fave young actors
30.9.08 @ 11:23 PM
i figured since i already did a favorite old actor page, and there quite a few young actors that I think look pretty damn cute, i will do one for them too..
XD
so here we go~
let's start with the males,
but not in order cause i have no order for them uso desu! how can i ever not have placing?! XD
sato takeru -inserts millions of hearts-
you all can click on the names for their website links..
too lazy to do introduction etc..
just that i think they are very cuteeeeeeeeeeee.. XD
1.
Satou Takeru2.
Okada Masaki3.
Hongo Kanata4.
Hayato Ichihara5.
Yamamoto Yusuke6.
Igarashi Shunji7.
Seto Kojiconcert.
25.9.08 @ 7:16 PM
pamphlet 2000
poster 800
file 500
uchiwa 500 pen light 1300
shopping bag 300
bath towel 3000
small towel 500
sports towel 1800
wristband 600
handphone strap 1500 key ring 1500
cap 3000
T-Shirt (in white,black and grey) 3800
pouch 2500 eco bag 2500
room shoes 2500
chopstick 1800 earphone 2000
diary 3000
mug 500 boots 8000
ribbon scarf 2000
mirror 2000
getting those in bold, many thanks to kathleen!
but i can't help but wonder, how come there is no shop photos/concert photos this time round?
according to reports, kimura takuya that ass, kissed a random lucky fan chosen to go up on stage..
LIPS TO LIPS!
LIPS TO LIPS!
LIPS TO LIPS!
omg.. -crumbles and die-
TOKYO DOME
Sept 24, 2008 - 6:00
Sept 25, 2008 - 6:00
Sept 26, 2008 - 6:00
Sept 28, 2008 - 6:00
Sept 29, 2008 - 6:00
Sept 30, 2008 - 6:00
OSAKA KYOCERA DOME
Oct 7, 2008 - 7:00
Oct 8, 2008 - 6:30
Oct 9, 2008 - 6:00
FUKUOKA YAHOO DOME
November 19, 2008 - 6:30
November 20, 2008 - 6:30
November 21, 2008 - 6:30
NAGOYA DOME
November 26, 2008 - 6:30
November 27, 2008 - 6:30
SAPPORO DOME
December 2, 2008 - 6:30
December 3, 2008 - 6:30 
most retarded uchiwa, ever.
Sports.Music.Assemble.People.
@ 1:10 AM
Its the 25th now and thus, officially marks the end of the 1st out of the 6 days Tokyo Dome concert that SMAP is currently holding..
And also the release of their album..
I hope the songs are good cause I finally made an order for it..
Downloaded the scans and the songs, but no, I will resist temptation to listen to it till I get my copy of the album..
I really really really liked their new single though..
Its really catchy and happy..
Their 19th album.. ^^ for their 20th year formation..
XD
SMAP makes me really really happy and I guess that's why KAT-TUN has dropped..
They used to make me really really happy too but not so much anymore..
Would you all if given a chance, like 50/50 that your idol is able to read your fanletter, would you all write it?
And finally, good luck to SMAP!
For their 6 days Tokyo Dome, hope everything will go well.. XD
24th,25th,26th,28th,29th,30th.
-prays for concert details-
This november, he turns 36. I can't believe he is still so damn hot.
job vacancies
24.9.08 @ 12:54 PM
Just made a phonecall to kino.
TOMORROW.
I suspect the lady knows that I am buying this issue of AnAn cause of the cover, cause she told me this, "Don't worry, we are shipping alot this time."
-snorts-
I nearly couldn't get my last year issue but I found the last one hidden beneath all the magazines in Bugis.
Anyway, its coming in at 2 tomorrow.
-rub hands in anticipation-
Ok people who actually do read my blog.
The thing is this, my workplace, they are kind of desperate for people now and so there are job vacancies.
If anyone needs a job, tell me?
The working hours are not the usual kind though..
The restaurant opens at night so you would only have to start work at
630 and depending on the customer flow you end work from
930 to latest 1100/1130.
I personally think that the job is damn bloody easy compared to other jobs, but I think you have to actually like Japanese culture, cause the majority of our customers are Japanese with a handful of locals.
Since its the service line are Japanese are rather particular about service and also cause its a drinking place, I think you more or less have to like Japanese.
Or at least, that will make your life better.
The pay will have to depend on my manager cause I am not sure, but I think it ranges from 5.50 to 6.50, that, I am really not sure, cause some started with 6 or 5.50 but I started with 6.50 per hour of course.
All that said, you will have to go through an interview with my manager before she decides if you will be in or not.
Yups, so if you are interested, drop me a tag or something.
If Junno ever gets himself a tattoo on his back as big as his girlfriend's friends (and if JE doesn't force him to remove it), I am gonna curse the girl and Junno too. -.- Komine Rena really looks different with clothes on and off. People usually transit from gravure idol (i think its akin to porn star) to actress, she is the opposite. JUNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I am still in a bit of a shock. Yea, that girl in the first picture is his supposedly rumoured girlfriend, they got back together after breaking up before. She is older than him by 5 years. And the second picture, those are her friends. People that Junno is apparently hanging out with now. I hate judging people by looks, but I am human and I am weak too. So, forgive me for saying this, JUNNO CAN U HANG OUT WITH MORE DECENT PEOPLE?!!!!?!?!!
-rants a whole paragraph-
15th time AnAn No.1
23.9.08 @ 7:24 PM
The title is enough to speak for itself. He bagged it again. Obasans, you old ladies really don't disappoint. I feel sorry for Fukuyama though, every time Takuya bags the number one position, he is bound to get number two. Sorry dude, Takuya is just too awesome. ^^ Jin did really well this time too, kicked Nakai down to number 5 and moved up 5 places to number 3. Not bad, really good. Maybe he will be number 2 next year. But if, I mean IF next year Takuya loses to Jin, I hope that Jin can last as long as Takuya did. 15 years. Really really really amazing record. He is 36 this year, so, he has been winning this award since 21 years old. -sighs- Seriously, apart from "SAIKOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!", I don't know what to say already. He should already be in AnAn's Hall of Fame for winning so many freaking times. Talking about my kamisama reminds me that I think Shizuka Kudo recently released a new album. Ok, not that recent, about 1 month ago. On August 20th. Was flipping through TV Guide during lunch and suddenly an ad came into sight. I was thinking, "This woman looks damn familiar. Oh right. Shizuka Kudo. HIS wife. =.= -.-" So the rumours about her releasing a new work is true, so I can't help but wonder if the rumours about Kamisama being unhappy with he returning to showbiz is true too. Poor kids though. Both parents busy with their careers. I just realised, Jin didn't make the biggest jump, Oguri Shun did. 10 freaking places. And he is not even hot. -coughsmatsjuniscoughs- Even though MJ lost to Jin, at least he improved 1 place. Both at the expense of poor Nakai. Takki dropped alot though. 11 places. Woah. And so that concludes the yearly AnAn poll. With Kimura Takuya, my kamisama as the top again, for the 15th time. I am satisfied.
Last year's cover. Tomorrow, the new one is coming out. With the champion as the cover page of course. It looks promising. Am rushing down to Kinokuniya tomorrow to see if they have shipped it in already. -smooches-
2008 Anan's Top Male Idol
()compared to last year's ranking
1. Kimura Takuya (15th year at #1 spot) (-)
2. Fukuyama Masaharu (-)
3. Akanishi Jin (+5)
4. Matsumoto Jun (+1)
5. Nakai Masahiro (-2)
6. Yamashita Tomohisa (+8)
7. Katori Shingo (-1)
8. Okada Junichi (-4)
9. Oguri Shun (+10)
10. Kusanagi Tsuyoshi (+1)
11. Kamenashi Kazuya (-1)
12. Inagaki Goro (-3)
13. Tsumabuki Satoshi (-6)
14. Sakurai Sho (+7)
15. Domoto Koichi (-)
16. Ninomiya Kazunari (+2)
17. Eita (+9)
18. Nagase Tomoya (-2)
19. Tamaki Hiroshi (+5)
20. Nishikido Ryo (+2)
21. Ikuta Toma (new)
22. Kenichi Matsuyama (new)
23. Takizawa Hideaki (-11)
24. Ohkura Tadayoshi (+3)
25. Mokomichi Hayami (-8)
26. Koike Teppei (-3)
27. Ichihara Hayato (new)
28. Narimiya Hiroki (-)
29. Koide Keisuke (+1)
30. Miura Haruma (new)
everything i missed out on
@ 12:50 AM
Recently, with the exception of rin, I think there are ALOT of JE fans popping out. Faster than you can say "BABY!" Like alot, seriously. Not that its a bad thing, its fun to see new fans spazzing. It kind of makes me feel like spazzing and reigniting the long gone flame. Anyway, me and Yui were discussing, if we have boyfs, whose concert will we bring them to and those we will definitely not bring them too. NewS, Hey!Say!JUMP for pretty obvious reasons immediately went into the latter segment. We both agreed KAT-TUN and SMAP are the ones we can bring them to. I won't mind bringing him to an Arashi concert, but Yui wouldn't. Tokio is totally awesome and I think no matter male or female, Nagase Tomoya is just too amazing to not watch. So Tokio too. I think KinkiKids is acceptable, but I can't make up my mind on V6. They are still the very typical boyband type. Then again, if I can accept on Arashi, I should think V6 can make it too. So all in all, I think I will only reject NewS and Hey!Say!JUMP. I can't wait for Ryo/Nino's drama, even though I really really really dislike Toda Erika. But a new pairing, kind of excited about it. Watched Koizora the drama version yesterday. I don't know about you all, but I thought it was pretty well done. I cried buckets. To be honest, I have no idea why I cried. It wasn't especially sad until the end. My heart just totally broke. It is definitely better than the movie, cause they didn't have sex like the second day they met. Seto Koji/Mizusawa Elena, they didn't look outstanding like the Aragaki Yui/Miura Haruma pair, their acting is rather off, but maybe because they are new at this(acting) they gave off a very pure feeling. Just like how first love seems to be for people. Pure and untainted. The whole story was also very much more believable than the movie. If the movie ruined the whole feel, I think that the drama redeemed the media version of the story. Haven't finished watching the summer dramas, but Taiyou to Umi no Kyoushitsu seems promising. Will get around to watching it. Shibatora is rather good imo. Lotto 6 is so boring I really am quite disappointed. I expected more. But, -shrugs- I hope the next show is better. Monster Parent up next.
good night sleep!
21.9.08 @ 12:47 AM
today was a busy but happy day..
i don't actually like having no customers because it is damn bloody boring..
true, u get paid for doing nothing except standing there, talking and occasionally doing work..
but i really much rather prefer moving and working..
AND THE REALLY CUTE CUSTOMER CAME TODAY!
XD
regular customer but he is really cute yo..
as in, looks wise and character he presents wise..
he looks kinda ermm alien-ish and he is really quite shy..
like he doesn't speak much unless under the influence of alcohol..
actually, he got this otaku vibes..
^~^
friend of my manager..
he is uhmm, 25 and has no gf..
i even got his namecard today!
all thanks to sunny, cause she took the name of his shochu bottle and promptly gave me his namecard instad of returning it..
but i forgot to take it out of my pocket and now its in the locker..
i think he is called mori-something..
>.<
cho kawaii!
met ryouko by accident today, total conincidence..
XD
i still haven't got to eat my vanilla cone from macs!
tomorrow! must eat tomorrow!
i miss it bloody alot..
D:
it tastes especially good after a hard night of work..
yummeh!
sold my KAT-TUN calendar, where i thought junno looked really damn good..
but if i procrastinate, i will never get around to selling it..
=/
-sighs-
sorry ne, junno..
>.<
ok, shall go wash the stink off and continue watching seigi no mitaka..
wah, damn funny the show..
shida mirai.. XD
one of my favourite actresses..
yamada yuu is really quite pretty and has a to-die-for figure..
compared to suzuki emi, she has a more refined feel, like, higher class?
idk how to explain, i think both are really pretty, but suzuki emi feels more futsuu as compared to yamada yuu..
apparently rumours are saying she and oguri shun are dating?
well, yamada yuu and oguri shun?
XD
i think they look really good together..
just like how i really like the tomaxmaki pairing..
pixmaki feels unbalanced, but tomaxmaki?
i like..
XDDD
history of JE love :)
19.9.08 @ 3:16 PM
Around two and a half summers ago, I fell in love with KAT-TUN, the absolute win of a JE band. Everything was about them, they topped all my charts, I bought their boxset (which turns about to be rather rare) when I barely knew them. To be more accurate, it was the power of the Kamenashi Kazuya since apart from him I pretty much thought the others were damn ugly. My first Japanese magazine was WinkUp. From then on, I dropped the korean fandom like hot potatoes, faster than you can say SM Entertainment. And promptly lost a few friends but gained a few too at the same time. Poor Kame got dropped too as time passed and Junno replaced him, the position as my favourite of the group never wavered whereas those behind him constantly switched around. Even though he is the silliest, seemingly the least liked, the most mocked, Junno is still the most awesome. There was a period of time though when his overall number 2 position in my JE ranking was threatened by the kid called Yuto. However, time passed and he proved to be the better one. XD Junno eventually won out. Now, two and a half summers later, what I felt for them then, is no longer what I feel for them now. The rich sweet Ribena taste has mellowed into a bland water. Water is always good for health though. Just that now, the stuff I painstakingly collected over the years, should I sell them to fans who actually need them? Or should I leave them on my racks to collect them and reminisce about the band who brouhgt me into J-fandom? No, it isn't even SMAP because I only liked SMAP after I got into the J-fandom. SMAP and Kimura Takuya are two different matters. Kimura Takuya as an individual and Kimura Takuya in SMAP, I fell for them at two different times. And it was KAT-TUN that brought me to the latter. Would I regret when finally I clear all my stuff? Or would I scamper to fill up those empty spaces with SMAP. And Junno, the one very strong reason why I don't want to let them go. Junno is in them. I sold off the shop photos that didn't contain Junno. Bought even more shop photos that have Junno. Plastered his uchiwa on the wall when I am planning to sell the rest. Hesitating whether or not I should sell items that have him. Because no matter how bland KAT-TUN is now to me, Junno is still rock solid on my list. How? Junno. Prince of KAT-TUN. Always. Even though I always wince at what you say, even though no one seems to appreciate your jokes (I do, duh. The funniest joker.), I still like you best. ^^ Maybe, at least for now, I won't sell my albums, singles and pamphlets. Maybe I will regret when in the future I can no longer sell them, but I think for now, I still can't bear to part with Junno. Time to clear the uchiwas. ^^
LIVE = EVIL
18.9.08 @ 8:20 PM
Maou is a terribly depressing show.
Sometimes the truth is not always what it seems to be and to believe in your loved ones is very important.
Hate is such a powerful destructive weapon.
One will always have to pay for your sins, no matter who.
Ohno and Toma.
Another two amazing actors from JE to add to the ranks of Nagase, Nino, Tsuyoshi, Nakai and Takuya.
stop spending!
17.9.08 @ 1:15 AM
ok, i have decided this..
i don't know how long my resolve will last but i will cut down on my spending..
wahh seriously, the amount i spend is horrendous with a capital H..
>.<
i scare even myself..
that said, i think i should avoid going out less so i won't walk pass the shops and be induced to spend..
D:
must stop spending unnecessarily..
only one item off my list every month and that's that..
-frowns-
must have the willpower..
i think i am really super whooper poor..
and still spend so much..
grahhhs..
-mental slap-
the best thing is, i think compared to the past, i already cut down my expenses quite massively already..
i can't even begin to imagine how i used to be..
D:
must plan yo..
if not later i become the new lead of binbo danshi then die..
T^T
my good food~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
-krais-
and c'mon, get the fucking hint..
i
am
super
annoyed
with
you
get the hell away from me!
=.=
not referring to the same person as the previous previous post ehh..
results.
@ 1:15 AM
Module Code - Credit Unit - Grade
SC5000 - 3 - A
LC1118 - 2 - DIST
SC5004 - 3 - B
LC1130 - 2 - C
SC5003 - 2 - C+
SC5006 - 3 - C+
SC5007 - 3 - C+
SC5002 - 2 - C+
SC5001 - 3 - C+
SC5005 - 2 - D
SEMESTER GPA: 2.7
CUMULATIVE GPA: 2.7
ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
super sian diao..
=.=
not here not there..
and it seems quite terrible?
D:
SO MANY C+!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am grateful for CRS and Applied Drama..
the psychology exams are well, like that lor..
i think FBS pulled me down to hell..
=.=
sian ji bua..
i should aim for at least all B next semester..
if in secondary school, C+ would be awesome grades already cause its B3 standard..
wah kao ehh.. =.=
okokok!!!!
3.0 for next semester ok.. aim low first..
dammit!
really quite sian diao la.. DDD:
which idiot apart from me gets like 6 freaking Cs?!
T^T
university requirements are either 1) Be very rich and study overseas or 2) 3.5 and above for your GPA
i currently don't fulfill either..
fanpost :)
14.9.08 @ 1:59 AM
Embarking, today's word of the day is embarking.
don't bother asking me why cause it just popped into my head out of a sudden..
XD
and it feels like a pretty word for today..
i am back to being a drama-addict after a couple of months of total rejection..
hmm, catching up on last season's, chasing after this season's..
XD
i feel kinda happy that i want to watch dramas again..
because as far back as i can recall, i always loved dramas..
hmm, stories to be exact..
maybe that's why i read..
and anyway, 33 pun tantei totally killed my braincells..
not in the good way..
i totally died watching it..
IT IS SO DAMN RETARDED OK!
=.=
zomg..
but its hilarious watching tsuyoshi act..
he is a really amazing actor, he should act more seriously..
let's see, i think in JE, nino, him and nagase are the best actors seriously..
obviously i think kimura takuya is amazing too..
but the other 3, wahhhhhh POWARRRRR! :D
its a breeze watching them act..
i bet my CDrive's dramas will be cleared in no time..
very motivated to watch the dramas now..
XD
gonzo is very interesting.. human struggle with detective flavour..
whoopeedoo!
maou next..
and the dude who used kame's photo as the funeral photo for your shanghai show..
please, just quit alright..
u don't just "chance upon" kame's photo..
especially one that is from a magazine shot..
omg.. =.=
and trying to induce guilt by saying its your favorite work..
read, W H A T E V E R.
and and and rin, if u ever read this, WHAT WERE THE MEME QUESTIONS?!
D:
You Are Lightning
|
Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you're capable of random violence
You are best known for: your power
Your dominant state: performing
|
i like the "random violence" part.. XD
You Are an Orange Flower
|
An orange flower tends to represent boldness, energy, and warmth.
At times, you are courageous, like a poplar tree.
And at other times, you are hopeful, like an orange iris.
And more than you wish, you bond too quickly to people, like a honeysuckle.
|
You Are A Lily
|
You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.
People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.
You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.
Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.
|
i went ._____________________. this is a friggin' lie..
all pretty words and none is true..
=.=
You Are 55% Normal
|
While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself
|
You Will Be an Unconventional Bride!
|
You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married - until you met *him*
You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJ's
That's okay - you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen
While you may not toss the bouquet (or have anyone to toss it to), it will still be the most romantic day of your life!
|
if i ever get around to getting married, i will inform ya'all..
XD
You Are Punk Music
|
You've thought long and hard about what mainstream society has to offer...
And you've pretty much decided that most normal things aren't for you.
You're creative, expressive, and likely to do things yourself.
You are a rebel and a fighter. You'll defend your point of view to anyone.
|
pisser!
12.9.08 @ 12:03 AM
i am so annoyed and pissed off right now.
but because there is a chance she will read this, i will not elaborate.
just this.
i am so fucking fed up.
people close to me i realise, have this massive tendency to irritate me.
and recently, its her.
or maybe i am just being really short-fused.
i hate being made to feel like i am _________.
keep doing that.
and trust me, the next time, i won't even fucking bother.
so much for happy promises.
-screams a whole list of vulgarities-
SMAP's debut anniversary
10.9.08 @ 12:23 AM
I procrastinated for the whole day, doodling it away, reading, reading and still more reading. Today is SMAP's debut anniversary. 17 years to be exact. Why so sure? Because they debuted the same year I was born. So to say, my favorite JE group is even older than I am. D: Which is very very true in fact, because just by the date itself, they are already older and that is not counting they were formed three years before they were allowed to debut. Amazing eh. I only got to know their debut date like last couple of months, but more importantly, alot more important than SMAP's debut. Today, holds a far greater meaning than that. I doubt anyone apart from my parents and the parties involved would know of this matter. I would know who knows and currently I know that nobody knows of this matter, so don't even try guessing simply because you won't know the whole truth. This post is not to provide gossip fodder just a form of reflection for myself. Continue reading if you want, but I wouldn't mind if you stopped here either. It won't be anything interesting. And even if I may have mentioned it in passing or spoke a little about it, it is not the whole puzzle, just probably the frame, it is too long a story, too emotionally wracking and too raw to share now. This is a day that I know I won't forget. Every single fucking minute of that episode, I remember clearly, all the minute and irrelevant details. The feelings and senses dragged from memory, still crystal clear. I think I have blogged about it before, just not the exact day and no specific mention, just the raw emotions and thoughts. Maybe three years or more before I am ready to share that experience. I rarely regret the things I do, actions I take, words I say. Because I know. subconciously, I mean to do them. Just that one, that very one last year. I sincerely regret the act. I can file it under an experience, but also, it would be one I can do without. Sometimes I think what would life be like now if that didn't happen, all the ripples in the river after the stone is thrown, would they all disappear? The hurt and wounds inflicted. If one good thing came out of the damned incident it would realising how much my parents love me and vice versa. Guilt became an omnipresence, always lurking about, never far from mind. Actions that you do and you regret eventually leave scars that will never heal. At least for mine I know that even years down the road, that day, that episode as I call it, even though it may not have lasted more than 8 hours, it had felt that 8 long days. And there is no one to blame except myself. That, I was very clear on. So ashamed of myself. Hah, what a dumb speech to say now. I don't know the future consequences my foolish action from last year may bring, but I can't really do anything except hoping and praying that the worst of the worst is already over. You know about hidden skeletons in the closet? Well, that episode certainly fits the bill for mine.
9/9 the day of happiness and regrets.
andy's birthday celebration
7.9.08 @ 2:54 AM
XD
went tamaya to have dinner, first person i see is beer belly..
lucky he didn't see val/hs, really am not interested in seeing him leer at them..
=.=
dinner was surprisingly not very expensive..
and then we headed down to timbre for drinks..
but seriously, we just plain ran out of luck..
it was pouring like idk what and we didn't manage to get drinks cause it was a bloody long wait and we decided to leave..
>.<
slacked at sutaaarbarks and camwhored..
andy has a million gossips to share and i realise, i miss them.. XD
HOPE U ALL HAD A GREAT NIGHT DESPITE TIMBRE, CAUSE I CERTAINLY DID! ^~^
yeahh, snipped my hair off totally.. XD
the group photos are in andy's camera..
we took like a million group photos and only like one? or maybe not even one seemed to be perfect.. XD
hahaha.. damn funny experience!
and even though i get so many friggin' weird looks daily ever since i snipped off my hair, i still kinda like it.. XDDD
unanswered questions
6.9.08 @ 12:09 PM
I kind of figured out why my favourite genre in books is mysteries. It is not I secretly want to be a superhero for others, because the only people I will ever be superhero for is my kid, my spouse and myself. If you know me well, you know that will never happen because I am just not too interested in the incentives that government is dishing out like candies. It is also not that I am that evil to not want to be superhero for my parents but because, they are already my superhero. But anyway back to mysteries, I think when I first started out reading them, I thought it was pretty far-fetched, how in the holy blazes can such things happen! Disembowelment, rape-murder, all sorts of evil acts that I didn't believe existed, much less happen in real life. That was three years back. Reading mysteries sort of pulled me up, roots and all from the flowery and happy life I was living in. I never read a chick-flick without a healthy dose of skepticism again. Actually, I realise, I don't have a single chick-flick in my whole library of books. The thing that scares me is not the whole grisly murders and dark, gloomy plot of mysteries, but the fact that books always paint a prettier picture than what really happens. Everything falls nicely into place because there is a plan, but in life, can anyone really predict what will happen and write out a plan for us to follow? Even so, how many people will actually renounce power of their own lives to others? If nothing was useful and the books are all a whole load of cowdung, I learnt one thing, humans are selfish creatures. Not in the sense that we will all kill each other to survive, but in the sense that if it comes to the crux, better you dead than me. I haven't got to that stage where I am that delusional to be seeing serial killers and rapists everywhere, but just that, I believe, everyone, everyone has the potential to be all those that we look down to. Just a push, a shove, we may all turn into the monsters we swore to hunt down and dispel from our lives, because inside all of us, I feel, lives an inner demon. Humanity isn't all without faith and hope but I think mysteries made me realise that light and dark exists in equal doses. Light don't really triumph over dark and obviously dark rarely holds an edge over light for long. Police officers being corrupt. Look at the irony in that sentence. If evil didn't exist, that is as likely as saying that the Pandora Box was never opened. Impossible. I guess why I want to go into this field of work(not writing mysteries, but forensics/criminology) is because, I want a closer look at these people. I don't doubt for a minute that they will do whatever they did to their victims to me, neither am I doing this for the greater good of humanity, trying to save the world bullshit, but because I think to be able to get one perpetrator off the streets it would mean allowing at least one more person to breathe easy at night. Sometimes, they go after victims they feel owe them something, but just because he hurt you, I don't believe it warrants you hurting him back, because if you do so, you are sinking as low as him. The courts exist for a reason. Frivolous speech, but an eye for an eye, makes a whole world blind. I hate philosphy with a passion because I hate unanswered questions, but I think again, how many questions in life have a model answer to it? So maybe, Plato isn't really a waste of time afterall. But still, give me Literature anyday over Philosophy. Questions, questions, answers appeals alot more than questions, questions and still questions.
to my friend :)
5.9.08 @ 12:51 AM
It doesn't matter what is good or bad in society terms, because we will never know for sure what is really good or bad. Everything differs with people, if you are happy with the decision you made and you believe that it it the right one for you, then follow it all the way to the end. Only you will know what is the best for yourself. This is not a one size fit all matter so go get your measurements and make the most fitting suit alright? To hell with those who ever disagrees for their own self-righteous reasons because they are obviously not you and whatever they say, does not matter, because for one simple reason, they are not you. Life won't be life without the doses of risk, pain and hurt. It may hurt a lot now and for the next few months and even years, but if you didn't choose to take this path, maybe it would have hurt even more in the future when you think back and see what you have missed out on. The future is unpredictable, no one knows what will happen and to be honest, whatever that is presented on the surface, may not be what is beneath. It is hard to be really really honest and bare it all out. I may not be in the position to say all these, but I guess what is really really crucial is time. Time will tell what is real and what is not, time will heal wounds and even if they never fully recover and leave a scar, at the very least, the wound would not be exposed. Do whatever that makes you happy, but, yes, there is always a but to everything, just keep yourself safe, no matter what, you are the centre of your universe and you must always be your own top priority, so please, keep yourself safe. Don't worry. Stay happy and be safe. I may not yet be mature enough to know about all the dark and ugly facades that Man have, may not be old enough to have gone through a lot in life, may not fully understand the consequences it will bring, but this much I know. Listen to yourself. Intuition, instincts, important tools for survival. And I will always always always lend u my fists. They are pretty awesome. :D
snip snips snipped!
2.9.08 @ 9:31 PM
today started as a lazy day and gradually progressed to a more proactive one..
XD
lis and janiao dated me out to town..
to do our favourite hobby, SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
i only bought from one place though, never bought from there before but it seemed rather affordable so went to purchase from there..
went to wisma's cotton on..
then we had the oh-so-delicious prata sausages from taka!
they are THE heaven ok!
>.<
the prata is yummmmmmmmmmmms! shiok!
but i really really really detest pigeons..
all stay away from me or i'll shoot chuuuuu! >.<
ok anyway we had a slacking/chatting/questioning session at pasir ris mrt stn..
wah piang ehhs, damn hilarious ok!
personal life personal life.. XD
humms, janiao asked me one question which i haven't thought about since a long time..
"when do u want to have a boyfriend?"
=.= was my firstest reaction..
i mean, how do u answer questions like that?!
i don't know la, now? a few more months?
it comes it comes lor..
and anyway, XD now, my hair dries in 5 mins..
wanna know why? lols..
GUESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
janiao was the pushing factor that caused me get my 4th piercing done..
=/
she just totally dragged me into the shop and told the person..
-points at me-
she wants to pierce her ear..
oh dear, and so, i did it..
at the same old place where my previous one was.. ^~^
ok, survey time! XD
Name 20 people
1. Binx2
2. Dewei
3. Lis
4. Janel
5. Andy
6. LayLay
7. Valerie
8. HuiShan
9. Celestine
10. Ryouko
11. Rin
12. GG
13. Hiroki
14. SiJia
15. Sipei
16. Andrea
17. Yui
18. Nao
19. Yuma
20. Jas
How did you meet 14?
Ex-classmate. For 4 friggin' years. -sighs- JustJoking!!! ilu ahjiajia! XD
What would you do if you never met 1
No friggin' way. Constant GOOD presence in my life.
What if 9 and 20 date each other?
-snorts- you wish. either one has to change sex.
Will 6 and 17 date?
NOOOOOOOO! not possible. ever.
Describe 3!
This girl. XD ermm a more bimbotic version of me?
Is 8 attractive?
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh. I'd better. XD
Describe 7
She is so cute and sweet, talking to her is like an overdose of candies&chocolates&cakes.
Do you know any of 12's family members?
Herself only. But I know she has a sister and mum and dad.
What at if 18 confesses to you he or she likes you?
Freak out and never go for work. But, she is pretty cool. XD
What language does 15 speak?
Media & camera talk.
Who's going out with 9?
Let's see, none that I know of. XD and I doubt there is any.
How old is 16?
One year older.
When did u last speak to 13?
A couple of days back. On MSN. I MISS THAT DUDE LA! D:
Who is 2's favourite singer?
Gackt? Since Yoshiki is not a singer.
Would you ever date with 4?
ERMMMMMMMMMM. I would if she is a male. Cause JANIAO IS AWESOME! But I will have to learn good smooching skills and be very romantic. Tsk.
Will you ever date with 1?
No actually. Because if I do, I won't have my BFF already. XD
Is 19 single?
She is attached to her baseball gloves. And in her dreams, Nakai. ^^
What is 10's last name?
Miyahara!
School of 3.
SP!!!
Where does 6 live?
One of the blocks of flats beside the HongKahCC.
What is your favourite thing of 5?
He, is the funniest guy i ever met and he is one of my good friends, doesn't hurt that he has awesome fashion sense. TRIPLE LOVE ANDY!
Have you seen 2 naked?
No thank you. I don't ever want to.
Now choose 5 people to do the test
I don't think they will do anyway, so forget it ya? XD
will u ever see me?
just once?
for all the times i searched for u through the masses.
maybe just one friggin' time.
crazily.maeda-san
@ 12:30 AM
ok so, this is the case..
i am back on rebound.. XD
and maeda-san is super funny/mean..
esp towards rinako-san.. >.<
here is snippets of the conversation we had.. lmao..
-points to random sumo list pasted on the door-
asks meiling, "So, which one u want? This one (first name on the list) cannot, this one is for rinako."
-dais laughing-
i didn't know he is 32 and i find 32 quite old..
so i just spouted that he is rather old..
and then he starts faking deaf..
and then i exclaimed on the fact that rinako-san is older than him..
he goes, "u must see carefully! u look at my face, my figure and my skin, HOW CAN I BE OLDER THAN HER?! she is 4 years older than me! 4 years! u see carefully, must see carefully!"
and his comment on her getting married soon..
"Last chance, this is her last chance to get married. If she -does action that represents her failing- then she cannot get married already."
and i end up laughing so damn hard..
he is really mean i swear.. XD
esp the sumo one, it just came out of random ok!
and then the whole onslaught of jokes about rinako-san just came out of the blue..
lmao..
and then his joke about meiling and the eight eggs being her eight sisters..
XDDDDDD
i think his girlfriend is doing a really good job of pleasing him..
lolololol!
had a date with celestine today.. XD
took puris and slacked for a super long period of time..
lols.. we always slack.. =/
went to LV to search for my new pencilcase but we kinda realised that LV don't sell pencilcases..
so we gave up, but not before i found out the price of the potential present for my dad..
XD
i cannot remember the name, but i think it costs 615..
pretty reasonable if u ask me..
and we both agree that the army print for this season sucks big time..
=/
i am happy.
dammit!
1.9.08 @ 1:35 AM
i swear i will never eat shihlin's chicken.. never ever again..
ever since that day i ate that my left-hind gums have been hurting like crazy..
and i think i am suffering from insomnia..
D:
stupid chicken..
it's either that or my wisdom tooth is finally growing out..
>.<
but whatever it is, i only know my left gum is damn painful..
and no matter what, i think that when you start playing about with that sore spot and the gum just kinda splits, it is not a good omen..
i reckon gums are not supposed to split or even seem like its splitting..
right?
DDD:
EDIT:
MY MAID IS ANNOYING ME TO NO END!
D:
i wanna do my exercises and she refuses to get the hint and out of my room..
stop acting chummy with me cause we are not..
argh! i need to go the dentist one yo..
=.=
tskk.
&everytime i think i have taken three steps forward
i realise the next day
i have taken five back
