S'porean lahh
Three Things That Scare You: 1. Flying bugs 2. Junno being serious 3. Compyuter being reformatted/alone forever/bankruptcy
Three Of Your Everyday Essentials: 1. Handphone 2. Music player 3. Internet connection
Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: 1. Oversized shirt 2. Hairband 3. Socks(SO COLD!)
Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists: 1. Kimura Takuya Kimura Takuya Kimura Takuya 2. KAT-TUN 3. Nakajima Yuto
Three Of Your Favorite Songs: 1. Kizuna -Kame 2. Crazy Love -KAT-TUN 3. 世界に一つだけの花 -SMAP
Three Things You Want In A Relationship: 1. <3333 ai yo, ai 2. Balance 3. Understanding
Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You: 1. Elegant fingers 2. Un-yellow hair 3. BIG beaming grins
Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies: 1. Reading 2. Soccer-ing 3. Shopping
Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now: 1. Buy a laptop 2. USE CLUBBOX!!!! 3. Go online
Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered: 1. Tour Guide 2. Reporter 3. Translator/Lawyer/Author
Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation: 1. Japan 2. Manchester 3. Romania
Three Kid's Names You Like: 1. Giselle (sopretty!) 2. Jun (it feels very suave) 3. Eri
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl: 1. FANGIRL!!!! 2. Emocons abuse 3. Shopping!
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy: 1. Soccer's a mjor part of my life 2. I hate pink 3. LOUD vocals
Three People You Tag: 1. SUNNY! 2. Brother 3. Yui
golden week!
@ 1:05 AM
this week's golden week!!!!!! woo~~~!!! i think most people know why.. i have been repeating it daily! wahahaha.. i feel so relieved nowadays! but golden week will end soon.. DDD: -sighs- all good things must come to an end.. ahh, i saw hq a few days back.. lols.. he was at the bus stop under my flat.. was quite surprised to see him there.. like "tt guy looks like hq! jjc also! OHMY! really hq leh!" lols, damn funny la.. i think he was rather shocked when i tapped him.. XD ahh and apparently he thinks my hair is weird! DDD: but brother was nice enough to add that hq also thinks its cute.. thanks brother.. but don't need to comfort me.. -silently goes into depression- lols! oh, i think the golden compass is really really nice!!!! the plot is good! and the acting is not bad too.. definitely worth watching! ^^ am really quite restless recently.. is this what we all go through in the period before our birthdays? >.< alot of restless energy moving about.. -sighs-
shopping web!
10.12.07 @ 11:27 AM
ahh, am getting really really bored nowadays.. and i have no wish to keep changing my blogskins any longer.. so, please bear with the same old boring blogskin everytime u come in okays.. gomen ne! XD ahh, really don't know what to do with my time nowadays.. =.= oh and plus i hate cine's ticket booth! they didn't allow me to watch HITMAN!!!!!! so evil! >.< just cause i am not 16.. -stabs madly- it is just like 2 weeks more and cannot!!!! -dies of anger- i am so sure the girl selling the ticket had a hint of laughter when she rejected me! damn.. 16! 16! 16!!!! why must every damn thing be 16?! first was the airport thing.. i can't go throught the customs faster by tapping my passport cause i ain't 16.. and now i can't watch the damn movie cause i ain't 16.. sheeeeeet!!!!! i hate having my birthday so late! i have to wait a year later than everyone else to do anything!!! i swear before the day i am legal i will go mad.. =.= but before that.. is someone ever kind enough to help me buy HITMAN tickets? T.T i really want to watch the show!! i am so sad.. =/ ahh.. i have been thinking about what to do with my time.. hmm.. i could either do something with the library of books i have.. or sell clothes off at the same time i shop for them! if its books, then i would prolly do a review of them.. if its the clothes, then i would have to open another web to sell them.. -shrugs- have not decided which it will be.. but i got a suspect feeling it will be the latter.. since i am really really too lazy to do review of 700++ books and counting.. that would be madness seriously.. plus have to show the book cover.. zomg.. too much work!!! i really went to count the number of books i have.. so don't doubt me~ XD -glomps- i think i will try to do the shopping web.. it seems fun.. lols.. and no harm trying.. so~ XDD something to do! lols.. but for today, time to watch golden compass!!!!! initially we wanted to watch at vivo gold class.. but the price is mad.. so we changed to cine.. yes, i hate cine, but there isn't any choice! lols.. okays.. i have to go now.. ja! XD i have to think of a web name too! so fun!!!! <333
kimura6
8.12.07 @ 12:52 PM
ryouko asked me a really tough question yesterday.. kimura or yuto.. zomg.. it would have been much easier if it was just yuto or junno.. but its kimura.. what a tough question.. >.< ahh, but anyway i felt quite insulted by some pri6 kids yesterday on the train.. apparently that kid got it into his brain that as long as he is tall he is the king.. hell, his voice hasn't even broke.. and he must be mad to think that i would be interested in him just cause he is taller than me.. gee.. kids nowadays.. =.= thinking that just cause you are tall you are the win is a no-no.. and i really hate it when people can't understand rejection.. zomg.. =.= recently there are too many weird people on the train.. and s'porean guys seem to be getting desperate.. oh oh!! and! the really really nice customer who gave me the 5bucks tips from before came yesterday! and he gave 5bucks tips again! i am getting really tickled by him! he is so cute! the other time was the hair.. then this time he was going off already.. and he specially called me over and said "ja-ne" and stuffed 5bucks.. ZOMG! i think he must either be really rich or that he thinks i am really poor! LOL! but sadly tamaya doesn't allow personal tips.. so, i think he should just have given it when he paid the bill.. lols.. but he is still a nice man.. hahahaha.. i think tamaya has really nice customers! i guess thats about it.. XD time to go watch HITMAN!!!! woo~~ oh yea.. i chose kimura in the end.. 2 years of liking yuto is a long time.. but when compared to the 6-7 years of kimura fandom it is nothing.. ^^ i would delibrately go watch HERO 17 times because there's kimura in it.. but if its yuto, i wouldn't have delibrately done so.. xD i can pass up a chance to watch yuto in flesh.. but for kimura i would grab the chance with both hands.. XD yuto's number 1.. but kimura isn't even ranked because he is far above number 1.. <333 i guess i do like kimura alot alot better.. but it can't be helped.. that man is gorgeous down to the very hair.. he was nose-bleedingly hot in this year's FNS.. it would be a mistake to say i like SMAP.. cause i don't like them as a whole much.. it is more individual.. and my eyes are 90% of the time trained on kimura.. so, its not SMAP i like.. but the members.. XDD
lily-jie!
6.12.07 @ 1:23 AM
i really need to rant.. i don't wanna sound as though i am whiny and can't take hardships.. but, i really am quite unhappy.. the last two days haven't been exactly smooth-sailing.. yui and edwin's quarrel.. but today was the first day in tamaya i feel so unhappy.. i really really really hate being bossed about.. i can take you ordering me to do things and stuff.. but i really can't stand being bossed about.. >.< i know you are older and want to teach me.. and that i am new so i should learn everything and take everything in.. but don't boss me around.. i do have my dignity and pride too.. how you treated me in front of the customers today really affected my morale.. i mean, i am pretty sure i can manage taking orders.. if u wanna impress the big customer so much, then do it from the start! don't butt in halfway when i am already halfdone with them.. and make both me and the customer repeat the orders all over again.. it is very very annoying.. and an insult to me.. as though i can't even manage writing down what the customers say.. how will the customers view me then! i need to graduate from the newbie image someday.. like what you say, i need to make the customers feel confident about me.. but i don't see how what you are doing is helping me at all.. in fact the more you do that, the higher chance that the customer will hesitate to call me if they want a repeat order.. they will think i am not up to task to do it.. experience has to be gained.. but with your way of doing things, i don't see how i can gain experience.. and don't give me the excuse that u are just trying to help and scared that i will make mistake.. how the hell will i ever learn if i don't do?! i am pretty sure when i know when i should refill the shochu.. i am damn sure i know i need to give customers their menus and otoshi.. please don't treat me like i just joined.. i can take u asking to change plates for customers and then u go off drinking water lying down.. i can take you looking over my shoulder like a hawk every bloody time i take an order.. but i cannot take you treating me like a foolish newbie every single day! i need to grow up too! if everytime i try to take order for a big customer and u push me off.. how the hell will i ever learn?! and if u butt in every fucking time i am taking order and correct me every fucking time even when i know its correct, i will get damn irritated with u.. seriously, if i am not new and u are not like so old u can be my mum.. trust me, i will fucking rip u apart.. no one, and i mean no one has ever done what u did to me.. joanne always apologises when she feels she bullied me.. but i never take it to heart.. cause i know she is joking.. but u are different.. u fucking reprimanded me for talking after i was scolded by nai-ma when u are the one talking me in the first place?! hello, i may be dumb but not that stupid! and i know how to pour shochu for the customers without having you smiling to them like i am pouring it the wrong way! AND WHY THE FUCK DO YOU ONLY TREAT ME THIS WAY?! leechoo's new too! but why do i only see you treating me like i am some retard who takes years to learn how to do setting?! i know that u are doing it to teach me.. but please, u are seriously seriously doing it the wrong way.. there is only a thin line bewteen teaching and being over-bearing.. and the thing is, the more u butt in, the more confused things will get.. and to quote yui, "u are not the one who gets scolded, i will be." so please, fucking mind your own business.. when i need help, i will call for help.. even a baby needs to learn how to walk by himself someday.. trust me, i believe i can manage most simple tasks in tamaya now.. -glomps- i am really damn frustrated right now.. i can't even begin to count how many times when i am taking order and she just has to butt in and confuse me.. asking me to do this and that when i am busy with a task on hand.. i don't have 3 heads and 6 arms ok.. if u can do it yourself, why don't u?! and please open your eyes.. i do rounds every few mins.. it is not as though i am slacking off.. so don't make it seem like i am.. when u are the one who goes to the toilet during emergencies and keep drinking water and disappearing to no where! plus, when people are taking orders it is definitely not the time to socialise with the customers.. fuck.. i need to cool down.. even the lousy rude customers from the other time didn't upset me this much that i had to rant the whole way home to ryouko.. just give me a damn break! i don't need and don't appreciate having u hovering around me all the time, don't need you correcting me at every interval and i don't fucking need you to make me feel so damn inferior! cheebye.
koizora
5.12.07 @ 12:59 AM
watched koizora.. am really really really touched.. and i really can't help falling for the male lead.. it is such a beautiful beautiful story.. its a love story by the way.. but the love between the leads.. both touching and sad at the same time.. so i ended up crying to sleep last night.. it does sound stupid crying cause of a movie.. plus the plot is really cliche.. but really.. their love.. i think most viewers would feel deeply for them.. and as the plot unravels.. something deep inside moves.. the one and only love.. and i especially can't forget how much the guy loved the girl.. he knew that by hurting the girl his pain would double.. but he believed that the hurt she has to go through is only temporary.. after which she can move on with her life.. it would all pass for her.. yet, he would always be the one in the shadows.. looking after her.. loving her in the dark.. it is heartbreakingly painful.. its hard to describe how i actually feel.. do watch it yourself.. at the start of the movie.. the lead said this.. "如果那天...沒有見到你" "我不會那麼傷心 那麼難過 不會淚流滿面..." "但是 如果沒有遇見你..." "我就不會了解如此高興 如此幸福 如此溫柔 如此可愛" "如此的溫暖的感覺..." "現在還好嗎? 我...現在還和天空戀愛著" T.T the brief translation of that would be.. if we didn't meet that day.. i wouldn't be thus sad, thus heartbroken, i wouldn't be awash with tears.. but, if i didn't meet you.. i wouldn't know such happiness, such bliss and such love.. i wouldn't know the feeling of such warmth.. how are you know? i am still in love with the sky.. the sky because, the male has died.. even after the so long, the girl still loves him.. later i post what ryouko has translated.. i love koizora.. love the love that is in koizora.. the so painful, yet so beautiful love.. untainted and so pure.. it is a must-watch.. and i am waiting desperately for the chinese version of the book.. T.T unwavering love of hiro.. -sobs- i think its ok for a guy to be over-protective for the girl he loves.. it shows how much he cares.. just don't be obsessive.. and that's why i fell for hiro.. he is so protective of mika.. no matter his decisions.. they are all made to protect her.. he don't even mind hurting him, just so she won't be hurt.. -tears- even if its just a story.. but for such a love to exist.. -sighs- i am a sucker for romance.. and i guess that's why i fell for his sweet talk.. =/
here is the brief description of koizora grabbed from ryouko's blog.. i can never be coherent enough to give a good summary.. so i just grabbed hers.. XD
[[Main character - Mika Main character (guy) - Hiro
The story is generall about Mika's life story from the time she was 16 till 22(?) But it is more of her love life than just life in general though it contained many different side stories about her family and friends as well. It all began one day when this very famous "playboy-ish" guy from the next class came to "disturb" them at their classroom and asked for their number. Their meaning Mika and two other friends. One of her friend actually obliged but later she found out that her friend gave him HER (mika's) number. Since then he started calling and pestering her everyday. Note that this person is not Hiro, but actually is Hiro's best friend, called Nozomu. Until one day, Nozomu called to pester her when he was drunk and Hiro took over the phone. They began to talk and this was the start of how they met. They gradually met more and ultimately began going out together.
Hiro and Mika then got together. Hiro is generally a very overprotective person and he was very touchy when it came to Mika. But Mika knew that he really likes her alot. Many things happened along the way as they were together. Hiro's exgirlfriend actually began "stalking" her till Mika ended in the hospital from mild depression. She also sent people kidnap and rape her. But Hiro was always there to save her. Mika then got pregnant with Hiro's child. They were really happy and Hiro wanted her to keep the child definitely. Hiro was a teenage boy with starking blonde hair. Naturally, Mika's parents weren't approving about her having his child. And for a few days after he got rejected by Mika's parents, Hiro stopped visiting her or taking contact with her. But one night she found out that Hiro was in their living room with his head down, bowing and asking for Mika's parents approval. He even dyed his own hair back. He have been doing this for the past few days and she was very touched by this. At this point, Mika was really sure that she would give birth to his child. However, Hiro's exgirlfriend got word of Mika being pregnant with his child and called her out. They were having a heated argument and she pushed Mika hardly onto the ground. This caused Mika to lose the child. And she only found out on christmas (which is 3 days later) when she was supposedly eloping from her house with Hiro. Both of them were very upset by the lost of child and they made a promise to visit the baby's grave every Chistmas as 12am. However shortly, after the lost, Hiro began to act very weirdly. He started skipping school and when one day Mika went over to visit him at his house. She found him being high on thinner with a bunch of friends. She was disappointed and was really heartbroken when he started to have sex with one of the random girls right in front of her very eyes. She shouted at him in the face and ran off. A couple days later, Hiro sent her a message saying they should break up. Mika then panicked cause she really didn't want to. But no matter how hard she tried, in the end, Hiro was still persistent in breaking up. Except, he still showed signs that he loved her.
They then began moving on with each other's lives. Hiro started going out with girls around him and even one of Mika's best friend. Through her old friend, Mika met this person called Yuu whom she eventually grew to like and went out with. They both graduated from high school and Mika went to the university where Yuu was schooling in instead of the music school she and Hiro promised to go together. This showed that she wanted to move on with her new life and to forget about him completely. On the last day of school, she remembered a message she wrote in the library's blackboard. The library was a place which held many memories for the both of them. Even after she broke up with Hiro and Hiro began going out with different girls, she still couldnt forget him. She wrote on the blackboard "Were you happy?" When she ran back to the library on the last day of school, it was written just below her message, "I was very happy" She never knew who wrote it, but she guessed it was Hiro.
She carried on with her new life, moving out of her house to stay alone near the university, she became very close to Yuu and they were very loving. Due to an incident, Mika moved out of her apartment and began staying with Yuu. Except, every chirstmas, she still kept her promise to visit the baby's grave. On the first year after their break up, she saw on the grave a red boots with sweets and a pink mitten. Mittens were actually Hiro's gifts for the baby. Back before they knew the baby's gender he actually got a yellow one. But after they found out the baby was a girl, he bought a pink one. And when Mika found the pink mittens there, she was touched that he didn't forget his promise, but pushed herself to face reality and get on with life. On the second year after their breakup, Yuu drove her there on Chirstmas but never persued further. He knew it was an important thing for her and didn't ask but just quietly stood and waited for her at a distance. She was very greatful to him for it and ran over. She was shocked to see Hiro actually there. And so was Hiro. Because the year before, he went there earlier than Mika so he didn't thought that Mika would come. She felt lost but ultimately ran back to where Yuu stood. This was her choice then.
On the third chirstmas however, Mika found Nozomu at the grave with the same red boot and pink mitten. She asked him why he was here but Nozomu just asked if she was sure she wanted to know. Because he said what he was about to tell her might change her entire life.
Mika feared to know but she feared even more of regretting if she didn't listen to what he have to say. Nozomu then told her that Hiro couldn't come because he couldn't get the permission from the doctor to leave the hospital and that, he had cancer.
She couldn't believe her ears. And she started breaking down. Yuu then came to look for her and she told him everything. Yuu just gently told her to visit him first before she decides on anything. She listend to him and went to visit Hiro. Hiro was extremely shocked but was nevertheless happy that she came. Hiro's sister than told her that Hiro still loved her very much. And that everytime the door opened, he would look at it with hope that it would by Mika, despite knowing it to be impossible. Mika then learned from Nozomu that Hiro knew about his condition a few years back and told Nozomu that he had to leave Mika. Because Mika was a crybaby and lonely person who cannot live on her own. He didn't want her to be sadden should he leave the world one day, which he knew he soon will. Thus he began doing many things to make her hate her. But still, he couldn't forget her, nor did he want her to forget him. Thats why he began dating girls around her, and even her best friend. Mika made a decision and broke up with Yuu. She realized that still and all along, her heart belonged to Hiro. Hiro too asked her to come back to him. She stood by him and her life began to revolve around working part time, going to school and visiting him at the hospital. Because of her breaking up with Yuu and getting back with Hiro, many of her friends were rudely shocked by her choice and began to shun her. Mika started losing motivation to go to school, but still continued to do so because Hiro wanted her to. After some time, Hiro finally got permission to leave the hospital for 3 days. He spent the first two days at home with his family and on the 3rd day, he went on a date with Mika. They went back to the school where they talked about the old days and such. They ended up at the riverbank where they always hung out. Hiro then for the very first time, started breaking down infront of Mika. In front of Mika, he was always a very strong person and never showed any weakness. But for the first time, he broke down infront of her and cried that he didn't want to die. Mika was happy that he was willing to show her his weakness. However shortly, after that, Hiro passed away. Mika was left alone and when she even thought of suicide, but Hiro's sister passed her a note which was a diary Hiro kept and read through it. Hiro began writing it from the day he knew he had the illness. And she then knew about the many things he did to delibrately hurt her, how he always stood in the shadows and looked at her. And when she developed from the instant camera Hiro passed her which she brought to the hospital, she was shocked to see that aside from the 5 or so pictures she remembered taking with him, the rest of the pictures were actually photos of her taken by Hiro. It showed that he was always always watching her. The last picture was taken the day before he died and they promised to look at the photos together, but they never got to. Shortly after Hiro's death, Mika found out that she was pregnant with his child. This gave her the courage to live, and this is the actual ending of the novel.
ねぇ、
私は今でも 恋してるんだ。
(I am still in love, even now)
赤ちゃんがいる空に…
(with the sky where baby is...)
大好きなあの人が いる空に…
(with the sky where my most beloved person is...)
空に…
(with the sky...)
恋してるんだ。 恋してるんだ。
(I am in love.) I am in love.)
恋空…
Koizora. Love/Sky.]]
kimura5
2.12.07 @ 1:54 AM
I GOT MY FIRST EVER PAYCHECK TODAY!!! xD okays, i am not as excited as i may sound.. but it is still my first paycheck, the first one where i actually did real work for a change.. so, i am still pretty pleased with myself! XD it is a grand total of 239bucks! for around 2 weeks worth of work, about 3 hours daily.. it sounds easy ehh? but try doing it.. ^^ it doesn't sound much, but when u slogged out every night.. u will appreciate it.. i did, even if its only alittle bit.. 239, will be a special to me.. XD i am quite sure though, i will spend it all pretty soon.. DDD: my money!! >.< i must however thank my hairdresser.. apparently, alot of customers seem to be very very amused with my hair.. =/ and one even gave tips after he touched it.. it sounds stupid, but that really happened.. zomg.. i think it looks perfectly normal.. but well.. >.< ahh, okays.. enough of that.. i think i repeated that at least 3times.. lols! time to talk about the wedding.. the wedding was good.. but to be honest, i didn't think the so called kimura lookalike did look like kimura.. he was prolly only 35% to around 40% tops.. he looked more like bram to me seriously.. don't laugh dewei.. really!! >.< so i was abit disappointed.. no high hopes la.. but then.. expected more.. he was pretty good looking as comapred to alot of s'porean guys.. but average when u talk about good looking in the world sense.. since there wasn't much to talk about through the night, i was rather bored.. -nods- it was held at fullerton by the way.. i love fullerton, it is bloody high-class.. and the deco and atmosphere.. -dies- i wanna make there my home!!!! >.< or i can be vip and drive my bmw sports there to check in everytime i return to s'pore for a visit or smth.. =xx okok, backtrack.. the one redeeming point was that the waiter serving out table was the only cute one that one.. -beams- am so lucky! =x but it seems like he is new.. by the way he holds the tray etc.. but it doesn't matter.. lols.. he's cute.. and thats all that matters! XD hehs.. so thats about it.. i am really really glad to see my teacher getting married.. and i always feel touched to see ppl get married.. weddings are always special.. bonding of two people.. start of something new.. but i will never want to get married.. the ceremony itself is beautiful.. i am just afraid of the ugliness afterwards.. zero confidence in commitment.. >.<
i watched HERO again today!!!! zomg.. it is still full house okay! XD the cinema was smaller, but i am still damn touched it was full house! like how many days already!! seriously, the charm of kimura.. xDDD and it is proven, no can look like him.. no one at all.. he is the most special~! XDDD hua chi-ing~
junno7
1.12.07 @ 10:32 AM
haven't been posting for a few days and we are already into the month of december! thats really really fast don't u think so? >.< time really zooms! i haven't blogged about my boyfriend's birthday right? =x okok, my boyfriend aka junno.. lols! i think i totally went mad and went to tell practically everyone at tamaya that it was my boyfriend's birthday on 29th.. lols! but i didn't get home in time by japan's time to wish him happy birthday.. so i decided to wait till december 1st to then do it.. but but but, now, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO SAY AND HOW TO START SAYING IT!!! T.T gawd.. i fail.. but my love for junno did increase by miles after i watched the concert of cartoon KAT-TUN.. HE WAS SO SO SO SO HANDSOME!!!! he isn't skinny and he actually has muscles.. which is quite amazing for me, since JE usually equals to skinny.. i still can't really understand why he always gets bullied! lols.. but -shrugs- if he doesn't, it won't be junno anymore ehh.. all the dajares! i did manage to understand a few of his.. even if my grasp of japanese is horrendous.. i guess when it comes to pun of words, there is no language barrier! XD but i did realise one thing, i was the only one smiling? >.< zomg.. but his solo.. although it wasn't half as pretty as kame's.. half as mesmerizing as ueda's.. half as gangsta-ly as koki's.. and definitely not as good as yucci's.. but he was so so so so princely!!!! >.< it was quite funny.. but u can really see that he was trying his best.. his voice is near to cracking! and yahh, although his dancing never fails to crack me up.. his arms flailing about all round the place.. but to do that and have that enthusiasm for every single performance.. it isn't easy.. sure, he may not be as pretty as kame or jin.. people will easily forget his presence.. but his enthusiasm and smiles make up for all of it.. i have no idea about other people, but his smiles are just downright gorgeous.. even if he isn't smiling from deep down.. they are still really really really cute! and i like how he can make people smile.. he doesn't mind standing at the back to let the others take the front.. letting himself be the brunt of jokes so that others can laugh.. game for everything, from cool to downright stupid acts.. u just can't hate him for that.. the yellow really took me by surprise.. and i hated it from start.. i hated ueda with yellow hair.. hated gackt with yellow hair.. and i still don't have much pictures of koki when he was golden.. refused to look at ueda and gackt.. and i nearly died when junno had that hair.. but in the end, i kinda liked it.. junno never fails to amaze.. and he is still the only one i can stand with yellow hair.. still a no no for ueda and gackt.. XD and if yuto or kimura ever dye their hair that colour.. -bangs wall- it will be a terrifying image.. so its junno and only junno! that's the end of what i wanted to say.. it isn't a real birthday message.. but well, it does convey how much i like him! XDD i guess i will still save my first fanletter for him! -beams- BIDOU!!! will update on the wedding in the next post if not this will be ridiculously long.. and no one will want to read it.. DDD:
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